ya'll i have to write this "i am from" poem for english and im supposed to put a brief description of my home but my parents are divorced and im moving soon and my dad's getting deployed soon so like lol which home

aLSO THIS BITCH IS DUE WEDNESDAY AND IM DOING IT NOW ON MONDAY AND I JUST FINISHED LIKE THREE OTHER ASSIGNMENTS LOOK AT ME GO IM DOING SO GOOD GUYS

AND ITS ONLY 6:30 IN THE EVENING LIKE IM NOT PROCRASTINATING UNTIL 3 IN THE MORNING LIKE USUAL

AND I'LL STILL HAVE ENOUGH TIME TO SLEEP IM CRYING IM ACTUALLY GETTING IT TOGETHER GUYS

NOT TODAY DEPRESSION

FUCK OFF

btw my friend has been checking in with me frequently and making sure im eating well and all and im just so soft like get a friend who will check in with you when you're not doing good and inspire you to keep trying

like im not trying as much for me as i am for my parents and my friends

im sorry im really soft rn and im actually gettin a lil bit of that good seratonin mMM

heCK

tbh i didnt think i'd get any of that shit after school started bc school is partially why i think i started being depressed in the first place but heya im at a new school with all these new people and im among my people ya'll

my teachers are great

im living

kinda sad that i cant make myself happy on my own and need others to keep me going and give me dopamine but ya know i'll take what i can get

CRYING OKAY WAIT

so this ad played on youtube like "other shampoos can wash your color down the drain"

and my first response to this was saying out loud "you know what else is being washed down the drain? my will to live"

i love laughing at my own self-deprecating and depressing humor

me: should i just finish the rest of this tomorrow? its not due til wednesday anyways :/

me @ me: yeah but think about how nice it'll be when you realize you dont have to do this tomorrow

me: but i wanna take a sad nap

me @ me: wE'RE GETTING OUR LIFE TOGETHER AND THROWING PROCRASTINATION HABITS OUT OF THE WINDOW GOD

why do i talk to myself jfc eek

i really wanna watch love simon with my mom bc she hasnt seen it yet and i cried so hard when i first watched it ya'll it was such a good movie aCK

OOF FINISHED ALL MY HOMEWORK AND ITS NOT EVEN 7 YET YEET

gonna draw a bit then lay in bed and add some more stuff to my fanfiction and then i can go to bed nice and early since i went to bed at 11 pm last night and didnt sleep very well and i wake up at 5 am oh goodie

i dress like im some cool edgy butch lesbian who radiates dominate energy when in reality im actually just terrified of people and lowkey a bottom

ya'll i cant tell if im butch or just emo

also i drew this picture of fionna and cake from adventure time a couple days ago

look at those cuties eeK

lemme just say

its been a long time since i've felt this happy

and im not smiling like an idiot or anything i just feel okay

like i'll be fine

and i know it wont last forever and i'll probably fall into a depressive episode sometime soon

but still

i needed to be reminded that happiness still exists

because i am not used to being happy anymore