Let me get this off my chest. (in this chapter it dont have a drawing or something)

I'm working on some drawings.
And I'm like I begin many drawings but dont finish them, which is really stupid I know.

So I'm sorry if the updates are slow like a snail (or slower) but that reason above is just ONE of some reasons why the updates are so slow.

yeah.. sorry

erm.. topic change.

Did you know that the first "lines" are the hardest part for me in drawing a picture?
Like. erm lets take for example a manga figure.
First I have to look how big the damn head is than the pose and anatomy and blablabla. I often draw the head WAAAY too big at the begining. These steps are so hard for me even though it's suposed to be easy for most of the artists. Q.q

So well... I want to draw something for someone I really adore. And he/she is a role model of mine. This person is really awesome at art. And well... I want to do a good job for this person, so I put extra more effort to draw the picture.

And ugh one problem I'm having at drawing. I use and waste A LOT of paper because I fail EVERYTIME with the anatomy, pose and hands. Wow what a suprise!

I needed help, so I ask an artist friend of mine (she is really awesome in drawing and as person) and asked her if she could draw me some pose references how I want the picture to look like. I didnt wanted much just some messy sketches are already enough for me

She is fast and good at drawing hands and these things i'm really horrible at (or take 3662627827292748937483 years to draw it).

There's only one thing I needed to do. I need to pay her money for drawing things for me. Sadly I don't have any money, so she said she would do it for free then, but I didnt wanted her to draw something for me without getting anything back. That's not fair Qwq

So she said I could draw her something as return because she think my art is cute. And that's what I'm doing right now. I'm drawing for her a picture.

Let me take it in short:
I draw a drawing for someone just to be able to draw an other drawing for someone else. xDD

What we can learn from this stupid text I wrote:
I start drawings but never finish them and-
Every drawing needed time and effort and maybe stress.

Who knows what is "behind" a drawing. It could be that the drawing is drawn to make a young child happy. It could be that this person draw a drawing just to sell it and make money for their family. Maybe it's a drawing someone draws while crying. Or maybe the drawing looks "bad" and still took days to draw it.
*cough*
Please guys. I see so many people looking at art and dont like it or call it ugly. Please think twice about what I said above. No matter if the drawings dont look well. Art is art ówò
wait. o.o
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o.O
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what???
How??
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Now i'm just asking myself how I went to apologizing my slow updates
to these deep but true stuff ô.o

weird