~~~~ Warning: There is smut near the bottom half. If not comfortable then read up before the scene appears!
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We begin walking towards the park except now we were moving higher up. There was a slight hill there and it's usually quiet since no one really wants to walk that high up. I struggle a bit trying to catch up as I was wearing heels so I got tired fast. Jungkook notices and runs back towards me.

  "Here. Get on my back."  He turns around, leaning a bit down for me to hop on. I don't deny his demand and just hopped on. Gosh my feet felt amazing as they just hung there. He hurriedly walks up to the the top before placing my down. Jungkook walks over with a blanket which I have no idea where he got that from. He places it down gesturing me to sit first. The dark sky was filled with shiny starts. It looked really beautiful out. Jungkook sits beside me staring us as well until he looked back down at me.

"Clara.. I.."  I turn to look at him as he spoke. I could feel my heart jump out of the body as he looks into my eyes. "I don't want to compete with you anymore."

I slowly calm down as he said that sentence. I thought he was going to say that he likes me too or something, but I guessed wrong. I continue to listen to what he had to say as he kept going after.

"It's just I don't want to have to try so hard and waste all my free time to do something that isn't fun ya know? Studying just isn't that fun especially when your friends always go out and have fun without you."  He chuckles at his on words. I join in with a small laugh.

  "Oh gosh I know. The amount of times Maria has gotten mad at me when I deny her request to go out and party with her. I'm always like nope sorry gotta study for whatever it is the next day. It's like my social life is gone because I was so focused on being number one too... but I don't want to be anymore. I just want to be able to feel happy and proud with whatever grade I get which I think you may be able to relate as well."  I lean back onto my arms while looking back up at the sky.

   "Of course I relate. It's something I always think about. I've spent another three years making the same mistakes. Never living my fullest during University. It's something I regret a lot because I was so hooked around the idea of beating you in everything, but I'm tired of having to compete."

  "Jungkook that is literally me as well. I feel like I missed the biggest parts about University. You know all the partying, all of the socializing, getting crazy.... falling in love.."  I look back over at him as I said the last few words. I don't think he caught on since he continued to look up at the night sky. I glance down at the blanket before looking back up.

  "Believe it or not, but I've never fell in love. I mean come on.. I may flirt with girls, perhaps sleep with people, but never have I ever fell in love with the right person.." I felt his fingers slowly brush mine as I kept still. It was probably nothing anyways.

   "I miss when we were kids. We always did the weirdest shit like the whole ice cream thing. Why the hell did we do that?"  I break the silence with a laugh. He shakes his head with a smile.

   "I really can't give you an answer to that. I don't even know why. We thought it was such a cool idea." He leans back so that his head was on top of his arm.  "Why did we stop being friends.. I mean I know that I did become quite a jerk afterwards."

  "Well... we just faded apart. You found where you fit in and I found where I fit in. We were always the top of our classes which sort of got into our minds. After that we just started competing and comparing our grades to one another..."  I lay down with him as I take a deep breath in.

"Sometimes I think it's just the pressure of being perfect.. Once you do so good on something you just want to keep doing better than before. It's something I'm so use to doing." 

   "Let me guess.. the comparison to your sibling?"  He shoots me a quite look with his eyes. I nod at him with a tiny smile.

"Me too Clara.. I may seem like I know what I'm doing but god I am so lost.. Every time my parents call to check up on me it's always to see how my grades are. Not how I'm doing mentally, physically or emotionally. It's one of the reasons I stopped answering and calling home. I would never get what I wanted.." He sits back up with his knees bent upwards. I join him with a slight frown.

  "I know how you feel. When my mom called me that one day to come visit home I was so unsure of going. I knew the only thing they would about is school. The only conversation they would have with me is about my classes and grades. Oh and if I'm beating you too. It's like don't you care about how I feel? My emotions? If I'm mentally okay, if I'm getting enough sleep. Nope just if I'm doing better than everyone else. It's like where will that even get me? If I keep have that mind set of being better than everyone then will I ever be happy?"  I place my fingers over my temples as I slowly rub the giving a bit of a dramatic effect.

"Oh gosh and the comparison part is just so cruel. Why compare me to my sister. We're two different people with two different minds."  I pull my knees toward my chest with my arms wrapped around.

  "I know. My parents well mainly my dad compares me so much to Jaehyun.. It hurts inside a lot actually.. sometimes I think maybe that's why I feel the need to be this tough over-confident guy when in reality my confidence is nothing near that. I wish I noticed sooner about this.."  I put my hand on his shoulder lightly shaking it.

  "For me it's my mom.. Always comparing me to my sister. I mean my parents are both closer to Violet which is just great for me.. Sometimes it just gets too overwhelming for me to handle. There have been days where I don't even want to go to class because of how drained I am, but when I look over at you and see that you're exhausted it some how makes me feel better.. like not because of how you feel but because at least I know there's someone who's going through the same thing and that I'm not alone." He shoots me a slight smile as we get lost into each others eyes.

"Ahem.."  I cleared my throat as I could feel myself leaning in closer to his face.

"Anyways..um.. yeah so when I went home all I got asked about were my grades.. it wasn't that fun of a weekend but I did enjoy it with Violet because she was the only person who didn't bring up anything school related."  I could feel his eyes on me as I spoke while leaning away from him.

  "Oh yeah.. Jaehyun doesn't compare much with me. We kind of just learnt to be there for each other now after we stopped being friends I didn't have anyone to go to besides Jimin and Jaehyun.." 

My heart starts pounding. The way he was slowly opening up to me made me fall deeper for him. Jeon Jungkook was actually being emotional with me. Quite a shocker especially since I'm so use to his bad boy side. He just looked so perfect in the moment that I wanted to lean over and place my lips onto his as we get lost in each others touch.

"Sometimes I feel a bit insecure about myself.."  He changes the topic to focus a bit more on the deeper stuff. My attention fully goes to him as he lets a deep breath out.

"Everyone thinks I'm so perfect. Perfect grades, perfect face, perfect body which I do not agree with, but I feel as if I can fulfill that part of me. I just want the approval of my dad.. It's always Jaehyun this, Jaehyun that. When will it be Jungkook this, Jungkook that. Can't he just feel proud of who I am right now."  His eyes had a touch of sadness which made my heart break a bit. "Am I enough? Sometimes I just wish I was better.." 

Well this took a huge turn. I place my arm around him giving some comfort. "Sometimes I feel insecure too.. I feel that it's this whole older sibling thing. My whole life I've been compared to my sister.. It does hurt, I agree. I don't feel perfect, but I want to be. Like you said.. perfect grades, perfect appearance. Something I could never feel satisfied with especially since I don't think any of that is true. Families can be tough. I want the approval of my mom, but it's never going to happen so I gave up... I can't believe how much this has affected me until now. I never realized that we both feel the same way.

  "Honestly since we stopped being friends my dad became a bit more tough me because of our grades. Since I wasn't friends with you, you were like a competitor of mine. Obviously I was blinded as a kid and grew up with that mind set." He moves away from my touch with a very small smile of his face.

"You know that day when we found out about our essay grades?"

   "Yeah.."

  "Well I wanted to tell you how proud I was of you. That's really good and I know you work really hard to achieve those grades. You shocked me there not gonna lie. I'll admit that I was a bit of a jerk that day. I didn't mean to leave you there as you were talking to me."  He clenches his jaw while playing with the grass.

   "It's okay.. We all have those days."  I play with the sleeve of my shirt. His fingers roam through the green grass before looking back over to me.

  "I told myself I wouldn't drink alcohol anymore but this tonight came and I totally forgot about that."  He changes the topic to lighten up the mood. I nod agreeing with him.

   "Me too Jungkook, me too. After this one day I drank so much I was like nope never again." I start making an X with my arms which made Jungkook laugh a bit more.

   "Mm.. tell me that story and I'll share mine."   All of sudden he became very interested with me. I get myself in a comfy pose as Jungkook turns his body to my all excited to hear.

  "Alright so basically on the day you left me alone, I went home right after to go say hi to everyone and well my parents planned to have a family dinner so literally everyone in my family came to visit since my sister and I were both home. Besides them asking about my grades and all my aunt Taeyeon and uncle Luke came to visit which you obviously know who they are."  He nods with his cute bunny smile on.

"So there was a lot of alcohol because people just kept bringing more and more. It was so loud and so crazy. I was having a pretty rough week with school and with myself so I thought hey maybe lets have some drinks to get things off my mind and distract myself. Well that was an awful idea. Holy shit I was so wasted. Anyways continuing on with the story and by the way everyone in my family asked about you. It was like you were the talk of the party. Okay continuing on-"

  "Oh? I was the talk of the party huh.."  He has a cocky smile which I lightly hit his face before continuing.

  "Yes okay so shush now. As I was saying I had one glass because I needed to get rid of those feelings and thoughts I had whenever they would mention yo- I mean to get rid of my family mentioning things I didn't want to talk about at all because I was there to have fun, not to compare."  I started talking faster and faster hoping Jungkook didn't catch the whole feelings part. He seemed to try to hide his smile as I continued talking.

"So later on Taeyeon comes into the kitchen and looks for me to only find me still drinking. What a shocker huh? Probably not. She starts asking me a bunch of questions to which I can remember some, but I will not share."  I let out a quick laugh with Jungkook.  "And then Violet comes into the room and let me just say.. After that I lost count. I do not know how many drinks I had. All I can recall back is me perhaps singing? Ah it's so embarrassing to think back to. I just felt like if I kept drinking and drinking all of my feelings and inner thoughts would disappear, but when I woke up they were still there with the awful headache!"  I smile widely at Jungkook and his smile still stayed the same throughout.

"Okay your turn."  I awkwardly laugh while hitting his knees. He snaps out of his thoughts with a quick chuckle. He slaps his hands together and starts moving to get comfortable.

   "Alright so something similar happened that night as well. My uncle Jun who you loved and adored as a kid came with a lot of alcohol and by a lot I mean like so many bottles of alcohol and so many cases of soju. I was living quite a life there. So besides all of the talking about grades and comparing me to my brother, you were also a bit of the talk."  I point to myself with sly smirk on.

  "What can I say? I must of been very memorable."  I playfully flip my hair away while pretending to act cute. He shakes his head with a laugh.

  "Well it was mainly just asking if we were still friends or if we were still competing against each other. Once everyone started arriving I actually ran away from the crowd and head to the kitchen for a glass of wine. Gosh I chugged that shit down. I also had a pretty rough week with everything. I couldn't think straight and my feelings for someone got out of place where I got lost.."

Feelings for someone? I slowly begin to feel a tight feeling in my chest, but I tried to let it go since I didn't know who this person was.

"Then my uncle Jun came in and was like what are you doing I'm pretty sure Hani is looking for you and all and I'm like I am not interested no thanks. Remember Hani? You two hated each other. I think someone was a bit jealous.."  He points his finger at me being poking my shoulder. I hit his finger away and denied everything.

"Next thing you know I was chugging soju down like it was nothing. Shot after shot. I really thought I killed my organs that night, but here I am still alive. I thought those feelings I had for this girl would of disappeared the next day, but it just got worse.. I actually had to talk to Jaehyun about it because I didn't know what to do which kind of made us argued for a bit but we eventually made up and I took his advice.." His eyes were now placed onto me as he slowly licks his lips. I look into his eyes, not knowing what to do next.. could this be it? Is this the right time..

"Anyways what were you saying about your feelings?" Oh fuck of course he had to bring it back up.

  "Uh well.. not much.. I mean the next day my feelings for this person didn't go away, it just got stronger so I also talked to Violet about it and well she basically ignored whatever I said for a few hours before we started talking about it. A bit too dramatic I thought.. but she told me I should tell the person how I feel even if they don't feel the same.."  I look back at Jungkook who kept his eyes on me this whole time.. I slowly move in towards his face placing my hands on the side to support my body. His hand slowly lands underneath my jaw caressing my cheek. It's happening. holy fucking shit it's happening. Jungkook and I were about to kiss...

His hand slid behind me, landing on my lower back -pulling my body so I was sitting on top of his lap. Our lips were inches apart as hair fell to the side of my face. Both his hands began to caress my body as our nose touch. I felt his hand come back my neck as he goes in for a kiss. It slow yet soft. His lips felt so smooth.. It slowly begins to heat up as he aggressively leans forwards causing my hands to wrap around his neck to stop myself from falling off. The kiss was passionate.. it sent an adrenaline rush through our bodies. His right arm begins to run up and down my thigh as he slowly lifts it up. The kiss felt so great. It was like we both were releasing the way we felt for each other. Not going to lie.. Jungkook was a really fucking good kisser like damn I could taste you all day if I had a choice. He knew exactly what to do with everything.. I mean he did have experience, but I'm not trying to think about that right now. I slowly remove my lips from his which he quickly looks back into my eyes, wondering if something had went wrong.

   "I really like you Jungkook. Wait fuck that.. I'm in love with you.."  His expression rapidly changes. "And you are enough! You're more than that.." He lifts me up so my legs were still wrapped around his waist. As my body was right against I could his heart rapidly beating against my own.

   "Let's go back to my place." He picks the blanket up as we hurriedly head over to his place. I just hope Jimin got the memo to not come tonight because I really think something special was going to happen tonight.

I quickly take my shoes off as Jungkook locks the door. His shirt was already off considering that I impatiently started to unbutton them on the way back. My heart beats like crazy at the sight of him coming towards me. He lifts me up into his arms as we make our way to his bed. I rip his shirt off as I comfortably sat on his lap. His lips quickly head to my neck, sucking on it as I let out quiet moans. My mind was everywhere. I couldn't even process what was happening. I let my body sink into his arms as he starts to take my top off. It lands on the ground on top of his. I lift his chin so I could look into his eyes.

  "I want you and I know you want me too..."  As those words left his lips I place mine back onto them. His lips taste sweet as I sucked onto them. I could feel his erection underneath me which made me slowly move my hips against him.

"You're all mine... all mine Clara.."  His hands naval to my bra, unhooking it with one hand. I thought to myself how impressive.. as he managed to get them off. He impatiently starts to put my nipple into his mouth. He was really turned on at this point and no lie but I was too. His other hands managed to get a hold of the other side, rubbing it into circular motions with his thumb.

    "Mmm Jungkook.."  I moan loudly as his hands were now as the hem of my jeans. His erection grew bigger and bigger and we stare into each others eyes.

"Let me.." I slowly got off his laps and went to my knees. He swallows hard as I was now in control. I unbuckle his jeans while sliding it off with his boxer briefs. It springs upwards, hitting his stomach. I place his erection in my hands as I slowly began pumping up and down. I slowly start to in take him into my mouth. My tongue runs up and down him while his hands were placed on the top of my head. I start bobbing up and down with his help. He bites his lips while letting low moans out.

   "Fuck Clara... that feels so good. F-Faster."  His head hangs back as his mouth was wide open. His hips begin to thrust against my mouth as I repeatedly bobbed my head. Within an amount of time I could feel him slowly cumming at the back of my throat. I get up back to face him as I start undoing my pants. They slip off revealing the black laced underwear I wore from that night. He starts to mumble some thing under his breath before pulling me down onto the bed.

"Are you sure..."  His body was now on top of mine as the atmosphere thickens between us. I run my hands down his body nodding as I got lower and lower. His hands trailed to my clit, rubbing it vigorously as loud moans start to leave my lips.

  "J-Jungkook.. mm that feels so good."  I wrap my hands around him as he slips off my underwear. At this moment I was so impatient with him I just wanted him inside of me now. I kiss him again but this time it was more rough. I felt so vulnerable that night and I'm sure he did as well. Before entering he starts marking parts of my body as I harshly bite down onto my bottom lip. Once he finished I felt him slowly thrust his cock into me. We let out a loud moan together as I felt a wave of sensation go through my body.

   "You're so tight.."  He moans deeply into my ears as he begins to move against me. His hands caressed every part of my body as the room filled with our loud moans. His thrust weren't too harsh, but very strong motions. He hit every spot perfectly..

  "Mmm.. Jungkook.. faster.." I could feel myself going crazy for him. I wanted more and more. My lips trail to his neck sucking harshly with each thrust made by him. It felt so good I didn't want to stop. The way his hands would hold my legs up to let him go deeper in made my mind go insane for him.

The way his body moved on top of mine made me go crazy for him. It doesn't take us very long until we both reached our high points. My nails dig into his back as he became a bit more rough near the end. I could feel his liquid slowly drip near my lower thigh as his chest moves up and down while he heavily breathes. I hold his head near my neck as his sweat hits my chest.

   "Clara.." Hearing his soft voice call of my name make me feel so relaxed in his embrace.

"I love you."

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A/N: this was my longest chapter I have ever written. (I think) I hope the 'scene' wasn't too cringe like my old ones haha. I hope you enjoy this chapter because I had quite a bit of fun writing it!