Look what I drew for me and my friends

Btw, it's my friends' OC's along with Lake.
But she ain't having it right now.

Somehow I feel like a a cowboy in Texas because of the way I talk irl and even in text. I don't know.

"Ya'll"

WARNING: depressing stuff ahead

Please don't read if this triggers you.

I dont want to trigger anyone with my depressing quotes.

I'm still not really sure if my art is... that good?

And I know I've said this a million times but I don't think anybody cares about me at all.

Yes, I know I'm insecure about this, I mean, I'm insecure about everything.

I just... feel like nobody likes me. I feel their aura *Creek TRIGGERING*

I know the internet isn't... really an actual universe (but it probably is) or an actual reality (but probably is as well) or... a physical world like the Earth.

I just feel like it is. It's my own world. It's my own imaginary land from reality...

It's like I have my own family who supports me, who sometimes care about, who... actually cares about how I feel. They just don't look at me staring down at my food and not moving at all and be "shes okay."

They just don't see me laying in bed all day thinking about my insecurities and my mistakes and say "She's just sleepy."

They just don't look at me staring at my phone all day and say "You're always on the darn phone. You need to focus on reality."

But... I can't. I want to distract myself from it. It's...

... I don't know anymore.

I know this is... unhealthy. But, cmon, I can never literally live without my own reality.

This is my reality that I enjoy to be in.
Maybe that's why I'm always active.
Maybe that's why I always love to draw to where many people can see it and I'm not shy to show it to them personally like in real life.

Maybe that's why I sometimes call people "Mama" or "Mom" or "Dad" (I haven't called anyone "Dad" yet)
But... maybe that's why?

Jeez, I'm getting way into this again. Forget I said anything. Don't worry. It's just... deep thoughts I'm having again.

Im probably gonna stay up all night again and think about this. 

I don't know why but I'm pretty satisfied with Creek. I mean, drawing him you know?

It just.. looks okay. It looks "not-CRINGEY" like what my sister says. I'm glad I blocked her

I think so
I think I unblocked her
Crud

And I decided to redraw this drawing my friend french_toast_allies drew:

(It's also in the first drawing I just showed)

Here's my version

I'm pretty satisfied

I think I'm gonna try drawing toddlers

But first, I wanna draw my boy Aster