—You can't fix everything and everyone

The four letters on title describe me. Since January, my life hasn't been okay. The only day I remember of me being happy is my birthday, Feb 2. After that, I've been upset. I've lied to everyone on this app, I told most of them that "I'm okay." when I'm not. I didn't want anyone to be involve.

But I'm gonna tell you this....someone on this app left me over an role-play. First, when an rp isn't making you comfortable, you tell that person. Second, you don't block that person over a stupid rp unless that person is bothering you or neglecting you. Third, you don't make that other person feel like a piece of shit. Fourth, you don't break promises with the people you know who are hurt before....

I have never felt what it was like to be left alone over a dumb-rp. People think that I only care about rp, but if they came into my shoes and saw how stress I was. They would understand. I only role-play for my fun and anxiety because I have nothing else to do. I know that I should let go and forgive, but when a person has hurt you TWICE, how can you forgive them?

I'm sorry that this message has ruined your morning, afternoon or night. I'm sorry to those I have not respond to. I'm sorry to those that I've been annoying. I'm sorry to those that feel like I only care about rp. And I'm sorry...to the person that left me because of the rp which they never told me that it uncomfortable.

I wish that this person would unblock me and read this and comment here but...people are cruel. No matter how good or nice or you try to be nice, the world can be an asshole to you. I'm only 15. Why am I suffering at young youth level? People deal with worse shit then me...I shouldn't be complaining right?

I'm done with the pity party

I just want to be happy

You're crying over a friend who left you over an rp? Pathetic!

They were the person to hurt me

Just stop already. Jesus, you're so dramatic

I feel like sin because I'm making you all feel upset

People deal with worse things! You're being too sensitive over this already

People find ways to deal with pain while others let the pain eat them out

Stop being so clingy and upset. No wonder no one wants to rp with you

I hurt so many people

What kind of girl are you?

I'm broken

Such a disappointment you are

If I left, then maybe you all would've been happier

Weak

Please

Annoying

Forgive

Ungrateful

me

Horrible

STOP IT!!!

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—The more I tell about my pain, I make them in pain. The more I keep my pain in, it makes me think why am I even here on this planet?

Wattpad made me cry and happy at all in once. To understand pain, I needed them to hurt me..in ways that teen girls like me feel. I feel useless. I've always have. And always will.

But....

I was never alone, was I?