study? sleep? i only know bts

literally my conspiracy theories aRE GOIN OFF THE FUCKING CHARTS

you people who read this and arent armys must be sick of me talking im sorry

lil doodle i did (and im at my dad's house so sorry if its bad im uSING MY OLD TABLET OK)

lmao i was gonna do a drawing for leslielu marie for her birthday but clip studio paint closed and i forgot to save my work :)))

aLSO CLIP STUDIO PAINT CAN YOU LIKE SAVE MY PREFRENCES SO I DONT HAVE TO CHANGE THE FORMAT EVERY TIME I OPEN IT GOSH GOLLY

and my pen pressure aint working what the fukc

next day:

im doin a nice relaxing drawing instead of homework lol

next day: 

lol i was sick today so i got to stay home feeling like my innards were falling out

wowza

anywho i finished a drawing

i didnt have my custom brushes which is why the blush and hair highlights are weird im sorr-

shes cute tho aint she

i should shower but its so far away-

im so proud of bts at the bbmas

aLSO THAT PERFORMANCE WAS SO GOOD LEMME TELL YA-

next next day:

my dad asked me about my grades and he said how he hoped they were better than my brother's bc my brother got a D and i was like "dont get your hopes up"

its gotten to a point where i dont give a shIT about how crappy my grades are

dad: why are your grades so bad

me: i dont do my work

dad: why not

me: bc i dont see the point considering we're all just gonna die one day anyway

dad: emerson that doesnt mean you cant just do stuff

me: but dad isnt it strange that i wake up every morning wishing it was the end of it. that i walk into school every monday wishing it was the end of the week. that im always looking forward to the end of stuff

dad: the end of what?

me: the end of the day. the end of the week. the end of the year. the end of middle school. the end of high school

dad: do you need to talk to someone?

how to give away your mental health problems in less than ten minutes brought to you by: emerson

so i gUESS IM PROBABLY GONNA START SEEING A THERAPIST OH GOODIE

im kidding i actually do need help

i keep thinking to myself

"is it just because im in eighth grade and eighth grade fucking sucks or do i genuinely have an issue"

i have two days left of school

one and a half considering my last day is a half day

as soon as this shit ends im just gonna go to bed

the present is so weird

because the past used to be the present and the future will be the present and i remember thinking, in an uncomfortable situation, that it would be over but then it is over and im fine and that is no longer happening it is now in the past and im in the present but wait that past event was the present when i experienced it

I JUST GOT A BTS AD FOR LG AND IM CRYIN BC ITS DUBBED BY SOME RANDOM WHITE DUDES THAT DEFINITELY ARE NOT THEM IM IN FUCKING TEARS THIS IS HILARIOUS

ARE YOU REALLY GONNA DUB THEM

YOU EVEN DUBBED NAMJOON BITCH HE'S FLUENT IN ENGLISH IM SCREAMING

https://youtu.be/XhHnF_W_FEU

fUCKING WATCH IT THAT WAS A GOD-TIER ADVERTISEMENT

ecks dee my dad walked into my room and held up a screenshot of my instagram story that said was basically "lol my dad is scolding my brother for his D in english weLL YOU'VE GOT A BIG STORM COMIN WITH MY GRADES" and he wasnt happy

gee im sorry i expected you to have a much worse reaction

am i gonna delete it?

nah

nvm he came back in asking if i'd deleted it guess i kinda have to now

but like

what did i do wrong

like i seriously do not see what made him upset

someone??? help???

i didnt paint him in a bad light or anything i just said my grades were shitty am i not allowed to do that??? bc you should see how i talk at school

quotes from school brought to you by me:

"YA'LL MY GRADES PERFECTLY SPELL OUT ACDC LETS FUCKIN GO"

"im already failing this class is it even possible to make it worse at this point lol"

"i dont care"

"i didnt do it are you really surprised?"

"of course i didnt do my work who do you think i am"

"whoopdedoop i dont give a fuck anymore- not that i ever did"

aLSO-

i put that on my insta story bc i know my dad doesnt sEE my instagram stories but my aunt does and she screenshotted it and sent it to my father like if you wanna talk about things being unnecessary there you go-

idk i feel like a teenager in denial but i think im relatively okay at accepting i was wrong about something but i really dont feel like i did anything bad

im curious but also exhausted so i dont care enough

couple days later idk:

sCHOOLS OUT BIH FUCK YOU ALL