Clara P.O.V

The sun shines through my blinds -lighting up my ceiling. I look over at time which was placed on top of my desk. 8:30 am. I let out a soft sigh while pulling the sheets over my face. My body was so use to the feeling of getting out of bed early that the one day I needed the sleep, it couldn't cooperate with me. My head lightly aches from last night. All of the alcohol I consumed with Violet was a large amount. I'm just glad that no one else bothered to compare my sister and I or mention the name that I was trying to forget... unless I wasn't sober enough when mentioned... I heard a soft knock on the door as it slowly crept open. Violet walks into the room with a glass of water and some pain killers. 

   "Wakey wakey little sis."  She sits on the side of my bed as I adjust my pose so I would be sitting upwards. I take the pills and water from her hands, swallowing the two right away. She begins to crack a little laugh while watching.

   "You're up early.."  I say while taking another sip of my water. She shrugs in response.

   "I'm just use to getting up for work early. After all I did book this week off to come home."  She takes the empty glass out of my hands.  "So I have some things planned for today if you're still in for it?"   I nod my head with a quirky smile on. 

I haven't been able to catch up with Violet due to our schedules. I felt like today would of been a perfect time to tell her what's been happening between Jungkook and I. I was in desperate needs for someone to tell me what was right and what was wrong. Besides Maria knowing, I felt that telling my sister and getting her view could help ease this feeling I felt inside. 

   "Well let's go get some fresh air first. We'll walk and run a bit with Toby. You really need it after last night. Gosh you even drank more than I did and I got that from dad."  She playfully hits my leg. 

Flashbacks start to appear through my mind. One by one I start to feel the embarrassment. I couldn't remember much, but I do know that we did karaoke and I'm pretty sure that wasn't a very great moment of mine. She gets up from my bed -heading towards the door. She puts up five fingers telling me that I've got five minutes to meet her downstairs. As she left I stare at the wall trying to remember if anything had slipped from my mouth. I jump out of bed not worrying too much about it. I probably didn't say much anyways. I'm sure it was more singing.

   "Good morning ladies."  My dad flashes us a smile as he sips on his coffee. I walk towards the living room to give him a quick hug as I tied my hair up. 

   "Morning dad."  My sister and I both say. I start walking towards the door to slip on my runners. Violet was back with dad discussing something, but when I went to check up on her they stopped. My heart drops fast thinking it could of been about last night. All of the stupid shit that I've done comes into mind.

  "What are you two talking about?"  I ask while stretching my arms. They exchange a look before my sisters talks. 

   "We'll tell you after. Come on let's go before we bump into people."  She drags me towards the door. I didn't like the fact of not knowing. It can't be that bad can it? 

 We start running to the left of us since that was where the trial was. After running for a few minutes I notice Jungkook's house. It still looked the same from when we were kids. Not much has changed. Violet notices me staring off so she tugs my arm, signally that it's time to cross the road. My head instantly turns to look at her. She has a smile on, but doesn't say anything. It was silent between the two of us. All you could hear is the sounds of birds chirping and the sound of dog collars. I occasionally glanced up and down trying to think thoroughly about what I wanted to say once I could find the right time. 

   "Ah Violet."  A male voice spoke. My thoughts instantly stopped as I was afraid to look up. My grip tightens onto Toby's leash. 

   "Jaehyun? Hey. I didn't know you two took the same track."  Violet says in a breathy voice. Wait. Two? That only means... I look up to catch a sight of Jungkook. Ah fuck. Perfect. 

   "Hey Toby." Jungkook slowly knees down to pet him, completely ignoring my presence.

   "Haha yeah. We're heading back though. It's a nice day so I thought why not take Jungkook for a run."  Jaehyun lets out a chuckle.   "Hey Clara. You're so grown up now."  He waves his hand at me.

   "Hey Jaehyun. Good to see you."  I avoid looking over at Jungkook so my eyes began to wonder around the neighbourhood. Violet notices a shift in my mood. She ends her very short conversation with a goodbye. 

As they leave I start running as quick as I could with Toby to get away. I could hear the voice of my sister shouting at me to slow down, but I completely zoned her out. As we arrive to the trails I start slowing down. I look back to only see trees and no buildings. Violet rushes up to me and stops with her hands placed on her hips. She breathes heavily while wiping some of the sweat off her forehead. She stares at me with a bit of anger in her eyes. I pass her the bottle of water that I held onto. She instantly starts to chug it down. I let out a little smirk seeing her like this. 

   "D-Do you-"  She takes a deep breath in. "You want to explain why you took off so fast like that? I-It's like you saw a serial killer."  Her words were still very breathy as she struggled to get some air. I help her over to a bench where we could relax. Her body becomes relaxed as she sunk into the wood. I glance at her with Toby in my lap.

   "Vi... I actually wanted to talk to you about something."  My fingers start to fiddle with his collar. I don't know why I'm so nervous. She's my sister, she's my best friend. She leans forwards, placing her forearm on top of her knees. She patiently waits as I struggle to get the simplest words out. 

"Um you know how Jungkook and I are rivals right."  She nods at my sentence.  "Well.. originally we tried to I guess you could say become friends or at least not as competitive anymore, but that didn't work out because of this one night that happened between us.. I- maybe this is just so stupid to talk about."  I give up in trying to talk about my emotions. 

I felt her arm around my shoulders, comforting me.  "C.. it's okay. I won't judge whatever happened."   

   "That's the thing. Nothing happened. I-I overreacted I guess and then he said some hurtful things because of my response. I don't know why I can't let it go. I don't even like the guy like he was so weird as a kid and he was awful and rude and he's always-"  

   "Clara.. do you have feelings for Jungkook?"   She stops me mid-sentence with that question. My mind is shouting no, you're just not thinking straight, but my heart is screaming yes you fucking do.  There that feeling is again. My heart beats fast as I search for an answer. 

   "I..."  I struggle to tell the truth. "Wait.. let me finish telling you the story first."  I tried to stall a bit even though I knew this question would still pop up afterwards. She lays back against the wood waiting to hear what I had to say. I take a deep breathe in and releasing it slowly. 

"Okay so basically I got invited to go over to Jungkooks' dorm about two weeks ago? Long story short. We ended up playing strip poker an-"  

   "Whoa strip poker? You guys actually know how to play that?"  She places her hands in front of her in surprise, but her expression changed.  "Impressive.. okay continue."  I roll my eyes at her response. 

   "Yes and so what happened was there was this girl named Leslie and she like asked us these stupid questions about who I'd sleep with in the room and I said no one. Oh by the way it was only the five of us left when she asked so Jungkook, Jimin, Maria, Leslie and I. After giving her my answer I won the round so I chose Jimin but he tapped out because it was either his boxers or leaving. I then proceeded to ask Jungkook the same question and he answered Leslie because they've already slept together. I don't know what I was expecting because obviously it wasn't going to me an-" 

   "Clara stay on track please. I would like to get back home and eat." 

   "Sorry.. anyways everyone started to leave and then it was Jungkook and I left. He asked me to stay and I said no at first, but then somehow him asking the second time made me want to stay so I said yes. I saw down beside him and let me just remind you, we were both shirtless so the atmosphere between us was wow.. Anyways he starts to lean in and I thought he was going to kiss me until he said 'Clara... have you..' which made me like whoa whoa. So then I backed away from him and got all defense and I started to raise my voice at him and asked him why he would even think about asking a question like that which he said how could I get so defense if he didn't even ask yet and I was all like oh so since we're almost naked you weren't going to ask any very personal questions and hes like did you think I was going to have sex with you and proceeded to say some harsh things that made me heart shatter at the moment and then Leslie walked in and I was like wow and all and then I left the room and he didn't follow me so... now we're back to really hating each other and now I'm really conflicted with myself."  I take a deep breathe in. I couldn't believe I said that so quickly that I forgot to breathe. Violet stares blankly at me as I revealed what was on my mind. It takes her a few seconds before she slowly nodded her head. 

   "Let's head back home first.."  She slowly gets up from the bench. I hit my head with my hand thinking about how stupid that sounded. The two of us plus Toby jog back home in silence. I just wanted to know what was going on in her mind..

We walk through the door to the smell of waffles. It was almost 10 am when I looked up as I took my shoes off before entering the kitchen to grab some water. My mom gives me a warm smile as she finishes us the rest of the batch. Violet walks past me and heads upstairs without saying a word. I try to let it go thinking that she probably just needed some time to process it through. I head to my room to take a quick shower before going down to eat. 

   "How was your run with Vi?"  My mom asked while handing me a plate of waffles. 

   "It was good. I kind of made her really feel the pain."  I smile widely while taking a bite of the waffles. The warm feeling as I bite into it, eases my body into relaxation. The taste reminds me of the childhood.  "Since we're mentioning Vi.. where is she? I checked her room, but she wasn't there.."  I look around while taking more bites. 

   "Dad and her ran to grab some stuff while you were upstairs. They should be back soon. Did you need to talk to her?"  My mother questions me. I shake my head while finishing up my meal. 

   "Thanks mom. It was yum."  I go to clean my dish while looking outside the window. Once I finished I go over to the living room to put a movie on. 

At this moment I just needed a distraction. I go on to Netflix and start playing the new show I'm not okay with this.  I remember Maria wanted me to watch it, but I could never fit it into my schedule since I always doing something school related. A few seconds turned into a few minutes and minutes turned into hours. Toby was cuddled up next to me as we spent so long watching different shows and movies. I look back at the time to see that it's already 2:30 pm. Where the hell were they? Where would they even go for that long.. but then the door opens. Toby pops up and jumps off the couch, rushing to my sister. She smiles widely while carrying bags of grocery. Really grocery shopping for that long? I get up and help her out. 

"Hey.."  I say while taking the bags away. 

   "Hey."  She looks at me for a few seconds. I start to walk away until she called out my name.  "Clara.. let's go for a drive." 

   "So.. you like Jungkook?"  She sips onto her cup of coffee as I stirred my straw into my milkshake. We drove to this cafe near by that we use to go to many times when we were young. The car ride consist me answering some of these questions Violet had.

   "Yep.."  I awkwardly sip onto my milkshake. My hands fiddle with the side of the glass. 

   "Why don't you just tell him? I mean you don't have to say you like him, but hear him out like if you're feeling guilty for that night just tell him how it made you feel or even apologize."  She gives me a comforting look. I stay silent looking for an answer. 

   "I just don't want him to get more upset at me. We already have some bad blood right now and I wouldn't want to make things worse if I bring up that night."

   "How would it make things worse if you two talk about it? From what I'm hearing is that leaving this alone and not approaching it is causing more chaos then needed. Clara.. just hear him out."  She reaches to squeeze my hand.  "I understand you and Jungkook have always been rivals and that there's always that feeling of needing to be the best, but right now you two are in the last year.. You've been competing ever since 8th grade. This has been going on for almost nine years and I don't think you want to graduate on bad terms. You won't even see each other after that." 

 I guess she's right. This whole thing is getting out of hand. I never heard him out, but he never tried to approach me about it so should I even try? Shortly after, we left the place to go home. Talking to Violet about this and seeing her point of view on this made me realize so many things I never would of thought.. The only thing left is to see now is if he's willing to talk me. 

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A/N: I hope this chapter was enjoyable!