^^ ryan ross screaming in the distance

i atE FOOD TODAY WHY AM I ALMOST PASSING OUT IN SHOWERS WHAT THE FUKC

anywaY heres some vent art

ya see them dust particles???

so i was too lazy to download a custom scatterdot brush and closest thing on my program was just a grass texture and here we are

btw this is just how i imagine my mind my actual house is a lot nicer and its carpeted anyway so-

me: *isolates myself from social interaction and doesnt respond to texts*

also me: *panics when i realize my friend hasnt texted me anything in a while and i have no idea how theyre doing or what theyre up to*

whY am i like tHis

update: im laying in bed at 2 am knowin full well i have a camping trip to go on in the morning but instead of sleeping im crying, cutting my hair, taking a shot of vodka, and wanting my mom beside me to stroke my hair and tell me nice things

i want my mom

highkey tempted to go sleep in her bed but i dont wanna wake her up with my alarm nor do i want her to smell the alcohol on my breath

ya'll im just a bitch who wants to hug her mother and spill out my depressing thoughts and explain how my hair keeps getting shorter despite not having gone to a hair salon in over a year

my mom always tells me that i will never be a bother or anything so i really just wanna sleep in her bed like i used to when i was little and didnt have as many problems

fuck it

imma put my laundry in the goddamn dryer and then im gonna grab my charger and go sleep in my moms bed because im depressed and crave something solid that i know will stick by me no matter what

or not bc i dont have clean pajama pants since theyre all in the wash rn and as much as my mom loves me i highly doubt she'll appreciate me coming into her bed that has white sheets with no pants on while im on my period :/

guess i'll watch asmr and cry a bit :)

three days later:

4 days

heya so im back from camping

had a snazzy time

i would tell yall stories but i doubt you care and i dont feel like typing it out

but i went to the pool today and saw joey whO I HAVENT SEEN SINCE SCHOOL

he told me he wanted a hug before i left bc he didnt know when i'd see him again and i almost cried

lil background info but i used to give joey hugs all the time bc i really liked giving hugs back then and he never really enjoyed it but here he is asking for a hug like bitch move im boutta sob