skip this chapter if you want im kinda really really negative in it soOo i mEaN-

sorry for being inactive lol

i was just drawing something (finally after not getting out of bed for like four days) and my computer decided to just randomly unplug itself and delete my work bc im an idiot who forgot to save it

it was a good drawing too

im sad

my drawing program also decided to yeet and delete all the new colors i saved to my pallette that i now have to resave

you havent missed much in my life since i decided to just not 

i mean

ive started bringing my blanket to school and thats allowed so i mean why not

we were eating some bell peppers that looked like chilis in science and one looked exactly like the chili's logo so i went over to betcha and held it up to her and said "hi welcome to chili's"

ive been so unmotivated

all i do after school is come home and lay in bed for hours

and i'll run off to places instead of talking to my friends

in the mornings i dont even spend most of my time near the orchestra room like usual i'll just walk around alone until the bell rings

and i keep crying in class

or in the bathroom

we went to a lunch group thing yesterday

there were too many people in one spot

it was loud

im not going there again

if my friends do

they can have fun there but i'll just stick to hiding in the library

and im so frustrated

god i want to scream at everyone to shut up i dont care what you have to say leave me alone i want to be alone shut up shut up

on a different note i discovered a new sky

the taxi cab sky

its pretty

light pink and soft purple

i dont want to see people

i want to be alone

my chest feels so tight and angry and i feel like crying and i just want to lay in bed one day and not have to get up and im failing all my classes and i keep cutting my hair and i dont know what to do anymore

heres some venti art

threw a bit of forest fic in there 

sorry for the negativity