Everything is back to the usual...
Me, my lonely house, my craps that I'm making, these bottles of alcohols

I wake up today too with finding myself on couch... So, this is loneliness ... huh

I don't even know when was the last meal I ate.
I feel like throwing up now.

"Hyung? Awake?"

Ah... right. Everything back to usual include.... Sehun too.

He's back to my house as Usual. Staying as how he was.. and how he always is

"Are you feeling well? Should I buy you some food?" He says as his hand reaches to my face but... I slap his hand off

"Go back" I say and go into my room

Chanyeol might... hate me now
After leaving alone and ignoring all this texts.

My team says he's doing well, and currently in Spain for shooting K-drama.
That's nice of him and how he works hard.

"Hyung.." it's Sehun again.

I can't really like ... go back to how things were yet.
And I don't really want to talk with Him too.

"Get up hyung. Seems like you must eat something" he says "Hyung? Hyung.. come"

"Can't you just! *sigh* leave me alone?"

"Hyung. Get yourself together and accept that it's me who's beside you"

"Sehun ya... I have no energy to argue. Just go and do what you have to"

"I don't have currently"

"Then I will ask management team to give you some projects"

"Hyung!"

"Go"

"Do you like him? That much?"

"Sehun... stop"

Aish... I feel dizzy and... about to throw up.

"Answer me hyung... do you..."

"Awwhhhhhh!!" I close my mouth and run into toilet

"Hyung!!" Sehun comes and pat my back "are you okay? Let's go to hospital..."

"No.... Awhhhhhh"

This feels... horrible
My stomach hurts too.

.........................................

Just like that I got to hospital
Now that situation is worse
I can't even work now
For some reason, I want to see him
Sehun is beside me but the place inside me is yearning for .... his presence

"I let your grandma know and she said she will come tomorrow since she's in Busan" Sehun says

"Why did you tell her? She doesn't need to."

"But .."

"And you don't need to stay here too"

"Take a rest. I'll be here" he says

He's.... still in Spain?
I want to see him.

And .... Sehun's parents come and see me

"Baekhyun ya.. how are you feeling now? Have you check with Hospital Head doctor?" Sehun's father says

"Ah.... I think I did"

"He did, father" Sehun says

"Why do you so thin? Do you want anything you want to eat? Should I cook for you? Grandma is so worried about you" Sehun's mother says

"No.. I'm really fine. I'm sorry for causing you troubles. And... Mr. Oh, congratulations for your election"

Yes... he won in running for prime minister.
My grandma has been a major supporter behind their business and now behind the election.
Since grandma has other businesses beside Delight, she's busy despite of the her age.

And I have no ... non interest in those businesses except Delight.

"It's all thank your Grandma baekhyun ya. We are all grateful for all those help"

"You are welcome, Mr.Oh. I'm sorry for making you come all the way here"

"Don't worry about those things and ask Sehun's mom if you want to eat anything"

"Nae"

"I will send some pumpkin porridge tomorrow so, eat well okay?" Sehun's mom says

"Nae.. I will eat well"

"And ask Sehun if you need anything" Mr. Oh say

"Nae. Don't worry"

I make everyone .... just worried sick.
What a mess I am.

..............

About an hour later...they go back and I just lie down and rest.

Sehun comes back in after sending his parents off.

I was hoping him to go back.
How to make him busy with schedules?

And....

"What are you doing?" I say as he comes and lie down beside me and hug me

"Let's sleep" he says

"Other might see... go back"

"We are not doing anything. Let's sleep" he says

He's ... making things uncomfortable.

May be I should take some rest too.

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Next morning...

I wake up due to Sehun whispered to me that he's going to get things need from my house .
I think it's because of medicine... I'm too sleepy.

Staying at hospital makes me more sick. Mentally.

*phone ringing*

Sehun?

Without looking.... i jus answer the call..

B - yes?

C - this is video call B ssi <AN: Because Baekhyun was listening as normal call>

B - ch...chanyeol ssi <finally look at the screen>

C - heard you are sick. Why are you like that? Where are those chubby cheeks?

B - how was your shooting? Did it go well? How's Spain?

C - sleepy? I will call you back later then. Get some rest

B - no... I slept well.. but those medicines.. makes me really sleepy.

C - imm... you look really sick.

B - am ... I?

C - are you alone?

B - right now.

C - I'm coming back this morning. It's 2 am here . I can't sleep. There's 9am right?

B - is it? Immm....

C - you really look like a puppy now... lost puppy.

B - *chuckle*  quite lost

C - I'm sorry

B - for ?

C - not being able to... be there for you

B - this is nothing...

C - I.... can I come after I land in Seoul?

B - hmmm..... don't come...

C - may be I can't listen to that

B - chanyeol ssi

C - I miss you

B - I .... need you..

*baekhyun ends the call*

What are you doing Byun Baekhyun....?

You cannot be like this.

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Chanyeol's POV

"Chanyeol ya... straight to home?" My manger asks after we landed back in Korea.

Ah yes... I now have manager and a driver.

"Take me to *** hospital."

"Ah... B nim?"

"Imm"

"Okay"

I'm coming B ssi... even tho, you don't want me there yet... still need me.

Just like a lost puppy in the rain.
Begging to be saved  but...
Bite back when someone touch him.
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Eh... I should have buy something on the way, but now here I'm with empty hand.

I knock the door and go inside.
As expected, Sehun is with him

"Chanyeol ssi?"

"Long time no see B ssi. And Sehun too"

"Imm." Sehun says "you don't need to be here. Go back"

"How are you feeling?" I ask baekhyun and ignore Sehun

"I... I am fine"

"Didn't you hear me ? Leave" Sehun says and he pushes my shoulder

"Sehun ya.." baekhyun says "give us some space. Please"

Sehun gives me a glare as he leaves the room with anger

I go and sit beside his bed

"How are you feeling?"

"Why do you come here?" He asks

"Have you been eating well?"

"How was the shooting?"

"B ssi... please answer me first"

"As you can see. I'm well."

I sigh out .... "I.. can't live without you."

"Chanyeol ssi"

I hold his hand...why does he look so pale?

"I... like you. So much. Please bare in mind. I... like you so much. Too much. I can't live without you. I am always here. As I always say."

"Ch..."

"I want to kiss you. Hug you... cuddle ... cook for yit. Wake up with you.. everything.

But ... I will wait.

So.... Take care. I will text you and if I have chance, I will call you often." I say and kiss his forehead

"Take care" I say and leave the room

And sehun is there.

"Why are you very shameless? Will wait? You are very funny"

"Eavesdropping is a very bad manner"

"Stay out of his sight. Or our side"

"Why? Because you felt he had changed already? That.... he doesn't like you like he used to?"

"Ya park chanyeol!"

"Low down your voice. This is hospital. You are my friend but... i can't give up on him. I will leave now. I won't say take care of him because, I know you will" I say and just leave him

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S - are you free to meet up?

Ryuu - how unusual of you to call me

S - cut the shits. Are you?

R - why not ? See you tonight Sehun ssi. I don't know what but, I am really looking forward to hear good news

S - you will like it. For sure.

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Hello guys! Here's an update for today.
I will update one chapter per day from now on, since it's nearly 30th Musing.

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