me: aw man i really wanna learn how to play megalovania on my violin 

me: *takes out violin*

violin: *is broken and likely cant be fixed so needs a replacement*

me: ive never wanted death more than in this moment

my poor vitya what happened to her

yes my violin is named vitya ok

im so sad she died i should have a funeral for her

in other news chloe has been on vacation in california since winter break started and i havent seen her in over a week and i miss her

you know when you get a wattpad notification bc someone replied to a comment on a fanfic you read over a year ago and it was in november 2016 bACK WHEN YOU STILL USED "XD" UNIRONICALLY FUCKING HELL-

my friends and i are discussing earth-chan being vORED by sun-chan in the future in our group text and trinity asked if there could be some other ridiculous way instead that we could use and i

im watching a reupload of logan paul's vlog on the suicide forest in japan and can i say this is literally the most disrespectful thing ive ever seen

not only is he joking and laughing and such before entering but he literally filmed a dead body oh my god thats so disrespectful and i am genuinely offended

also he has no idea what hes fucking talking about

1. the reason there are no other videos like this on youtube is because people who record videos of them going to that forest who mightve seen a dead body tURNED OFF THEIR DAMN CAMERAS OUT OF RESPECT OH MY GOD

2. plus like the first scene where theres just this text that says something along the lines of if you are suicidal or are thinking of hurting yourself, go ask for help or go to the emergency room like whAT you dont go to the emergency room at a hospital if you dont have an injury that needs immediate attention if youre thinking these things you go to a therapist or something you seek out professional help jfc

3. they are joking around and all this shit before finding the body and they know that people have taken their lives there this isnt a fucking joke

4. you arent supposed to leave the trail in the forest so you either: dont stumble upon a dead body, dont kill yourself, or dont get lost bUT I GUESS NOT HUH

5. "experiencing it real-life and firsthand" no. no. you are not experiencing it firsthand you are getting a camera extremely close to a suicide victim and did no research on this forest and japanese culture (including its respect for the dead) before going in. you do not know what you are talking about and seeing a victim doesnt change that

6. HE IS JOKING AROUND NEXT TO A DEAD BODY AND LAUGHING

7. blurring the person's face doesnt do much what really would have protected his identity wouldve been to noT FILM IT IN THE FIRST PLACE

8. "being depressed is fine" no. it is not fine. being depressed is not ok and if you are depressed then you need to seek help immediately it isnt fine to be depressed you fucking moron

thats enough of a rant for today i think

me, clicking on a bts try not to cry challenge about them loving each other: hA im not gonna cry at this

jin: suga-

me: oH MY GOD IM CRYING

i seriously have no solid ships for bts members bc they're all fucking gay with each other bet money they are in one big poly relationship i s2g

didya know that namjoon is 181 cm or about 5'9" 

thats only 7 inches taller than me pft

that one time the summer before 7th grade when i was staying at my aunt's house in florida for a month with my brother and i pulled an all nighter bc they were bragging the day before about staying up until 6 am and after my all nighter i got really bored and tired and lied on the ground and dragged myself around the house then fell asleep in a doorway is a big mood™

i reallyy miss chloe

like ugg i really really miss her

shes so soft and warm and i want to hug her and give her small kisses and talk about memes and boop her snoot and play the wii with her and see her bed head/sleepy eyes oh god shes so perfect

chloe: *exists*

me:

its like 3 am and i just texted my friends this

next day kinda since i went to bed at 4 am ffs:

boi i woke up at 3:30 pm and ate breakfast at 4 if that aint a completely dESTROYed sleep schedule idk what is

i didnt get to give chloe her christmas present before she went to california so im pretty excited for school to start back up again so i can see her face light up when she sees it aH

petition to give jin more lines is there a thing like that i can sign pls

this is a long-ass chapter sorry lmao

its weird to think that the sun has already gone down even though youve only been awake for a few hours

its currently january 2nd so i have less than a week to get my sleep schedule fucking fixed before i get back to school since i get back on the 8th

i jUST REMEMBERED I HAD A DREAM LAST NIGHT (kinda more like this morning) WHERE HALF MY TEETH FELL OUT AND IT WAS REALLY HORRIFYING

ohmygod im watching someone from california's insta livestream aND IM CRINGING SO HARD BECAUSE SHES ASKING HOW IM DOING AND IM CRYING BC I WAS SUCH A WEEABOO BACK WHEN SHE KNEW ME AHHH FUCKING HELL

this girl im watching her name is didi right (at least that was her nickname two years ago) and shes insulting people she doesnt like who are commenting lmao this is great

she just said "shopette" and my hEArt i miss the shopette didi you should go to popeyes n stuff ahh i miss california

im literally just watching her have an argument with her dad about her pin on her bank account oml

ok she ended the stream i wish she stayed on so i couldve seen the shopette again since i havent been in so long

i remember didi as being the ones that changed tables at the park when i sat down with them 

ffs i dont even blame them if someone like 6th grade emerson sat down next to me i would leave too

damn this chapter is long uH

i sent a screenshot of that horrifying tweet trump recently sent saying that while kim jong un had a nuclear missile button on his desk that tRUMP had a biGGer button on hIS desk to the group text and we went into a convo about how the missles could possible hit each other in the middle of the ocean but most likely would just hit their set targets and-

i realize i havent seen anYone all day like i havent seen anyone's faces or anything plus i havent talked to anyone all dad woWza my life is kinda sAd

me at 10 pm: im gonna go to bed early tonight

me at 3:30 am: stRUMMIN MY PAIN WITH HIS FINGERS-

that one time last year on the bus when killing me softly came on and i whipped my head around and made eye contact with the friend who introduced me to killing stalking and it was great

heres a wip sorry this chapter was so long 

eat your vegetables