What have I done?
What the fuck happened really?
I wasn't even drunk and why did I .... tortured sunbae?
Oh my fucking god

It would be bad if I go back now right?

"You are not planning to go back right?" Kyungsoo comes out of his room

"Ah... no...... sunbae"

"If you are planning to say sorry.. don't"

"But... I'm really sorry"

"Boya.. that makes me feel worse" he says

I give him a cup of water ...

"Were you drunk with anger?" He asks

"Was it obvious?"

"Haha.... it was clear written on your face"

"Sunbae "

"If this wasn't intentional.... let's do properly next time... next time... I hope you will do with affection and not anger"

"Imm... I'm sorry"

"Haha.. stop making that face and..."

I pull and hug him....

"Kyungsoo ya... I'm going to love you. Please... let me love you."

"Eh.... chanyeol ya... we agreed not to like...emotionally attach to each other. I mean.. it's okay. You don't need to feel this bad for what you did... haha.. we are both men. I understand you"

"No... let me... let me love you"

"Ch..."

"Let me fall for you"

Let me just.. I want to start new again...
I am also... suffocating to suffer from this.... this past.

Sunbae is a very good guy.
I can fall in love with him.

And... I need to come clean with .... B ... right?

.....................................

After coming back from kyungsoo sunbae's place... I called Sehun to meet up.

And...sunbae said he will think about it.
Since he never really plans to get into relationship. And... that his intentions were purely just wanting to help me. And that...

He... really likes me as his hoobae.
But... I want to take another step closer to him. Treat him better and take care of him.

I need to make up my mind.. it's true that... a lot of time had passed by.
Clinging on the past won't be helped. Either.. no.. for all of us.

Sehun is a very reliable guy... I believe him. That he will be with B.

"Aww.. did you wait long?" Sehun says as he finally arrives at the cafe

"No... I just.. arrived a few minutes ago"

"Imm... what's it you want to say?"

"Sehun ya... I... I'm moving on. I really decided to move on"

"....... that's... great. That really helps for ...all of us right?"

"Imm. That's what I thought."

"Good luck chanyeol ya. When your mind and heart are okay... we can be like usual again"

"Help me for one last time Sehun ya"

"Help... you... what?"

"For one last time... please let me meet him."

"Chanyeol ya.."

"Please Sehun ya... I'm begging you. I won't play any tricks.. just ... one last time..."

"A.... eh.... wait... I will have a call" he says and steps out of the cafe

I hope... I can meet him.
I want to stop living this dramatic life.

Sehun comes in again and...

"Let's go" he says

"Go? Where?"

"You said you want to meet him? Let's go"

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Baekhyun's POV

Sehun said he is going to bring chanyeol over to my house... since he said he has something to say

I look around my house and... I hope all medicines are kept in the the room

Do I look okay?
I don't look very sick right?
Thanks god I'm feeling quite well today.

What's it chanyeol going to say? And to see Sehun agreed... probably about...

They finally arrive.

"Aw... welcome" I say

He looks around the house... my new house.

"I will wait in the room." Sehun excuses himself

"Take a seat" I say

He sits down and.... "this house is very big... bigger than last one"

"Is that so? My grandmom chose so.. I didn't get a choice to"

"But... it's great. Not too stuffy and dark as the last one"

"I know right. How about you? Where are you living?"

"I'm currently at ****** Serviced Condo"

"Wow.. I heard that's very nice one"

"Is that so?"

"It's great... so.... what brings you here?"i ask

"First... I want to apologise for yesterday. I never planned to force onto you when I meet you again. But I ended up doing that"

"It's okay"

"I have preparing myself for past two years to like... to face you without any feelings. And what we had were already over... right?"

"Imm..." I get his point but... he keeps shuttering....

"I think... I can finally let go of you"

"Is that so? That's nice" I say and smile.... get over ... huh

"I always want to say 'thank you' to you."

"You don't need to... I had done nothing good to you"

"Because of Delight... because of you... I got onto the right path.. that's why... whenever we meet again... I decided to say thank you to you without those unwanted feelings"

"I thank to you too"

"Imm. We all need to focus on our own lives right? Our career, our family, our ... new love"

"Imm.... that's right".

"I will be good to my new lover... you know... that actor right?"

"I know. Do kyungsoo."

"Imm.. I will treat him really well. That's why... please be happy with whoever you are ... B ssi"

"I'm .... happy"

"And please take care of yourself... eat well. Sleep well.. don't just drink alcohol and smoke"

"Imm..."

"I shouldn't stay too long right? I will go now. Please say hello and be friendly to me if we meet out there"

"I will"

"I will go back now. Take care" he says and hand out his hand... for a handshake...

I stare at his hand for ... a few second...

"Imm..you too" I hold his hand for handshake...

Should I be happy for him?
All I can do right now is...

We let go of our hands.... and he left.

He ... left.

"He left?" Sehun comes out of the room

"He left....... Sehun ya.... he left.... he.."

"Hyung.... this is good... now, you need to focus on getting better. You have to be strong ."

"May be.... nothing matter anymore right? He's already good in his own"

"Hyung!"

"Just promise me... no matter which stage I'm in with this health... you will never tell him. Never"

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