As the title says, you don't have to pay attention to this chapter. It's just a pity party, and I feel like writing. So... yeah. I'm so ridiculous. I'm depressed, so what do I do?? Listen to music that relates to me, my past, and how I feel. Ugh, I'm so stupid... here's what happens when I get bored at night. Maybe I should just go to sleep... Aw man... this song... Only difference between me and the song (besides the fact I'm not married- too young right now; until 13 days from now) is that I wasn't ready... well, I guess God decided I was... I sure didn't quite feel so ready...

https://youtu.be/GGME9vL660w

This one... Oh goodness... screen is definitely blurry now... he may not have been perfect, but I loved- love him- so much... and I miss him. I always imagined how things would be... Daddy would be there on my sixteenth birthday. Daddy would give my future husband his blessing. Daddy would walk me down the isle, tears in his eyes. Daddy would dance with me after the wedding. Daddy would be there when I had his first grandchild. I'd watch him and Mom grow old together... At least I know he's no longer in pain.