So. I just recently found out about this thing called Aphantasia.

Now before I tell you what it is, I want you to try to imagine an apple.

What color is it?

Can you turn the apple to see the other side?

Are there bruises?

Is there a worm?

Can you roll the apple?

Most likely, you all could at least see an apple in your head, even if the image is foggy.

But... here's the thing...

I see nothing.

Just black.

For the longest time, I thought that was normal. I thought when people said to "visualize" something, that it was just a saying and that no one actually saw anything.

The inability to form an image inside your head is called aphantasia. And apparently I may have it. Which is strange because I draw, and write and I tend to an very detailed about both.

But, I believe the reason I'm able to draw and write is because I do so with feeling, not with internal visual clues.

Looking back on my writing, I see I often describe feelings and touches, and I also notice that the times I do struggle with writing is when I'm trying to introduce a setting. Because I can't see it. I can feel it. I can feel a warm fire in my mind or the furry coat on the hanger, but when I close my eyes to see it, I just can't.

Of course, this doesn't affect me in anyway, it's just strange how different my life may be compared to someone else's who can visualize.

Now here, have an overdramatic picture I drew at 12 last night in between my 5 essays that are due :D

That all being said,
Turtle, out!