It's been a week since sleeping with Eli. I haven't seen nor spoken to him. However I always have him in my mind.

"Babe we need to talk", Nathan barges through the door.

I feel my heart fall down to my stomach guilt setting in making me extremely nervous.

Did he find out?

"Y-yeah", I stutter.

"I have to attend a business meeting in Canada tomorrow"

My worry and heart beat eases down knowing he doesn't know about my dark little secret.

"So soon"

"Don't worry once I'm back we can start house hunting", Nathan smiles pecking my lips.

"How long are you staying over there?"

"Don't be mad.. 2 months", Nathan mumbles.

"Wow Nathan.. why so long and last minute notice too?", I raise a brow.

"My father has been trying to partner up with this machining company for years and now he finally got an opportunity to go talk to them about possible deals and well he wants to go asap before someone else does", he explains.

"It's cool Nathan you gotta do what you gotta do.. go get them babe", I wink.

Nathan tugs me in for a hug kissing my face all over the place.

I chuckle at his sweet action remembering this is exactly what Eli used to do to get me to laugh whenever I would be mad at him.

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2 days later

"Lulu I have to vent", I huff.

I wasn't planning on telling no one about Eli and I, but it's torturing me keeping it to myself.

"Spill", she says feeding Juliah.

"I slept with Eli", I splutter scratching the back of my head.

"W-WHAT!!", Lulu gasps a baffled expression on her face.

"It was almost two weeks ago"

"How could you do that to Nathan dude?"

"Eli explained everything to me about what happened four years ago Lulu and boy was I so wrong about everything. I don't know I threw myself at him and things went there", I elaborate.

"You still have love for him don't you?"

"Yes no doubt about that"

"And Nathan?", Lulu raises a brow.

"I love him but-"

"Eli", Lulu cuts me off.

"Yes", I sigh slumping my shoulders down.

"Aye Gia"

"I don't know what to do"

"Honestly I have no idea what to tell you besides you have a life with Nathan already your engaged.. about to house hunt and marry him and with Eli your basically picking up where you left off", Lulu croaks.

"I don't regret what I did if anything it felt so right.. I felt so alive... is this wrong of me to say?", I say tears sliding down my cheek.

"Don't cry Gia.. he is your first love I can't blame you", Lulu sighs.

"I'm so confused"

"Call Eli to come to your place"

"What?", I furrow my brows in surprise.

"Talk to him let everything out let him know how you feel.. it'll also help you understand yourself more", Lulu advices.

I stay quiet thinking about what Lulu just told me. A frown appears on my face as I think about how Eli must be feeling right now. I literally slept with him then left never speaking to him again.

"Gia I know you want to see him again", Lulu utters breaking me out of my thought.

"Okay, do you have his number?", I respond grabbing my phone.

Lulu saves it in my phone before saying, "I have to get going it's almost Juliah's bath time".

"Thank you Lulu for listening", I genuinely say hugging her and planting a kiss on Juliah's forehead.

"Anytime"

It's been 20 minutes of staring at Eli's contact debating whether to call or text him.

Get it together!

I click on Eli's contact hearing the ringing begin. My heart starts to thump faster than usual and I can feel my stomach tighten by how nervous I am hearing each ring pass.

Eli
Hello

Me
Hey it's me Gia

Eli
Now you call

Me
I'm sorry, can you come over to my place right now to talk?

Eli
I'm busy

I legit feel my heart break by his cold respond immediately feeling stupid for calling him.

Me
Okay, I'll let you go

Eli
Text me your address I'll be over in a bit

Eli hangs up and I immediately text him my info running to my room to get ready for when he comes.

Once I dress myself in my olive tight dress I hurry up to the kitchen getting out some stuff to start dinner.

An hour later

Ding Dong

I get off the couch to open the door seeing Eli in a suit looking fine as hell.

"Come inside", I nervously say stepping to the side.

"Where's pretty boy?", Eli sternly asks.

"I live by myself and he's out of town", I respond annoyed.

"Nice place"

"Thanks.. are you hungry?", I say stepping inside my kitchen to grab plates.

"Yeah", he says stepping behind me.

"Uh I made rice and steak with potatoes with chili", I mumble feeling that familiar electricity as Eli stands behind me.

"Smells so good", he whispers into my ear making me all tingly.

We are now finishing up our dinner. The whole time Eli was telling me about his company and how he's his grandfather's personal assistant.

"Damn I haven't seen them in so long", I chuckle.

"You should come to dinner at my mom's place someday, so you guys can all catch up", Eli says taking a sip of water.

"I would love that and don't you still live at your parent's place?"

"I did, but I recently got my own place a few days ago"

"Congrats on your big mansion", I smile.

"It's not a mansion.. I got an apartment"

"I'm surprised Eli I know you can afford it.. why an apartment?", I furrow my brows.

"I'm single so an apartment suits better.. a house should only happen once I'm with someone you know.. makes more since like why be in a huge house by myself", he intently peers at me.

I nod feeling stupid for asking him that like duh it's logical.

Idiot

"So what did you want to talk about?", Eli raises a brow.

"I'm sorry for not contacting you after you know"

"Had sex", Eli interrupts.

"Yeah that", I awkwardly chuckle.

"What do you even feel for me?", Eli splutters.

"I'm so confused Eli.. I made a life with Nathan and you literally barged back into my life after so long", I huff.

"I know you still love me", is all Eli responds.

"Why do you say that?"

"Well let's start by how nervous you get your eyes sparkling when I'm around you, you threw yourself at me kissing me, and gosh your body language during sex", Eli smirks leaning forward towards me from across the dining table.

I can feel my cheeks redden by how he's beaming at me after saying all of that.

Gosh how I missed his smirks

"Elias you cried for the first time ever and it was for me", I steer the subject.

Eli's face expression turns serious leaning back on his chair.

"What can I say you really have me acting like a weak guy", he grumbles.

"That's not weak Eli that's honestly a man that loves his girl"

"Yeah a girl that longer belongs to him and is engaged to another", he frowns.

"Don't say that"

"It's true"

"I still love you", I splutter.

"Then why are you still with pretty boy?", Eli raises a brow.

"B-because I love him also", I mumble.

Eli's face turns angry and hurt at the same time. He abruptly stands up from the chair pacing back and forth.

"How the fuck can you love two guys at the same time Gia?!", he grits his teeth.

"I don't know I just do", I gulp down the lump that was stuck in the back of my throat.

"Gia this isn't fair for me", Eli huffs trying to calm down.

"I'm sorry", I say standing up cuffing his cheek.

"I just need time to think.. to get my shit together", I softly say looking into his emerald green eyes.

And just like that we both smash our lips onto each other. Eli grips my thighs pulling me up my dress rising all the way up showing my underwear.

I wrap my legs around his waist wrapping my arms around his neck never breaking the kiss. We both end up on my bed Eli on top of me.

He then breaks away intently looking at me lust in his eyes. He takes off aggressively his button up shirt and coat revealing his built body. He then unbuckles his belt and pants.

I smirk at Eli who's slowly pulling my underwear down. Once he takes off my underwear he throws it on the floor.

As Eli crawls over me kissing my neck my hands strokes his back feeling his every muscle.

I gasp feeling Eli insert himself inside of me. Pleasure quickly taking over me possessively.

Each thrust makes me crave more and more. Honestly only Eli knows how to pleasure me in all the right places. Since sleeping with Eli I haven't slept with Nathan. I'd always had an excuse and Nathan being so nice always understood. But here I am letting Eli touch me.

Eli then flips me over and I feel my body burning as I feel his tongue glide up on my spine.

As he thrusts dominantly I moan feeling his kisses on the side of my cheek. He leans his head on the side of my face lightly careful not to squeeze me.

"I love you so much", he whispers between moans.

Hearing his husky voice telling me how much he loves me makes me even more tingly and crave him even more than I already do.

I somehow push him off of me and Eli lays flat on the bed as I jump on top of him being the dominant one now. Eli's large hands roam from my ass up to my rip cage giving it little squeeze.

"I love you I really do", I whisper locking eyes with his emerald green eyes that are full on turned on as I slowly start thrusting on him.

"Leave him Gia and come home to me", Eli responds.

Home

I start to thrust on him faster feeling my favorite feeling in the entire world and only Eli has made me feel this and still feel it every time I'm with him.

My abdomen starts to tighten and tighten with each thrusts making me a moaning mess.

"Hello orgasm", Eli whispers a big ass smirk on his face as he watches me.

"Only I know how to pleasure you baby", Eli moans his hands roaming in an up and down motion.

Eli starts to thrust from under me deepening himself into me and I start to thrust along with him feeling the orgasm ready to erupt.

My moans become louder and louder feeling Eli thrust deeper and deeper I'm sure the whole apartment complex heard me.

Within seconds both Eli and I erupt our breathing being unsteady. I lay on Eli's chest exhausted as he wraps his arms around me protectively.

Being in Eli's arms just feels so right so fucking right.