"I'm fine."—"I am not fine."

I've been in stress. I haven't been myself lately and I don't know why. I pretend to be okay but when really I'm not.  I pretend to feel happy but I'm not. I pretend to be okay but I'm not. I feel nothing but hatred, selfish, useless and hideous. I feel like the whole world is against me time after time. I can't do anything right. My family hates me. My mother is mentally and emotionally abusing me because of my father giving her lecture and emotional abuse. My dad is a good dude, but I wish he could give respect to my mom. My sister seems to get all attention and she looks at me like a sin. My young brother is always getting me in trouble for fucking reason. My family completely ignores me and school has been...hell. My teachers are okay but they need to lay low on grades. The students keep pissing me off and then when I say something that's not that offensive like stupid or shut up. I get in trouble but when another student says Retard or whore or the n-word. No one will shut their fucking mouths. I do focus on my grades and I want to make a living in my life, meaning. I want to be someone and I am. I know that there are people who care for me but, I'm still scarred from my sins and pain. No, I'm not self-harming myself, I'm just thinking negative. I just need a time-out from everything, but I wanna thank you guys for supporting me and building my confidence. I feel so much better whenever I'm talking with ya guys and I feel so much better whenever I am on this app. Thank you all so much, thank you all for being more then friends and by that I mean like family. Thank you guys so much, I would hug you all if could. I will keep trying my best because I feel that somewhere, there are people who care and love me, for being me. I just don't know what to say but thanks you. And if you are having the same issue I'm having, please know that you are not alone. Never alone. Thank you.