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Time's running fast in the clock.

Hobi must be home by now. And i really--- like badly want him to know the miracle news.

Why miracle news?

Remember that i told you about us trying to make one during our countless (whoop-whoopppppp!) love making hoping to bare our very own child to make our family complete.

But not in a way I'm saying that I am not contented with Hobi, it's just that you know it is an understading to a man and a woman to want their own children.

And during that time we went to visit a doctor to undergo some test if we have or one of us had a fertility problem, especially me.

And of course i do remember clearly that time when the doctor dropped the most shattering bomb.

"Mrs. Jung I'm glad to say that your Reproductive System are doing well and it seems that there's no problem with it. But----" said Doctor Kim. I sigh in relief and grabbed Hobi's hand while he kissed the top of my head.

"But what Mr. Kim? Is there any problem?" Hobi asked as the doctor who stopped mid-sentence.

I sense the uncomfortability and nervousness in my husbands way of squeezing my hand as he gulp audibly.

I squeezed back his hand to comfort him.

"I'm really sorry to say this Mr. Jung but, the test we conducted did clearly said that you are unproductive. I'm really sorry." Mr. Kim said sadly and leave after patting Hobi's shoulder a way to comfort him, somehow.

Shocks registered. And i just found my cheerfull and bubbly, beautiful ray of sunshine chocking in his hot tears.

My whole body turned numb. I can't move my feet.

Hobi turned to look at me. Tears freely falls from his beautiful eyes.

"I- i-m re-really so-so-sorry Y/N -ssi." he said and ran out.

I tried to called him out, but it seem that he doesn't even heard me. Like i'm just nothing.

I wiped my tears and controlled my breathing first before sprinting out to followed the direction he just turned.

I'm slow so the heck i'm gonna catched up any moment by now in that horse, it seems impossible dude.

But the heck, i'm not gonna stop till i find him.

I was already outside the hospital but there is no Hoseok to be found.

I ran to some stranger asking if they happen to saw a man running while i showed them up his photo.

Well, our wedding photo to be exact.

"I'm sorry but no. No we didn't saw him." their common replies.

I stop for a while and catched my breath. I closed my eyes as i sat down the side of the road.

I opened my eyes as i ran my eyes through the peaceful night time. Not many people are around but its not less so, its not that creepy.

I decided to continue my search as i walked a nearby park.

I stopped and scrutenized the area.

Then suddenly a sudden realization hit me. Well, who the heck will not gonna think where a depressed person go when they need some time alone. Well, i'm just that.

I'm such a dimwit.

I search for him. I ran through the kids playing. Some even jumped out in surprised when i ran passed them as i shouted an apology.

I go to our favorite spot,

Under the bridge near the manmade lake.

And there he is. Crying like there's no tommorow.

I really breaks my heart seeing him like this. My tears freely cascaded down  my cheeks as i walked slowly towards him and dropped down and hugged him for comfort and said nothing but sweet and comforting words.

"Hey Hobi, please stop crying baby,okay? You know it makes me cry too? Don't you remember saying, you don't want to see me crying because of you?" I asked while playing his hair to soothe his tense muscles and weak state.

"Ye-- yes." he replied with strain voice due to crying a lot.

"Then, can you please stop crying? Cause it really hurts me a lot too, seeing you crying this hard. I'm not use to see you like this you know."

"Your my ball of sun that shine brightly in the darkest day."

"Your my hope when times i'm in my darkest day."

"Your my very own guardian angel that save me everytime i'm in the wrong way."

"Your my king that promised me that you'll make me your only queen."

"And your my very own, beautiful husband that love me for who i am, for loving every flaws i have, every imperfection i bare, and every piece i am."

"B- but, i don't deserve yo---"

"Shut up for now Hoseok and let me speak first. And don't you even dare say to me fucking Jung Hoseok that you don't deserve me cause in fact i am the one who supposed to say that."

"And  I understand that your crying and broken because you cannot give me child. But that's not a problem to me Hobi. Give me or can't give me a child, i will gonna always choose to be with you and only you."

"Your the one I only love and will always will. So, don't be paranoid Hoseok. I'm. Not. Gonna. Leave. You. And thats a No. Fucking. Hell! You understood?" I whispered in his ears as his crying seems to go more heavier.

"I th-thought th-that yo-you'll g-gonna lea-leave me be-hind just because i-i ca-cannot g-gi-give you ch-children. A-and i'm re-really s-so-sorry for that Y/N-ssi." he said through his hiccups and heavy tears.

I wiped my tears and everything went black.

Annyeong chingu's! YASSSSSSSS! Here's the update my dearest readers huhuhu. thanks for the support, votes, comments.

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