She sits up high, surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
"Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I've been up here so long I'm going crazy!"

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

Now don't be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
"Big deal," she said, "I guess you're official."
I only said it 'cause I know what it's like to feel burned out

It gets you down,
We've all been there sometimes
But tonight I'll make you feel beautiful once again

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

If I were you I'd put that away
See, you're just wasted
And thinking 'bout the past again
Darling, you'll be okay

And she said,

[Lindsey:]
"If you were me, you'd do the same
'Cause I can't take anymore
I'll draw the shades and close the door
Everything's not alright and I would rather..."

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
Tell me where did it go?
"I'm okay. It's all right."
I'm not okay. It hurts. But I feel numb at the same time. I don't know how to explain this feeling.

"Don't worry." No one cares. I wish someone would worry.
"I'm fine." I thought everyone knew what that meant? Maybe they do. Maybe they just don't care enough to say anything.
Currently I'm talking to myself in my room. Drowning myself in words.
"Your useless. Nobody likes you. I'm done with being optimistic." But I always act fine anyways. I laugh. I make people laugh. I make people happy. Sometimes at my own expense. I don't know why. I don't know why. I clutch my head and curl in a ball on my bed. I turn music on and give into the numbness.
~*~
I walk through the school halls, expressionless. I already want the day to be over and it's first period. When I get to class, I sit next to my "friend" Eli. Eli is already talking to Lacey, laughing happily. I try to say something but receive a short response. I'm already being ignored. I open a notebook and start drawing. It's a girl running. (Comic style.) Something I do everyday. But not from the right things. The girl is crying. The background is pouring rain over her, soaking her. Blood is leaking through her clothes, started at her chest. She's wearing black leggings and a baggy short sleeve gray shirt. I quickly get caught up in every detail of my drawing. I feel a tap on my back. Slowly, I turn around.
"Hey that drawing is really good. " An unfamiliar face states. It's a boy, presumably new, he has dirty blond side swept hair, light blue eyes, and freckles. "Albeit a bit dark, but whatever floats your boat." I pause in awe. An adorable boy is talking to me and he said something dorky like that. I start laughing. "What?" The boy asks looking confused.
"What you just said- it made my day." I'm grinning from ear to ear now. He starts laughing too. This time it's my turn to be confused.
"You look like the Cheshire Cat!"
"And you look like freckles." We both stare at each other seriously for a second. Then we start laughing again. We are both left gasping for air. Suddenly I present him with my hand. "I'm Alice. Nice to meetcha." He takes my hand shaking it comically. Keeping a firm grip on my hand, he responds.
"I'm Riley. Nice to meet you too, Alice Liddell." We both smile as he sits next to me. At the end of the day, I realized I was the happiest today with Riley then I have been for a while.
~*~
No one cares. That's why you feel abandoned. It's all your fault. Your stupid personality. Why am I like this. Why-
"Cheshire Cat!!!" I turn at a familiar voice accompanied by a poke. Riley is practically beaming. I raise an eyebrow and fake smile a little.
"Aren't you proud of yourself. You came up with another nickname. I would say it fits me. " And my walls go up. Riley starts frowning while my expression remains the same.
"Why are you fake smiling?" My expression reverts back to a blank one. "And you sound so bitter..." I blink. "Are you okay?" I'm shocked. My eyes widen and my eyebrows raise.
"I'm fine. " Riley seems disappointed.
"Oh. " His response is short but packed with meaning. Then he takes my arm and exits the classroom. I follow in confusion. I'm shoved into a janitors closet. Riley closes and locks the door clumsily. He pins me to a wall, a different look than usual in his eyes. His face comes closer and he whispers in my ear. "Then I'll make it all better. Just hold on till may." Then he kisses me.