I'm currently presenting this to a school that I've been wanting to enter. These drawings are one of the reason why I have not been able to update more often. I've already passed the animation to which they thought was pretty good.

But they still wanted to see a 'Human' art from me, I have never in my life tried 'Human' freaking art. So I was terrified as f. But I kept on training for about.. a week and a half for these...

OMGGGGG XDD

I don't even know if these are good or even close at good. I think it's horrible for my opinion but I just really hope I'll be able to get in ^^°

(p.s I love BTS)

mAh bias. (This guy doesn't even look like the real thing XD wtf)

Mah second bias. (Fail once again.)

Actually all of the members are my bias. It's just that the school only wanted two of my best illustrations. Though I do want to draw the othersssss...

If I have time XD

Well actually... There's this one reason.. actual reason...

One of the MAIN reason why I.. haven't been able to update is actually the fact that this user keeps on correcting my grammar and ect... I mean I do appreciate it. I really do, it helps me learn more things about writings.

It's just that my mind takes it as a negative comment and with that I start to think to myself,

"Your writing sucks."

"Just look at them, aren't you ashamed?"

"Hey! They're correcting your grammars! Ugh fucking correct them!"

"Publishing your stupid stories even though they're nothing but trash and mistakes."

"You should stop."

"They'll hate you if you make more mistakes."

"Give up."

"Stop."

I start to break down, I wanna cry. And I just want to disappear, although I'm not a suicidal person... I just want to not exist anymore. I feel afraid to be reminded again and again that I am not perfect. It scares me.. I've already been through a lot of situations where people tell me that I'm too far from perfect and not perfect... and it's absolutely painful.. Although I really do love the people that corrects my errors. It's just really ME who gets all sad and disappointed because my head loves to take those helpful comments negatively.... knowing that writing was not meant to be my thing.

I'm really sorry about this long story thing.. I'm just feel a bit...depressed.. but I'm sure this is nothing. ^^

:)

Also I am not saying that I want to be perfect or even close to be perfect. I'm just saying that I'm scared of being REMINDED that I'm not perfect. Cuz whenever someone tells me that I'm not perfect I feel like I'm more lower or worse than that.

I know I'm not perfect and I'm not trying to be.

I'm just a coward who is afraid. And will always be afraid.

ALSO I AM OKAY NOW!! FIGHTING!!! ^^