I realized I never went way into depth with Ethan's life and what he does and everything (⬅ that probably didn't make much sense but I'mma just do the day in the life of Ethan for this chapter because I mainly talked about his past)

Ethan

Once I got home Tyler was being pretty annoying. He was asking about what I did at (Y/N)'s place. I had to confirm I only helped her unpack. He said we'd be a cute couple but I'm just confused about what to do...

I feel like in life I have no goals or anything. Just doing the same thing forever. Maybe because I don't go out a lot by myself. Maybe because I'm scared of this cruel judging world.

The world slowed down for a minute... And that's when everything went down hill...

I closed my eyes hard wishing the moment would end, but it got worse.

~Flashback (mary)~

(Tw: rape)

I felt his hand it was tightly grasping around my wrist. He yelled at me... I wanted everything to stop.

He hurt me saying I was worthless and idiotic... He pulled me around and he'd hit me...

One day he took me behind the school during class... Nobody ways there and theres no cameras...

So he looks at me harshly... Forces me to do something I'd never forget...

He forced me to date him but not only that but he... Forced me to take my clothes off and let him control me... He raped me... He took advantage of me... And I let him....

~End flash back~

I was weak enough to let it happen. I was stupid enough to let him hurt me. I was vulnerable enough to let him in...

I was just pretty mad at myself...

And when I'm mpp

Mad evë46ythīñg g3ts wørße

Go away

Nø yøü cåñ't tell mé 2hāt tõ do

3rd person pov

Ethan was in his room his mind giving him a hard time. He was broken. But it was something people forget...

This marks the day Ethan - øk I gët it nõ spøilers øn whåt happens ñëxxt.

Ethan was alone. Mark went out... Tyler was in Ohio for Christmas...

Being alone was a bad thing... It was both unsettling and.... well horrible for him...

Ethan wanted everything to stop. The world was spinning and thoughts kept coming...

⚠Trigger warning ⚠

He knew one thing... He didn't want to go... He just needed a distraction. He rushed to his drawer grabbing something he never thought he'd use.

He almost forgot how much he needed this. How much he craved that sensation...

He pulled his sleeves up and pushed the razor onto his skin, he cut.

He cried in pain. It was something he wasn't used to. But he kept going. He made another cut. This one deeper. Ethan cried in pain louder his sobs becoming something unimaginable and hurtful. But he still continued.

Ethan heard foot steps rushing up here. He didn't care if Mark saw him on his bed with  nasty cuts on his wrist.

Mark came into the room. He didn't know how to respond to Ethan's state. But what he did was imediately get bandages and stuff to clean it out. Mark came back quickly and helped Ethan.

He didn't bombard Ethan with questions. But he only had one in his mind. Even then he knew better than to ask. So he didn't.

Mark knew all Ethan needed was comfort... That's the least he could do... So once he finished cleaning up Ethan's arm he sat by his friend only asking one thing...

"Do you need anything...?" It sounded more like a question then it should've.

Ethan shook his head. Mark knew he had to be there for his friend. So that's what he did. He stayed with him. He let his friend cry on his shoulder. He could care less. The only thing he wanted was for him to be okay.