"What's it you want to meet me?"

I ask Daniel to come and meet me at the cafe near his house.
I can't... I just can't leave him like that.
I know this is wrong but.... I need to know if something is wrong with him.

Because Sehun really is hiding something from me. So is baekhyun too.

"Is he... okay?"

"You could just ask that over the phone. You didn't need to ask me to come here Huh. Troublesome"

"Is he okay? Does he vomit again?"

"No. What exactly did he eat?"

"Spicy chicken stew"

"Eh? He ate things like that?"

"He really did eat well. I was surprised too"

"Did he eat a lot?"

"Imm... like everything"

"May be because he haven't eaten well in a while and had spicy things so... his stomach gone bad I think"

"You think? Daniel... something is happening with him? Sehun won't tell me and he won't too"

"Don't you think it's because they don't want you to know? Why are you trying to sneaking out information from me?"

"I'm .... worried"

"Chanyeol ya... what if, what if the person you love disappear from this world one day? How will you feel? Will you feel sad? Or regret?"

"The person I love, once already disappeared"

"It was disappearing in a way, where you could meet in the streets again. What I meant is.... what if that person.... dies"

"Daniel!"

"You are very lucky huh. Even after losing one great lover, another one who would love every piece of you appear again, the actor Do Kyungsoo.....

Don't worry, I'm not trying or forcing any bad thing on Baek too. He comes to me because he wants to and... I am staying beside him because I wants to too"

"Why? Why not Sehun and ... why does he choose you?"

"Who knows. But! Park chanyeol .... don't trust Sehun. He would say to everyone that he and Baek are still together but.... everything ended between them a long time ago."

"You are confusing me"

"That's what Baek is. Why is he still concerning you? You have another perfect lover anyway"

"I wonder myself too."

"Sit back and... relax Park Chanyeol."

"Should I worry about B?"

"Why don't you try to worry about your current lover more? You sure moved on quite fast Huh. Someone who claimed to fall in love very deeply with Baek. Both you and Oh Sehun"

"......." I can't even ... say anything.

"I have to go back now. He might look for me when he wakes up"

"Okay. Take care of him.."

"I always do" he says and left ...

Guilt...
very... guilty....

*Dial*

K - Aw.. chanyeol ya.. did you get back home well?

C - ............

K - chanyeol ya? Are you listening?

C - I'm... sorry

K - hmm? Chanyeol?

C - I'm sorry sunbae.... I'm very sorry.... I'm... sorry...

K - Did you... meet with him?

C - imm.... 

K - it's okay, chanyeol ya... we even started as no feeling involve relationship. I understand it's hard for you. So, let's take time together. Hmm?

C - I'm sorry...

K - stop saying that... I know you are too good to me. I wish I could come to you now but, I have schedule later on. I will call you when I finish my schedule. Get so rest hmm?

C - imm.... take care ..

K - You too. See you

C - see you.

It's always a problem when.... sunbae... you are too understanding me...
it's starting to make me feel very.... Guilty.

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Baekhyun's POV

"Where were you?" I ask him since he seems to be coming back from somewhere

"Aw... mart"

"Didn't get anything?"

"Aww... I forgot what I was going to buy... how are you feeling? Did you vomit again?"

"No... I'm fine. Come here" I call him to the couch..

As he sits down beside me... I hug him

I cling my arms around his neck and bury my face in his neck

"I want it"

"Hmm? What do you want to eat? Or drink" he asks

"No..." I get into his laps facing him ... "Sex.... I want to do."

"What?! No.... let me make you some warm tea"

"Daniel... please..." I say and take out my shirt... "let's do it"

"No......no..."

"Why? You don't... like my body anymore?"

"Look... Baek... you are the most attractive..prettiest.. most sexiest person .. even more than women that I met... but... right now, I can't... doctor said to restrain sexual interaction"

"But..."

"Come" he hugs me "you will catch cold again"

"You really did become so soft... why did you change so much?"

"I don't want you to get hurt anymore. I don't want to see you in pain"

Pain .... huh....
Living knowing I have this .... disease is... a pain.
No matter which stage I'm in.
I just couldn't lift my soul up while seeing the person I really love is with another one.

I didn't want to come back.
Or may be I wanted to.
May be I wanted to see him.
May be I wanted to run into his arms.

That's why I lied and ... ate lunch with him earlier.
Even tho those foods are bad for me.

I wonder those arms will still be so warm.

He won't be happy if he's with me.
Me with this... pain...

He's better without me.
Yes... this is better.

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