History Of Pain

[20 February]

Mayesha's POV

Kim SeokJin! You are fucking dead!

Was what I heard when I came back from the shock of the truth. "Shit!" Jin muttered under his breath and instantly let go of my hands which I didn't know he was holding.

No wonder they felt warm, my brain purred.

Shut up, stupid! I thought back.

"Zahra, let me explain!" Jin said but Zahra did not, could not listen to him and so she grabbed his collar and slammed him on the nearby wall.

Zahra was quite tall, around 5 foot 7 inch and she looked more intimidating than Jin even when he's taller.

Jin groaned from the impact and Zahra said, "You listen to me Mister Kim, you do not ever go near my May ever again or else I'll tell everyone your biggest secrets!" Jin's eyes widened momentarily before he quietly nodded his head and Zahra let go.

"Get out SeokJin" Zahra said but Jin didn't move an inch. "Didn't you he-" "I heard you loud and clear but if only Mayesha tells me to go I'll then go." Zahra looked at me after he said that and I was tempted to kick Jin out of the room. So I did just that, kicked him out of the room without touching his pretty ass.

"If you really cared about me you would not have accepted her proposal even if she declared your secrets. I would have not let you be in trouble. If a similar thing happened with me I would have said 'no' and not 'yes'. I'm hurt Jin and before I throw something at you, get out!" I said in one breathe and pointed at the door.

"Mayesha please I was on-" "GET OUT!" I shouted so loud that my heart started to beat rapidly and the heart monitor picked up the sensation. Aisha came rushing into the room and asked, "What's wrong?! Why is your heart beating so fast?!" I tried to calm down and was successful and looked at Jin. Aisha followed my gaze and immediately walked towards Jin.

"Sir if you don't leave right now, I will call the guards" She said calmly. Jin gave out a frustrated sigh and stomped his way out of my room. "I'll call your doctor now" and she left.

"I'm sorry Zahra but I didn't invite him in" "I know you didnt" Zahra replied back instantly. I grinned at her and she gave me a happy smile.

"How are you May?" Auri and Nuzh asked at the same time. I chuckled at their timing and said, "I'm okay? What about you girls?" Auri and Nuzh giggled like school girls and Zahra's expression turned a bit sour.

"Namjoon and Jimin was here. We had lunch with them and then went shopping and bought these new clothes, aren't these pretty?" Nuzh asked and twirled around for me to see the dress. It actually was pretty.

The boys have good taste.

Just then the door opened and a doctor with Aisha, Marsi, Jungkook and Mabrur entered. "Hello Mayesha, I am Tom and I'll be your doctor these few weeks. So let's start with the basics?" The doctor said and I nodded my head.

I looked at Zahra who was looking at Jungkook with a sad face and when they made eye contact, Zahra looked away instantly. They all sat at any available chair or sofa and only Mabrur sat beside me, holding my hand.

"So Mayesha, how are you feeling?" Tom asked.
"A little dizzy and agitated but other then that I'm fine" I answered after mentally checking my body.
"May I ask why you're heart started to beat so rapidly?" "It's personal" I replied instantly. He nodded his head slowly while jotting down some things on his clipboard.
"I'm guessing, this is not the first time you had a panic attack?" Tom asked and looked at me, expecting me to say no.

"Yes, this is not my first. I had three more before, this is my fourth panic attack in my life." I stated calmly. Tom's eyes widened in shock and he quickly nodded his head while writing more notes.

"Can you tell me about them?" "Ani" I said. He looked taken back but then recovered his posture. "Mayesha if y-" "We can tell you about them she's not comfortable with this topic" Nuzh said for me. I looked at her and smiled lightly, thanking her. She nodded her head and Tom turned towards her, getting ready.

"Jungkook, can you please take Mabrur outside for awhile?" I asked Jungkook. He smiled at me and nodded his head. He extended his right hand to my brother and he looked at me mouthing the words, 'I have something funny to tell you later'. I gave him an okay sign and they left.

"She got her first panic attack in my presence. Her parents had kicked her out of their house unintentionally and the siblings came to take shelter in my house. I lived alone that time and craved company too, so I welcomed them. Besides, she was my high school best friend and I loved her. That day she had cried in my arms telling me everything her parents had planned for her. I was angry and sad but mostly scared. Scared for her life, she was always the sucidal type, she would drop hints of ending her life when we were young but didn't commit suicide.

That night, I forced her to sleep with me and gave her siblings the other room, I wanted to make sure she wouldn't do anything stupid. She cried herself to sleep and then I forced myself to sleep. It was around 5am when I woke up to an empty bed and I panicked instantly. I looked for her everywhere but left the bathroom for the last. When checked, I saw her laying their with her skin pale and lips blue. She must have bumped her head on the floor because she hurt her head too. I had immediately called the ambulance and later found it from her doctor that she had a panic attack in the middle of the night. It wasn't that serious but he still told me to be careful with her. She looked empty, whenever, I or the girls would visit her and then her scholarship and her chance to study at Harvard reached to her. She was so happy that she recovered in hours and then we all decided to move to America for Mayesha so that we could take care of her but it looks like we were unsuccessful even for the fourth time." Nuzh narrated my whole first panic attack story and I only sat their twiddling with my fingers.

"The first one was probably from the stress she felt from the...um....from the leaving." Tom stated. "Do you also have a story for her second panic attack?" The girls nodded her head and looked at Marsi. She cleared her throat and said, "I was there when she experienced her second panic attack."

My heart started to speed up and Tom noticed. My second panic attack was frightening enough to send me to coma because

It was about my parents death.

"I was not practically there with her but she told me the cause of it." Marsi nodded her head my way. Tom looked at me and they all seem to notice now that I have half of my face tucked under sheets. Tom raised an eyebrow and I cowered more into the sheets.

"We have left our co-" "Jungji! Stop!" I cut her off with my shouting. They looked at me with a confused face, "Can I have my phone and headphones?" I asked nicely. They rolled their eyes and Zahra handed me my precious objects. I quickly put them on and started to watch a 'Kim SeokJin video'. It always calms me down.

"You can start now" I said and went back to watching my idol being silly and a sweetheart at the same time.

My eyes, automatically moved towards them and I couldn't help but also think about my parents death. It terrified me to the core.

FLASHBACK STARTED
We have just moved in our new home in America. It's been a month since we last saw our parents. I have worked my ass off but at the same time studied really hard. I did not allow my sister or brother help me with my responsibilities. I was able to save money and now we have bought a small apartment near to my university and my sister and brother's new school, which I enrolled them in at the same time as I bought the house.

It had been a few months and we were going just fine. My aunt which lived in America kept me updated about our parents. I got a job in a famous company, assistant position, worked there for three months or so and when we neared July, a disaster happened.

I got a call from my aunt, informing me about my parents health. After that I rushed to my boss's office, who was a kind old man, and asked for the monthly leave he had offered me during my exams.

I arrived after a day at my motherland with my siblings and quickly went to the hospital to visit my parents. After many apologies, they fell asleep and then I was able to speak with their doctor.

"They have 4th stage cancer, we can't help them. I'm sorry" the doctor said and left me in his office room. I had slowly walked towards their room and found them awake and then from that moment we kept on remembering about our happy family moments including my siblings.

"Unnie, I'm hungry I'm taking Mabrur to the canteen" Marsi said and left with my brother. "Mayesha I'm so sorry I never meant to kick you out of the house, we miss you" my mom said. I shook my head and said, "I know mom that you didn't do it intentionally and I'm now glad that you did kick me out because I was able to go to America, mom. I got accepted in Harvard and now I'm working in a quite well known company." I told them about everything that happened till today.

"We are glad that you are finally happy" "Your mom's right, Mayesha but do us one favour, take care of your siblings when we die." My father said coughing slightly. "Don't say such things dad, God will make you guys alright again" I replied and walked away to get them a glass of water. I came back and saw their figures still.

"Mom? Mom!? MOM!?!? Dad? Dad!? DAD!?!?" I shouted while shaking them vigorously. "Please don't leave me!" I cried on their hands and maybe I was imagining it but I heard a faint "we love you." I snapped my head on time to see their souls leaving their bodies.

The souls looked dead and their bodies where white, what terrified me the most was their faces. I can't even describe, they were so horrible looking that I screamed the moment one of them turned towards my direction. I backed away from my parents bodies and watched as the souls evaporated from above their bodies, still looking at me. The moment they vanished I collapsed on the floor, while breathing very heavily.

My eyes watered and I coughed out a lot of blood. I collapsed on the floor in my own blood.
FLASHBACK ENDED

My eyes widened and I waited for the fear to grip my heart tightly until I couldn't breathe anymore.

But it never came and I was thoroughly surprised.

"I reached their room just in time to find her in a pool of her own blood. I screamed for the doctors and they took care of unnie while we prepared for my parents burial. After her operation, she went to a coma for two weeks. Her lips were blue and skin paler than Yoongi the whole two weeks and she also experienced many seizures." I could hear Marsi say faintly from my headphones.

I took off my earphones to listen to them better and heard Tom say, "Your description matches the day you girls brought her here, I had watched her lips turned from red to blue during the whole operation and her complexion becoming paler and paler with every passing minute." Tom sighs after looking at his notes and looked at me, "I'm guessing that day's events scared you a lot and it must had been as bad as your parents death."

Nothing will ever be bad as my parents death. Whatever the heck I saw, will haunt me forever!

I shrugged, "Maybe, maybe not." Tom nodded his head and stood up. "Your panic attack stories are getting more and more personal, but I'll hear the third one later. Take some rest and drink a lot of water." I nodded my head and he left.

Everyone gave out a tired sigh and I chuckled at them. A knock sound on my door, "Come in!" I shouted. The door opened at Mabrur came sprinting into the room and sat right beside me on the bed. "Sis? You okay now? Can I tell what happened today?" Mabrur asked impatiently. We all chuckled at his behaviour and I nodded my head.

Just then Jungkook entered the room and sat beside Zahra. Zahra first gave him an irritated look but then caught me staring at her. She blushed and looked away, I held in a chuckle and waited for my brother to narrate his day.

"Aayan finally moved to my school sis and today was his second day and he is already being an ass." I gasped loudly at his words.

"MABRUR! LANGUAGE YOUNG MAN!!" I screeched at him. "Chill sis! No- oww oww ouch!" I twisted his ear until he was promising me that he won't use any dirty words.

"So today he was sitting at the front seat with a sad expression and so I asked him 'what was wrong'. He said that he was going to do some mischief. It was funny as hell!" Mabrur stopped talking and rubbing his ear when he realised he used a swear word. I sighed, "Continue."

"The teacher saw that he had a sad expression on and so she asked 'what was wrong', Aayan replied that his mother is in the hospital and his father is in the police station, the teacher took pity on him and told him to go home. He packed his back and was halfway out when one of the teachers who knew him well asked teacher where he was going, the teacher told him what Aayan told him.

The other teacher said with a frustrated voice, 'His mother is a doctor and his father is a policeman where else will they be?' our teacher screeched and quickly rushed to get back Aayan but he wasn't having any of it." Mabrur, the girls and I were full on laughing after he narrated this day. He copied that dialogue from a famous comedy show, all the girls and I used to watch that's why it's so dame funny.

"Aa-ayan is a lite-eral sav-aage!" Marsi said in-between her laughs. We all agreed and wiped our tears when we heard another knock on the door. "Come in" I said and J-hope along with Jin and the other boys filled up my room and of course we cannot miss Mahiyat, she's the main leech here.

"Mayesha, the delivery man handed me a package saying its yours" I extended my hands for the box and Suga dumped it on my lap, I muttered a small 'ouch' and glared at him. He shrugged his shoulders and went to stand beside my blushing sister. I rolled my eyes at looked at the package details. It read,

From: May ; To: Hoseok ; Title: HBH

I squinted my eyes at it for a few seconds before realising that it was Hoseok's gift.

"Hoseok this is your birthday present from my behalf" I said and handed it to Hoseok. "HBH?" Hoseok asked, confused. "That doesn't matter, open the box!" I replied. He kept it at the near by table and started to open too slowly, much to everyone's annoyance. They groaned in frustration and Namjoon said, "Hoseok please open the box quickly!" Hoseok chuckled and quickly opened the box to find some clothes and accessories but the ticket caught his eyes and I smirked at his next words,

"Your sending me on a vacation to your private island with my family?!" Hoseok gaped at me.

A/N:
The book parts are shorter now.

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