I wanna sleep next to you

But that's all I wanna do right now

And I wanna come home to you

But home is just a room full of my safest sounds

Cause you know that I can't trust myself with my 3AM shadow

I'd rather fuel a fantasy than deal with this alone

I wanna sleep next to you

But that's all I wanna do right now

So come over now and talk me down

I wanna hold hands with you

But that's all I wanna do right now

1st Person

The Walking Dead was probably the best video game series to me. I decided to spend my day watching play-throughs of it. I found a channel called CrankGameplays so I decided to watch that. He was really funny and I decided to watch his other videos, then decided to subscribe and follow him on social media. He and I had some pretty similar content.

I decided to message him on Twitter. But I saw that he already followed me. I started to get excited.

SierrasGames: Thank you so much for following me! I found your channel yesterday and you're really funny :)

CrankGameplays: No problem! You're funny, too!

SierrasGames: You've watched my videos?

CrankGameplays: Yeah, I actually have for a while. I actually got pretty excited when you followed me.

SierrasGames: Oh, thanks! Maybe we could do a collab sometime?

CrankGameplays: That could be fun! What would we play?

SierrasGames: Maybe we could play a G-Mod map? Like Prop Hunt?

CrankGameplays: Prop Hunt sounds good. It'd be cool to do a video with someone as pretty as you :)

"Did he just flirt with me?" I asked, whether it was to myself or to my dog, Sammi. "I mean, he is pretty cute... Should I flirt back, boy?" I scratched the German Shepherd puppy's head, while he tried to reach up and lick my arm.

SierrasGames: Aw thanks. You're pretty cute too ;)

"Well maybe the winky face was too much..." I groaned.

"Sierra, it's time for dinner!" my mom called up to me.

SierrasGames: Heyyy I gotta go, but once I'm done eating I'll message you again, k?

CrankGameplays: Sounds good. Talk to you later!

Throughout dinner, I thought about Ethan. My parents asked me how my senior year of high school was going. It was decent; I had friends and good grades. But there was also the people that didn't like me, of course. But I was fine with it. Not everyone is gonna like you.

When we finished eating, I went back up to my room to get on Twitter and talk to Ethan, Sammi following me.

SierrasGames: Ayyyy I'm back

He responded pretty quickly. "Was he waiting for me?"

CrankGameplays: Hey :)

SierrasGames: So if you wanna hmu on G-Mod, my username on there is the same as my regular.

CrankGameplays: Cool, mine's the same, too

We stayed up talking for a while, though he logged off at about 9 p.m. I remembered that he lived across the country from me. I lived in Los Angeles while he lived in Maine. It was midnight where he lived.

~

We had been friends for a few weeks; we talked about every day.

CrankGameplays: Hey, can I ask you something?

SierrasGames: Sure thang

CrankGameplays: Are you dating anyone?

SierrasGames: No, why?

CrankGameplays: Ikindasortahaveacrushonyou

I examined the one big word closely to see what it said. "Oh," I said. "Oh!" I suddenly realized what he said. "He likes me? I should probably tell him about my feelings..."

SierrasGames: I like you, too :)

SierrasGames: But I'm worried... If we do start dating... We live across the country from each other... We wouldn't ever be able to see each other :(

CrankGameplays: You make a good point, but I think we could make it work

CrankGameplays: So, Sierra Beatty... Will you be my internet girlfriend?

CrankGameplays: That probably sounds weird I'm sorry I was trying to be romantic

I thought about it. I really liked him, but dating someone I met a few weeks ago over YouTube? "Eh, what the hell?" I shrugged.

SierrasGames: Sure :)

CrankGameplays: Really? Yay! I mean, uh, cool.

SierrasGames: Lol. Well I should get off and do homework, but if you wanna talk face-to-face-ish, my skype is SierraMGLBeatty

CrankGameplays: Cool. Talk to you later/tomorrow?

SierrasGames: Definitely!

~

Ethan and I had been dating in secret for almost two years. The only people that knew were my best friends, Cara, Mark, Tyler, Kathryn, and Amy, and some of Ethan's friends such as OGchan and Girbeagly. I had known Cara basically all my life. I met Mark, Tyler, Kathryn, and Amy through Ethan, technically, since he edits a lot of Mark's videos. I had known them for a few months, but they treated me like we'd known each other for longer than that. As for OGchan and Girbeagly, I'd never talked to them, but I heard a lot about them.

I was sitting in my room on my computer, when I got a skype call from Ethan. I answered it and smiled.

"Hey, Ethan," I said. "How are you?"

"I'm doing great! I have something really exciting to tell you. You know how I'm Mark's editor?" he asked and I nodded in response. "Well, he invited me to move out there and make videos with him!"

I almost started to cry. My boyfriend was finally gonna be able to live on my side of the country. "Really?"

"Yeah!"

"Oh my gosh! I'm so happy! We finally get to meet each other!"

We spent the day talking about what we would do when he got here the next month. I was ecstatic.

~

Mark and Tyler were awesome enough to invite me to the airport so we could pick up Ethan. They knew how excited I was to finally be able to touch him. The entire ride, I was smiling uncontrollably; the boys noticed and teased me about it a little bit, but they understood why I was so happy.

I knew I couldn't tell my parents that I was going to meet my internet boyfriend of about two years; they would kill me. I simply told them that my best friends were picking up one of their good friends at the airport and they wanted me to meet him.

We finally arrived at the gate that Ethan would be at. I waited impatiently. But then, I saw the angel with blue hair. I almost began to cry. He was real and he was only a few feet away from me. He looked around until he saw us. As soon as he saw me, he ran towards us with his suitcase and backpack. When we were close enough, he let go of his suitcase and engulfed he in an embrace. At that moment, I started crying, and his eyes began to water.

"I've waited so long for this," he said quietly, his words making me smile into his chest.

"Me too," I said. Still hugging him, I pulled myself away from his chest and looked into his beautiful green eyes before kissing him. Our first kiss. It was fantastic. Mark cleared his throat, probably to prevent us from making out in the middle of the airport.

As the four of us walked to Mark's car, I held Ethan's hand. We sat in the backseat cuddling, while Mark drove and Tyler rode shotgun. Both Ethan and I's phones went off at almost the same time. I pulled my phone out to see that Tyler had sent us a photo of us kissing. I blushed, but set it as my phone background so I could remembering one of the best days of my life whenever I turned on my phone.

~

"What the hell were you thinking? Dating someone you met on the internet? What if they were some creepy stalker?" my mom yelled at me. "Also, you lied to us about sleeping over at your friend's house to spend the night with him! Who do you think you are?"

She found out. I don't know how, but she found out that Ethan and I were together way before we actually met. She also found out that I had spent the night with Ethan in a hotel for our two year anniversary, so we could spend it alone together. She put that together when she took my phone and read the texts between Ethan and I before I left for the hotel.

"Why does it matter so much? We met when I was 18, I was technically an adult! I could handle myself and I still can! I'm not a little kid anymore!"

"What would you have done if he wasn't who he said he was?" my dad shouted. "How much did you tell him about yourself? You're friend is out of town! We called her to ask you where you were since you weren't answering your phone. She told us you weren't there."

"Just the things my fans know! How come this is so different? I can take care of myself! It's your fault for keeping me locked up here until I was good enough for you! I'm 20 years old, for God's sake!" Then my mom slapped me. Hard.

"Get out of our house," my mom growled. "And take your stupid dog with you! You're on your own like you always wanted. Take what you have in that backpack and leave, since you've gotten so much money from YouTube that you can fend for yourself."

My tears running down my face, I said, "You guys never loved me." I grabbed my backpack from the counter and grabbed Sammi's leash. He was only two.

"Never come back," my dad said.

Sammi and I walked into the rain. Where was I supposed to go? Cara was out of town- but there was another option. Mark, Tyler, and Ethan didn't live too far from me. We began to walk to their neighborhood, that was only a few blocks away. I'm not sure if the wetness on my face was from the rain or my tears. It took a while- I'm not sure how long- but I finally got there. With shaky hands, I raised my hand up to the doorbell and pressed on it.

Mark opened the door, but when he saw my soaked hair and my shaking puppy, he gasped slightly. He let me in and asked Tyler to get some towels. When the towels were given to him, Mark set one on the couch for me to sit on, gave my one two dry myself with, and one to put around my shoulders. He also began to dry Sammi off; Chica was excited to see him. Ethan came into the living room, but his face dropped when he was the condition I was in.

"Sierra?! What happened?!" Ethan asked me in panic. The boys sat on the couch with me, listening.

"Th-they found out that Ethan and I met online, and that we snuck off to the hotel. They're really strict about things like that. I don't even get it! They make me live with them until they think I'm 'ready' to move out, and then they kick me out! I'm 20 years old and they don't understand I'm not a kid anymore."

Ethan pulled me closer to him, not caring that I was still soaking wet.

"Why don't you stay with us for a while?" Mark asked.

"Really?" I asked. I knew Mark. He was absolutely kind enough to give me and Sammi a home, no doubt about it. But I still couldn't believe it. People really did care about me.

"Yeah! You know we care about you, Sierra. We'd love to have you move in with us. And Chica and Sammi can play together," he said as he lightly scratched Sammi's head.

"Thank you so much, Mark. You guys are the best," I smiled at all three of them and leaned closer to Ethan. "I guess tomorrow I can sneak back and take the stuff I need while my parents are at work."

"I'll go with you," Ethan said.

"Thank you. I love you, guys."

A/N OK SO TO THOSE OF YOU WHO READ IT BEFORE IT WAS EDITED, I DELETED THE SMUT. The reason behind that is that Ethan said he was uncomfortable with smut about him, and I want to respect that, so I deleted that part. Other than that, I only did some minor editing! Hope you enjoyed it :) - Izzy