me waitin for an apology or even an acknowledgement of the fact i said i was going to be at that homecoming but wasnt:

(:

ya'LL IM SCREAMIN HOLD UP

i was looking through some old texts bc procrastination aND i found old text convos with this boi coLE

betcha im sure you remember him lmao

BRO I WAS SO SMITTEN LMAOOO

"sweat dreams" im fuckign cryin

we actually all get vietnam flashbacks whenever someone mentions him so to avoid that we have sorta agreed to refer to him as "black fuel nuggets" instead bc his name is that triggering for us lmao

bUT HE TOTALLY HAD ME WRAPPED AROUND HIS FINGER

I'VE BEEN GIVING Y'ALL SHIT BC YOU SUCK RN BUT MY FRIENDS ARE REALLY GOOD ABOUT KEEPING ME SAFE

also i tried to fall asleep at a decent time last night but wound up crying so hard i couldnt sleep and finally fell asleep at like,,, 2 am

i drank some wine last night since thats the only alcohol my dad has

lemme tell ya

im so used to alcohol causing me agONY bc it tastes so awful since i usually drink hard shit like vodka

and then i taste wine

and i tastes fuckin good

i tried white wine btw

its sweet and nice 10/10 do recommend if you want a nice drink

bUT i dont recommend if you wanna get hammered or somethin bc wine sucks at doing that

next next day:

GUYS

ITS THE SPOOKY MONTH

SKDKSK LETS GO

im also doing inktober

im going a bit ahead bc i dont wanna fall behind so im working on day 3 rn 

also-

you heard it here folks

im a good boyfriend lmaoo

then i sent her a bunch of pictures of taehyung since thats her bias and i want her to feel better

btw i dont have feelings for her or anything like that but shes one of my best friends and i want my friends to be happy ya feel

also i tend to call my friends weirdly romantic pet names so-

next day:

tbh i think the worst thing about public school is its hypocrisy

like

school: we may not teach you anything useful in the slightest, but we teach you valuable skills!

valuable skill: learning things up until a test and forgetting everything afterwards, failing to retain any knowledge and only memorizing things in order to get an acceptable grade

teachers: i dont want any excuses

teacher, seeing a student who doesnt have their homework: alright, whats your excuse?

counselors: we want you all to stay healthy and safe mentally, if someone is bullying you report it to us!

student: im being bullied

counselors: have you tried just ignoring them

teachers: i dont want to see any phones in my classroom! you dang teens are all addicted

teachers: *spends free class time on their phones*

pe teachers: we're pushing you hard so you can grow physically!

student: *fractures their finger in their class*

other student: yo your class makes me wish i had the guts to kill myself or at least smash my leg against a pole so it breaks and i dont have to do the workouts that make me almost pass out

next day:

so regular show was really a part of my childhood rite

like

i remember on mondays mom and dad would let us stay up a lil later so we could watch it

at one point we had all the episode recorded other than exit 9b since ya know no hulu or netflix

we decided to rewatch it recently

and today we got to the finale

perhaps i cried

me, holding back tears: haha wow sure is dusty in here *sniffles* amirite

next day:

*in the car this morning*

me: ethan did you cry at the regular show finale last night

him: no

me: *voice crack* haha me neither

next next day:

bro i hate school so much right now-

like fuCK this bro im a new student and i hate it so much and exams are coming up and guess who's completely unprepared due to being neW

also my school is fucking big

its foUR BUILDINGS

i dont like walking between east and west this early okay-

my new school i guess is cool because it starts at 8:20 which like "oh cool i can sleep in"

bUT I STILL WAKE UP AT FIVE

IT AINT GOOD CHIEF

i also have no friends and i get home at 4 pm which is heckin late

dude i just

i hate being at this new school

but i aint got another choice

im the only freshman in a class of juniors

and im the only freshman in a class full of sophomores

plus my dad,, is starting to get really demanding about my grades especially since he figured out he can check them now

like bro

my guy

im so depressed

him: you need to summon your motivation from within

seriously my gUY that aint how it woRKS

do you know how difficult it is to get out of bed in the morning

how pathetic it is to cry in your bed alone in the dark because your friends forgot about you

how sad it is that some of my only happiness comes from a bottle

i am truly trying my best guys

but people dont believe me when i say that because my best doesnt fit their expectations

then they try to deny that they have such expectations when i tell them so

i feel guilty about being pissed off at my dad since hes being deployed soon

but,, he gave me like three panic attacks once,,, and didnt apologize

i just realized since i changed school districts my old email account got suspended which means,, i lost the bob ross bible i was writing

guess i'll die lol

me: damn these past two weeks have been really tough on me

me: good thing i have my friends to rely on

me: oh wait

me: they left me too

i think my mom threw away all the alcohol so that kinda sucks

next day:

oof i lowkey wanna buy a binder

nvm just looked at prices whoop bye lmao

anyway heres some porn

i saw a tweet that said if you hold down your ring finger down with your thumb it means two fingers in the pussy and one in the ass so here we are lol