3 weeks later

"Babe you've been a little distant?", Nathan intently beams at me.

Since seeing Eli I've been a mess. As much as try to push shit behind my head I can't help, but wonder so many things.

Like for instance why did he murder Julius, why would Mr. Gold tell Eli to break up with me, and how could Eli break me when I practically begged him that one day.

"It's just stress at work that has me so exhausted", I lie.

"Let's go on a trip", he smiles.

"Where to?"

"Cancun"

"Sounds like a plan", I wink.

"Let's invite all of your friends"

"Really?"

"Yup"

I squeal from excitement kissing him all over his face.

He then grabs me by my thighs and lays me on the couch. Our lips move in sync together passionately. He removes my shorts slowly taking them off.

I gasp, as he enters me and starts slowly thrusting. My hands wonder on his back feeling his muscles move with each thrust.

My eyes shut getting lost in the moment. Eli's face pops up into my mind. I drift to the day I first slept with him. I remember that day I was so scared and insecure, but he helped me through it being so gentle and careful.

As the thrusts get faster and harder my mind then goes to all of the other times Eli and I slept with each other. His every muscle would pop as he thrusted and his large size would always make me into a moaning mess.

I quickly snap myself out of these memories realizing I'm freaking wrong for thinking about someone else while having sex with my fiancé.

Once Nathan is done I excuse myself to go to the restroom for a shower.

In the shower I let the warm water run down on my body.

"Why am I thinking about him?"

"What the fuck is wrong with me?"

I let out a deep breathe feeling so confused on what's going on with me.

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Few days later

"Lulu you take forever!", I groan as we wait for her to exit the house.

"I'm done gosh", she rolls her eyes walking to the car.

We are currently leaving to the airport to fly out to Cancun for the Fourth of July weekend.

"Your so lucky", I whisper to Lulu admiring baby Juliah who's asleep.

"What do you mean?", she furrows her brows.

"You and Jesiah stayed together after high school and made a gorgeous baby"

"Gia please don't tell me this is about Eli", she huffs.

"Not at all", I roll my eyes.

"Gia I know you", she gives me a stern glare.

Ugh

"Lulu I don't know what's going on with me", I frown making sure our conversation stays a very low tone.

The guys are all laughing and busting jokes about sports.

"I thought you were over Eli since Nathan came in?"

"I am well I don't know.. fuck man I don't know shit anymore", I mutter shaking my head.

"Want my famous advice?", she smirks.

"Duh!"

"Go talk to Eli", she firmly says.

Is she crazy!

"W-what no way!", I croak.

"Then stay like this all confused and having unanswered questions", she sighs.

Maybe Lulu is right for once. Okay okay she's always right. As much as I would want to stay away from him I need to know the truth behind my questions or else I'm always going to be wondering.

"Where can I find him?", I finally give in.

"The same place you banged him", she chuckles.

"Oh my god Lulu! Shh!", I shake my head in embarrassment.

"Relax gosh! Now let's enjoy our 3 day vacation", she squeals.

She's right I'll have my talk with Eli once I'm back, but for now I'm going to enjoy my trip with my best friends.

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"Hurry up Gia!", Davina groans.

"Fine fine I'm ready", I scoff taking one last look at myself in the mirror before going to the pool party.

"I want your body!", Lulu groans.

"Lulu your body is bomb it doesn't even look like you had a baby!", I bluntly say.

We make our way to the lobby to meet up with the guys who are already drinking their beers.

"If I catch someone looking i'm going to punch them", Nathan whispers in my ear as he hugs me from behind making me chuckle.

We are now at the pool party that's crowded by hundreds of people dancing, drinking, playing in the pool, and sliding down the huge slides.

The girls and I are drinking our drinks as the guys play volleyball in the pool.

I look over at Lulu who's in the section for kids little pools. She's sitting down holding Juliah who's splashing her tiny hands into the water. Each splash causes Juliah to laugh.

I awe to this view in front of me admiring it so much. I hope one day this is me with my little boy or girl.

"Eli is about time!", Gabriel shouts out loud causing all of us including Lulu to snap our heads to the right.

I feel my stomach do a thousand back flips feeling a heat wave travel through my body.

There he was standing outside of the pool only wearing bathing shorts. I scan every inch of his body seeing how much he's grown. He now has an eight deep cut abs with his deep V cut complimenting him very well if you know what I mean.

His muscles are huge compared to four years ago and his long sleeve tattoo gives him the last touch to be a Greek god.

Eli gets into the pool bro hugging everyone. Then he finally comes face to face with Nathan. Nathan being a gentlemen that he is introduces himself shaking his hand. Eli responds back pulling him in for a hug.

"Gia!"

"Dumb dumb!", Lulu nudges me snapping me out of my frozen state.

"Why is he here?", I manage to finally say something still looking at Eli that's now playing volleyball.

"I think Gabriel invited him plus you know he is part of our circle Gia", Lulu nervously mumbles.

"After what he did to me.. everyone should be #teamGia", I roll my eyes.

"Well I guess you'll have that talk with him sooner than we planned", she giggles clearly making fun of me.

"Code brown", Lulu splutters as Juliah starts to cry.

Code brown means poop

I chuckle at Lulu and her damn code names for stuff. Maybe that's what moms do.

"Gia come here!", Nathan shouts signaling me to go to them.

Fuck

I start to quiver as everyone stares back at me including Eli who has a stunned expression. I make my way towards them trying my best to not look at Eli.

"Yes?", I nervously mumble.

"That's my fiancé", Nathan says to Eli.

I can feel my mind become a tornado and a hot flash approaching. "Hey Eli", I awkwardly wave at him.

Eli has a blank expression just peering between Nathan and I.

"You guys know each other?", Nathan raises a brow.

"Yeah he's my friend from high school", I splutter giving all of the guys a stern glare.

"Yup, it's been a long time I haven't seen you friend", Eli bluntly says.

"Y-yeah.. well I'm going to the restroom I'll be right back", I steer the subject.

I power walk as fast as I can away from them. I can feel myself getting out of breath from how fast I'm walking towards the hotel.

Once I'm in my room I take a breather sitting on my bed. "Babe are you okay?", Nathan barges through the door.

"Yeah why?"

"You looked so pale out there almost like you seen a ghost", he worriedly peers at me.

"I'm fine I think I just ate something that made me want to run to the restroom", I falsely chuckle.

Nathan chuckles clearly believing my little lie.
"Well babe get ready we're going to hit the night club in a bit".

"Okay"

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"You look beautiful as always", Nathan whispers in my ear as we make our way to the lobby to meet everyone.

I'm wearing a black tight dress that goes halfway up to my thighs with my red bottom heels. My hair is in beach waves with a simple makeup look.

"Thanks handsome", I smile.

I really hope Elias isn't invited

"Let's go", Davina squeals.

Unfortunately Jesiah and Lulu won't be coming due to not finding a babysitter in Cancun to watch Juliah.

"This should be fun", Eli chirps heading towards us from out the blue.

Great

"Time to smash bitches!", Ray smirks playfully smacking Eli's arm.

"Fuck yeah!"

I don't know why, but I feel my blood boil hearing Eli agree.

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"It must be awkward huh?", Davina says into my ear as we dance.

"With what?"

"Eli"

"I'm just ignoring him", I respond glancing at Eli who's letting a chick twerk on him.

"I'll be right back"

I gulp my drink at once heading towards Nathan that isn't to far from where Eli is.

Grabbing Nathan's attention I start to grind on him as the club music plays. I lift my head up to peek at Eli who's has a pissed off expression on his face throwing death glares at us.

I smirk, dancing up on Nathan. I then turn to face Nathan placing my lips on his making out in the middle of the dance floor.

Pulling away from his lips I glance over at Eli who's making out with the girl who was twerking on him while grabbing her ass.

I growl silently to myself looking away.
"Babe I'm tired I'm going to head to the hotel"

"Want me to walk you", he offers kindly.

"No babe it isn't far.. stay with the guys have a good time", I kiss his cheek.

"Be careful", he says kissing my forehead.

I'm currently walking into my hotel entering the elevator to go to my floor. Suddenly someone places their foot in the elevator preventing it from closing.

Eli steps inside the elevator standing next to me.

Seriously out of all people

Him

"Nathan seems like a good man", Eli breaks the silence.

"Yeah he is", I cross my arms across my chest.

Eli leans back on the wall checking me out from head to toe.

"I loved that sexy bikini you had on earlier", he says licking his lips.

"Ew", I scoff.

"I remember when I would be in between those legs of yours", he winks stepping closer to me.

"Stop!", I hiss stepping back.

"Remember how you would always moan my name", his voice becoming husky.

"Eli fucking stop or else!", I spat feeling tingly.

"Or else what?", he mutters grabbing me by my shoulders pinning me onto the wall.

Our faces are now inches away from each other. We are both breathing unevenly. I can feel my body quickly getting hot by his touch. The butterflies in my stomach reappear after so long of not feeling them.

"E-Eli step back", I stutter.

"How dare you kiss him in front of me!", he clenches his jaw.

"He's my man I can kiss him whenever I want!"

"Don't say that!"

"First of all didn't you have a slut twerk on you and kiss you?", I raise my brow trying to break away from under him, but it was a complete fail.

"She's coming over in a bit", he smirks.

The thought of her spending the night with him really bugs me. I know it shouldn't, I am an engaged women and what I had with Eli was so four years ago, but I can't help it. I'm freaking burning in jealousy.

"Fuck her good!", I spat nudging him on his side causing him to wince in pain.

The elevator finally opens and I quickly ran out of there heading towards my room jumping on the bed.

All I could think about is Eli and that slut he's going to have over. I can feel my anger building up in me and I throw a pillow on the floor as a way to release my anger.

Then a thought merges through reminding me how this is exactly what he would do when we first meet in high school.

Why do I care so much?!

Elias Gold is in my past and he's the one who let me go not me. I can't believe I'm finding myself bothered by him.

Eli is the past and Nathan is my present

I repeat to myself not sure if I mean it or trying to convince myself.