Chapter 14

Dareen Pov

I was very bored. At sa pagkaburyo ko ay malapit ko nang mabilang kung ilan ang buhok ko sa ulo. From friday and until now na sunday na wala pa rin akong makita ni anino ng lolo ninyo. Walang Raphael na nagpakita sa akin simula nang umalis ako sa bahay niya para pumunta sa school. Pagkauwi ko n'on walang tao sa bahay ako lang mag-isa but I'm used to it naman. Then the next morning after that napansin ko na wala pa ring Rap kasi ang kape na tinimpla ko for him lumamig na lang sa island counter.

Then now nandidito ako sa sala watching some korean variety shows. Tapos na akong magkapasawa sa pool. Rap have gym in his house if I hadn't mention it. May gym siya at nagtry ako doon pero tanging treadmill lang ata nakayanan ko doon. May boxing ring pa siya doon pero sino naman ang kakalabanin ko? Anino ko? Sobrang ganda ko pa para mabaliw.

Kaya ayon nga nabuburyo na ako. Mabuti na nga sana kung may phone ako pero hanggang ngayon nganga ako. Si Clemence nga ay malapit ko nang utangan para makabili ng cell phone kahit android man lang. Walang Rap pero may dumadating naman na foods for me. Actually, ngayon marunong na akong mag-fry at magsaing and that's a very very good achievement for myself since yeah, I was very sheltered before.

Habang nakatuon ang mata ko sa television ay di ko maiwasang di kabahan. Hindi kaya hindi na umuwi dito si Rap kasi nagalit siya doon sa nangyari sa amin doon sa formal kitchen noong friday? Di ba niya nagustuhan ang nangyari noong friday? But he kissed me! Kontra naman ng utak ko. Siya ang humalik sa akin! Don't tell me nagsisisi siya sa ginawa niya? Ano nahiya ma siya sa akin dahil doon sa ginawa niya?

Naibagsak ko ang katawan ko sa malambot na sofa at pinagpapatid ko ang paa ko sa ere. Naiinis ako kakaisip kung bakit ganoon si Rap. My flawless and white legs exposed because of what I did. Naka t-shirt lang kasi ako at isang shorts na hanggang mid-thigh ko lang.

Bigla akong napaahon mula sa pagkakahiga ko nang may ma-realized ang utak ko. What the heck!? Nag-aalala ako kay Rap at sa kung anuman ang iniisip niya sa akin. This is wrong I shouldn't be thinking like this. What happened last friday was just a spur of the moment. We are just messing with each other. All the things that happened was just a game. Yeah, a game!

Tapos iyon pang sinabi ni Clemente sa akin. Naiis-stress na ang beauty ko dahil sa nangyayari sa buhay ko. Ayaw ko nang maging marupok! Ayaw ko nang maging baliw sa isang lalaki! Ayaw ko nang magpaalipin sa isang Adan. Pero ano itong nangyayari sa akin ngayon? Parang kinain ko lang din ang sinuka ko na. Para akong isang shooting board alam ko nana tatamaan ako pero di ko pa rin magawang umiwas. Para bang wala akong choice kung hindi magpatama na lang.

"I shouldn't fall for Rap. I shouldn't fall for that grumpy grandpa. Saka I have no fetish on older guys. But when it comes to Rap... nawala na lahat ng di ko man nalalaman! Nakakainisss!!!" Napasigaw ako at binagsak ko na naman ang katawan ko. Nakakainis dahil ang mukha ni Rap ang baritong pagpantasyahan ng utak ko! Now, how can I undone this feelings? Shemz! naman.

Broken-hearted ako nang dumating dito. Presko pa sa akin ang paghihiwalay namin ng gàgo kong ex pero parang di man lang ako dumaan sa mga level ng moving-on at diretso akong nahulog na naman. I thought I was just having myself entertained in this magnificent house yet I fall for Raphael Laurence. A handsome grumpy old man that was hiding in a young body.

At sa pag-iisip ko noon ay di ko namalayang nakatulog na pala ako.

Raphael Pov

I didn't went home for straight two days because Clayton got kidnapped by his... dàmmit his stepfather. I helped Lorcan, no all of us help even Laszlo na nasa La Union ay umuwi pa. Of course, I helped Lorcan too coz, I feel responsible too for Clayton's kidnapping since dahil sa akin nagkalabuan sila ni Lorcan. They have they're major fight as a lover because of me.

And now that I confirmed that Clayton is not really a son of Christiano. Nagsisisi ako sa mga nagawa ko kay Clayton at Lorcan. Siguro sa mata ni Clayton ang sama ko na siguro. O di kaya ay iniisip na niya na wala na akong puso. And that's fine with me. Naligtas na naman namin siya and sadly Lindsey died. Then Lorcan's right hand, Alfonso that fùcking traitor burnt. Serve's him.

Pagkagaling kong LCL dahil dinalaw namin si Clayton doon dumiretso na ako sa bahay ko. May tao pala ako sa bahay at di man lang ako nakatawag na di ako makakauwi. Pero di ko naman siguro responsibilidad na sabihin kay Dareen iyon.

Kanina doon sa hospital. I saw how Lorcan kneel just to get Clayton. Just for Clayton to forgive him. That dàmn friend of mine is really smitten by Clayton. Naalala ko pa nga noong araw na nalaman ni Clayton ang lahat na pinalano lang namin lahat iyon at nag-away sila ni Lorcan. That was the first time that I saw Lorcan cried. It breaks my heart knowing na ako ang dahilan sa nangyaring iyon nina Lorcan. But of course as a friend I was just concern with him at di naman alam na seryoso na pala siya noon ni Clayton. At sa ngayon masaya na ako sa kanya, sa kanilang dalawa.

How I miss that kind of feeling. The feeling of being in love and beloved by someone. Pagkapasok ng kotse ko sa bahay ay agad akong  bumaba at pumasok sa loob.

I thought Dareen would be in the pool or in his room playing with his... dàmn cat. But I was wrong pagpasok ko pa lang umaalingaw-ngaw na sa sala ang volume ng television. Ngunit wala akong nakitang tao doon. That brat leave the TV on. Pumunta ako doon at pinatay ang TV at nang aalis na sana ako ay saka ko pa nakita si Dareen na nakahiga pala sa sofa. Tssk! That is why I didn't saw him earlier.

I sauntered towards him and halted. I sat then study his face. Lagi ko siyang nakikita na laging nagmamalaki sa mukha niya. He feel like he is the most wonderful creature in this world. That he is the most handsome gay out there and I didn't put some bother on it. Pero ngayon na nalapitan ko na siya at ilang dipa lang ang layo namin. Tssk! Dareen really has a beautiful face. Pointed small nose, pink and shiny lips, I didn't know if he put something on his lips but yeah it shines. He is also fair and creamy skin. Well, ano ba ang aasahan ko sa sheltered na lalaking ito?

Looking up again on his lips. Di ako makapaniwalang nahalikan ko na ang labing iyon. Sa totoo lang biro ko lang naman iyon sa kanya. Akala ko ay papalampasin niya iyon but staring at him kneeling in front of me... I don't know but I find it... sexy and seductive or maybe this boy is just really good in acting that way.

I was tempted to taste his lips and so I did. I thought I would feel disgusted right after but then I feel like kissing him again. Maybe I'm at fault too since ako iyong naglakad sa kitchen ng walang saplot. And I know he's gay. So he would be tempted too. Galit ako at ayaw ko sa mga kauri niya pero bakit siya napagtitiisan ko? I can shoo him away. I can throw him away from this house yet I let him stay. At pinigilan ko pa nga siyang umalis dati.

"I don't know what are you doing to me Hernane." i whispered. "I feel like a foreign in my own self because of you."

I saw his lips parted and then he gulped. I closed my eyes. Fùck! This urges again. This urge to kiss him. Tasting his lips last friday was very wrong. I shouldn't kissed him. Ngayon gusto ko na naman siya halikan.

Pinikit ko ang mata ko at inaalala ko na ayaw ko nito, na hindi ako nanghahalik ng lalaki, ng ganitong klaseng tao. But I lose...

Lumuhod ako saka ko sinikop ang nakatikom na bibig ni Dareen. When my landed on him I closed my lips and kiss him more. Nibbling his... soft lips giving it a bite and sipped again then nibble it again. And when I was not satisfied with it I tried opening his mouth using my tongue but I couldn't.

What a shame on me. Kissing a sleeping person as if it was sleeping beauty who needs a dàmn kiss to fùcking wake up. I pulled my face away from him but then one hand grabbed my head and Dareen crashed his lips on mine.

"Ngayon wala ka nang kawala." he said between our lips.

I pulled my head away. Napaupo ako sa sahig sa gulat ko. Fùck! Did I just get caught?

Dareen sat on the sofa and look at me with a sly smile on his red lips. It become red due to my kiss! Even its surroundings become red too!

"You're really a good kisser Raphael Laurence."

My system panic when he went off and then  Dareen scrawled on the floor like a fùcking alluring cunning cat and  he sat in between my parted thighs.

It's a good thing that I was able to hide my panic at his act! Dàmn this sly!

"Daree-"

He put his palm on my mouth that's why I was cut off from speaking.

"You kissed me while I was sleeping. Ngayon pwede bang halikan mo rin ako?"

"Get the fùck of!" madiin kong saad sa kanya.

But the cat just shrugged his shoulders.

"No, nakadalawang halik ka na ay hindi tatlo pala pero di mo ako hinahahayaang gantihan ka. Kaya ngayon halikan mo ulit ako." Dareen demanded. This man does he know what's he spurting?

"Dareen Ai-"

I cut off when he angled his face and kiss me. My eyes wide open and saw him kissing me with his eyes closed and as if he is devouring the my whole lips. Dareen is shoving his tongue on my closed mouth. He is asking for my mouth to open.

"Open your mouth Rap." he said in between his kiss.

I ground my teeth. I don't know if he is testing me, tempting me, or seducing me or more playing with me! I wrapped my one hand on his waist and my one hand supporting his head then I lifted him and pushed him on the sofa.

"Argh!" he groaned when his back landed on the sofa.

I pulled my head and asked, "Is this what you want?"

His lips parted and panting from the long kiss. He gulped then ran his fingers on my face.

"Yes, I want this."