Ok so here is probably the most unpopular thing I will say ever.....

Be prepared

2020 wasg a great year for me. Heck it is probably one of the best so far.

Now don't get me wrong, horrible and terrible things happened this year. WW3 and Covid are just a few.

But for me personally, it was a great year. Let me explain why:

Anything prior to 2020, like 2019 and 2018, where fudging awful to me. My mental state was trash, I barely talked, and me and my friends where slowly drifting apart.

Sure, there where great things, like in 2018 I discovered my love for theater but even then I was never fully accenting it. My family always thinks obsessing over things is weird. So I never did. And whenever I got into a fandom and my parents found out, I got in trouble.

And also prior to 2020, I never really felt happy like I do know. Like if we go an vacation or an a field trip in school I would feel happy but it'll only last for as long as it happened. After it ends, I go back to feeling bland.

In 2020, thanks to quarantine, my mental state increased by like 10000% I started to accept the things that I like and I have started to accept myself for who I am

Not only that but in 2019, I had a MASSIVE character development.

Oh god- this was me in 2019

Supporting straight pride

Kinda anti BLM, I felt it was overrated

Kinda supported tr*mp

God I want to throw up ;-; Even if I supported those things for a few days, then stopped caring about them, I am ashamed at myself. I barely even knew anything about these things. I was SOOOO uneducated about these topics.

Luckily now I am

Supports LGBTQ+ and anti-straight pride

Fully BLM

Kinda wants to punch tr*mp in the face 96,000 times (Future me here!! I wrote this part before I discovered In The Heights. I accidentally made an ITH reference without even knowing what it was lol)

I also speak up for the things I believe in now! (LGBTQ+, and BLM)

So yeah a lot of character growth! :DDD And I am better educated on those topics!

So character development is huge

I also have gotten better at drawing and writing. I feel way more confident in those things.

And as much as I bash down my parents. I have to admit that they love me. I know they would do anything and everything for me. They just refuse to acknowledge their mistakes. And although that is toxic, the good outweighs the bad.

And they have been getting better! I am able to be a bit more open to them about the things I like. Not the fandom part but it's better than nothing

Honestly, the worst part about 2020 for me was that I keep on seeing other people suffering and having the absolute worst year of their life. And I feel guilty that I am doing better than ever.

Also if you are someone in which 2020 is the worst year for you, don't feel guilty that you are making me feel guilty. Everyone has their highs and lows. And I understand, that this was a rough year for everyone, so I don't blame you for feeling that way.

I feel guilty that you guys are going through this and I don't know how to fix everything. Not because you guys are complaining and bringing my mood down. Trust me, I won't complain about anyone doing anything like that. Sometimes, we all just need to vent about things. Wether that be often or not. I won't complain.

So yeah, I don't know how to end this but here, have these meme to make your day just a bit better-

Hopefully, next year would be better for you!!!!