kinda angsty be careful

Thoughts. Hundreds of thousands thoughts were swirling around him, making his breathing grow heavy and his heart to pump faster.
James hated every second of it.
Anxious thoughts filled his head as he desperately tried to regulate his breathing, coughing and wheezing as tears started flood down his face.
He jolted so hard he nearly fell off the bed when the door suddenly slamed open, and Thomas walked in.
"Yo, Jimmy James, when did we- " Thomas stopped in his tracks, eyes going wide at his boyfriend's tears.
"James- oh my god, are you okay?" He asked quickly, rushing over to the others side. James sniffled and pulled his knees close to his chest, seemingly trying to curl in on himself.  Thomas gathered the smaller man in his arms, running his fingers through James's short hair soothingly, whispering sweet nothings into his ear.
"Baby, whats wrong?" Thomas whispered, pressing soft kisses on James's neck that James leaned into. He took a shaky breath, trying to gather himself.
"I was just.. thinking." His voice broke halfway through the sentance, as he stiffled another sob. Thomas wiped a tear off the others cheek.
"You can tell me, darlin. Its okay. We're okay." He whispered.
James took a deep breath. "I was thinking about how much better looking you are than me, and how I'm just weighing you down." He said quickly, his voice barely above a whisper. He didn't make eye contact with the other. James started getting nervous by the silence, before he was suddenly pulled into kiss.
Shocked, James nearly pulled away, but eventually melted into the touch.
After a moment, Thomas pulled back and touched forheads with James.
"Honey, I love you with all my heart. You don't weigh me down, you lift me up. I'd be nothing without you." He whispered. James blushed, looking down and smiling a bit. Thomas grinned and pecked him again on the lips.
"You're perfect."
James huffed.
"No ones perfect."
Thomas shrugged.
"Well, you're abnormal then." He smirked as James flushed and glared at him. After a couple minutes of staring into each others eyes, James started to stand up.
"I have homework."
"Um, no." Thomas stated as he stood and swiftly picked James up bridal style.
"Thomas!" James giggled.
"No homework. It can wait." Thomas stated and walked into their room, James giggling and squirming in his grip.
James didn't get a lot done that night.

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