Hey, minna! Before anything else, look at this gorgeous drawing of Killua! Even though I do not own the character, it's amazing that someone drew fan art based on my fan fiction! This is the image of Killua captured in chapter 1, and he is beautiful!!! Big thanks to my friend https://aztruyen.top/tac-gia/Has707. If you guys have any fan art you'd like to be showcased in this book, feel free to PM me. Thank you to everyone else for waiting patiently for this update. I dedicate this update to @Shadow5545. Lastly, a reminder about the Summer 2018 Hunter x Hunter Watty Awards. Voting starts on July 1. You can find out more information about it in the previous update. Be sure to vote for My Assassin Boyfriend in the Killua category. Stay awesome! Trouble out.

"Sis, you gotta get up," Rin urged for the seventh time. He tried pulling my covers away, but I held them on a tight grip. When I got home yesterday, I stayed locked in my room and cried all night. At some point, I had to swap pillows because I cried my other one until its pillow case was soggy. "C'mon, sis. You'll be late again."

"I don't care..." I groaned, curling into a ball. "How did you get in my room anyways?"

"With a little bit of help." That voice... there was no mistaking it. I peaked out of my blanket, sunlight piercing my eyes for the first time. Standing before me was Alluka, Gon and my brother. "... That still doesn't explain how you got in my room."

Gon moves his hand from behind him, showing my broken doorknob. "Sorry," he apologized. "I'll pay for it later." His face was still freshly bruised and swollen from yesterday, covered in bandaids, including a patch over his eye.

"Gon, are you all right?" I asked. His face looked like it still hurt.

"Don't worry about me," he smiled with content. "I've been through worse. Although... I can't imagine how much pain you're going through right now."

I sighed and laid my head back on my pillow again. Alluka sighed as well. "First Lizz-chan, and now Yuki-chan? Who's next, Gon-kun? At this rate, I'm gonna lose all of my friends."

"Then why don't you walk to school with Shiki?" I mocked. "You two are close. You'll fit riiiighhht in the middle between your brother and his new girl friend."

"Yuki-chan..." She sat on the edge of my bed next to my legs. "You've been my close friend way before I met Shiki. You and Lizz-chan don't know how much you two matter to me."

"And apparently, I didn't know how much I mattered to Killua. Zero. Just a fling. Now, go away." I closed the opening with my blanket. I didn't feel like seeing anyone, and I didn't want anyone to see me. I preferred to simply stay in isolation and let leave my heart be than to receive pity from others. Killua dumped me. They all saw it themselves, so they should understand that I just wanted to be alone. I closed my eyes so that I could be more in the dark, closing off everything else. They would just remind me of all those wonderful times I wasted with Killua.

"Yuki, you mean a lot to Killua!" Gon argued. "I know you do. He's just not... acting like himself lately. Alluka and I think there might be something wrong with him, more than we understand. Don't you remember what Lizz said? Something didn't seem right. I've known Killua for years and he's never acted this way. It's almost like he's a different person. Maybe, if we keep a close eye on him, maybe we can find out who's behin-"

"No, Gon, that's what you want to think," I growled. "You want to believe that there's this grand scheme of things going on and it can be fixed by fighting back, but that's not the case. People change and they leave you high and dry, leaving you behind. You should already know that, so why not just grow up already?"

The deafening silence made me regret my words. I heard heavy footsteps leave the room, followed by a door shut.

"Yuki-chan, that wasn't nice!" Alluka yelled.

I hugged my knees tight. "I'm sorry... but I just don't want to deal with anything right now... so just leave me be."

Rin whispered something quietly to Alluka. Whatever he said, it convinced her to finally leave my room. I assumed they both left together. Before I could relax and start crying again, Alluka spoke once more. "You know, I knew before that the only reason you and Lizz became my friends was because Onii-chan asked you two to be. But I wasn't sad or upset about it. I'm glad he did it, because you two became my best friends. Even after you found out about Something, you didn't run away. You cared about me. If you never gave up on me then, I'm not giving up on you. Onii-chan is a baka to let you go. Whatever the reason may be, it's not your fault. To us, you're still the most amazing person we know."

I broke another tear, but this time it wasn't from heart ache. It was a year due to being touched by the heart. Ironic and funny hearing that come out of Alluka, considering that's how I feel about them.

"I'll come to your house tomorrow so that we can walk to school together." With that said, I was finally left alone with silence.

***

(Shiki's P.O.V.)

My dangling feet swung and kicked in boredom as I sat at the edge of a forty-storied building. The city glowed brighter and more colorful tonight. It must be the holiday decorations. My hands were beginning to feel cold. When I pulled my gloves out of my purse, a strip of paper slipped out and glided in the air. I quickly snatched it before the wind could carry it. It was the pictures Yuki, Alluka, Lizz and I took in that photo booth that one time. I had almost forgotten I had it in my purse. They all looked stupid with their silly faces while my serious face seemed out of place. The only one I liked was the last one, where we all smiled. The contradictions in this photo made me chuckle. That was a fun day. Probably the closest I've ever lived as a normal girl.

I shook out that absurd thought in my head. "Forget about it," I muttered to myself as I crumpled the picture and tossed it off the building. I'm a ninja assassin. I shouldn't let such trickle and pointless things distract me. I don't need friends. I have Killua and my family. That's all I need in my life.

A memory of Yuki's face flashed before my eyes. "How do you expect to make new friends if you don't give people a chance? I am giving you a huge choice here, because as of right now, I'm all you got."

"Shut up..." I gritted my teeth as I held my head. "You don't care about them, and they don't care about you. They never have."

"Ya know, I'm really glad you came with us."

"Shut up shut up shut up!" I squeezed my head tighter, but it wouldn't let the pain go away. Something didn't feel right. I should be happy that I now have Killua loving me just as I always wanted. He'll be coming back home with me soon, so why do I feel like something is squeezing inside of my chest? Why can't I get Yuki out of my mind? Why does it hurt most when I see Killua?

"Hey, sorry I'm late!" I dropped my hands to my lap and looked back to see Killua arriving. He took a seat next to my side, admiring the view. He held his scarf over his nose to keep his face warm. "You okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine," I lied. "I was just fixing my hair. So what did you want to talk about?"

"Well..." Killua held my hand. When our skins touched, my hand and face felt much warmer. "I finally decided a date on when we'll leave to go back to our country. That's the good news."

"And the bad news?"

He gave my hand a light squeeze. "I checked the weather forecast, and the nearest and safest day for an air balloon flight is this Friday. We're gonna have to miss the dance." He turned to me with sad and disappointed eyes. As soon as he looked into my eyes, I turned away on impulse. I felt nervous looking him in the eyes for some reason.

"That's okay. The sooner we leave here, the better." Killua smiled and pecked me on the cheek. My heart beat faster, but in the wrong way. This feeling wasn't warm or joyful. It was agonizing. It felt like I didn't deserve that kiss. I hesitantly faced him, studying the features of his happy face. This look of affection he was giving me, I would have never received this if it wasn't for the help of Zexion.

"What happened yesterday was... pretty intense." I decided to change the subject.

Killua's expression shifted to annoyance. "Tsk! Whatever. I don't need that loser. He was annoying and stupid anyways. Life was easier and simpler before I met him."

"But he is... was your best friend."

"I only need you in my life, Shiki. Nobody else," he said that so lovingly while snuggling his head on my shoulder. I did not snuggle back. Now he was just smothering me.

I looked down and recognized something popping out of his sleeve. "Hey, Killua. That's a nice bracelet you got there."

"Hm? Oh, yeah." He sat up and showed me his bracelet proudly. "I wear it every day. It's a habit, I guess."

"Do you remember where you got it from?"

"Of course I do. It's from... uh..." Say her name. I know you know it. If you've held on to memento so precious this long, you can't possibly forget who gave it to you. "... heh, that's weird. I can't remember. Oh, well. I guess it wasn't that important."

I looked down, disappointed. So even Yuki can be removed from his heart. To think that a part of the real Killua could still be in there, but I guess it was already too late. He is far gone.

Something wet dripped on the back of my hand, and another. I looked up to see tears trickling out of Killua's eyes. He pressed his finger on the side of his cheek and looked at the clear liquid in shock and confusion. "Huh? What's this? I don't... I don't understand. Why do I..." His voice croaked as he dried his eyes before more tears broke out.

My mouth quivered a smile. It hurt, knowing that Killua won't ever let go of Yuki, but strangely... I felt glad that he hasn't entirely forgotten her. I was only fooling myself, convinced that Killua had finally fallen in love with me, but that was only a delusion. He only thinks he's in love with me because of the fake memories that were implanted inside his head. The Killua that I've spent these recent days with was fun, but not the Killua I fell in love with. He has changed, but hopefully Yuki would change that.

I wiped away the tears I didn't even know I had, then stood up with a liberating sigh. "Baby, I'm breaking up with you," I stated.

"W-what?" Killua looked up at me even more scared and confused.

"You don't know it, but you don't really love me. It ain't healthy if we just keep pretending to be in a happy relationship when it's not, so it's probably better this way. Plus... I hate cry babies."

I turned to walk to the building staircase, but he grabbed me by the leg. "Wait!" he shouted. "Tell me what I did wrong. I won't cry again. I'll do anything for you, baby! We can still make this work. Just tell me what I can do to make things right."

I looked down at him with pity. "See, this is the problem. You look so pathetic right now that I feel sorry for you. The Killua that I fell in love with would never show such shameless display. The Killua I know is cool as collective. But don't worry, it's not your fault." I pulled my leg from of his desperate hold and began walking away. "I'm the one who has to make things right."