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This message is for those who are wondering what is happening to me in Splendid's fanfictions.

Please understand... I'm just a sensitive soul at heart... I feel for things very deeply... Even if they aren't real... I try to forget the pain of my friends in this website's fanfictions, but due to my photographic memory, it pops back inside my mind five days later... It's maddening.

I want to trust everyone... Believe me...

Plus, I'm STILL trying to get over my cats being put down...And a bad memory in reality keeps popping up...

Hell, even the lockdown... Being cooped up... All of this is driving me insane... Causing me to say things that I don't even mean... As Chester Bennington said, and I quote:

"I don't know what's worth fighting for or why I have to scream... I don't know why I instigate and say what I don't mean... I don't know how I got this way... I know it's not alright... So I'm breaking the habit tonight."

This is my apology note to those who are listening... I just want to make it right... But who am I kidding?  You'll never forgive me...