Pain, loneliness, anger. I always feel this way. I want to be young again to be a kid to not hear a thing but my music. I only feel comfort in it. I don't feel loved that much and everything's a mess. They say that I have to grow up that I'm their only hope for a future but I'm hurting. I grew up in distance from the world so I don't no how to interact with it. I grew up always here fights between the ones that I call my family. I always end up angry at people for the slightest things cause I can't accept it, but I know it is true. I wish sometimes time would stop or reset to a time I can really be happy to a time were I feel that I was truly loved but yet I'm drowning myself wondering was this life worth it would it be better if I were to disappear and die. I think sometimes that that's the answer so I have a question if you are willing to lend an ear was I really meant to be here.