After we hugged, we talked for a bit and relaxed before Craig went to bed. I stayed downstairs, simply sipping a coffee and looking out the window.

It was weird.

Finally, I had (sort of) fixed the weird year between us so we could be friends again, but I didn't want to be friends.

I still wanted to be... more.

I still want to be something more.

I don't know what I want to be. What I want us to be... boyfriends, dating, friends with benefits, lovers... I don't know.

However, it doesn't really matter what I want us to be because Craig feels differently.

Besides, there are a least two very important reasons I shouldn't even bother trying to date him or whatever right now: 1) He just broke up with his girlfriend, and 2) He does not feel the same way about us as I do.

So, even if I want to be something with him, I will have to wait a while before I can even do anything about it.

I guess that's just my bad timing. It's always a terrible mix of my bad timing and my horrible, awful bad luck.

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The next day went by fairly uneventful. Craig and I both had to go to work, so we didn't really see each other in the morning or throughout most of the afternoon.

Karen and I worked together today, quite happily. She read her random Buzzfeed quizzes aloud to me so I could take them with her, and we had a good day.

However, she left before third shift (as she usually does) and I was left manning the store alone.

I didn't bother cleaning because no one had come in since Karen and I had cleaned it all earlier, before she went home.

So, I sat at the counter doodling with a pen on some napkins. It wasn't really working, because sometimes I would twitch and rip the pen straight through the thin paper napkin.

Then, I went home. I may have locked up a tab bit early, but there was no one there and I was getting bored of tearing up napkins with a pen.

I walked home and surprisingly arrived home before Craig there.

I went up to my room and sat down on my bed. It had been a really long time since I had tried to sleep in my own bed... and I was really tired now that I was thinking about it.

Maybe I'll take a quick nap and I'll feel better.