I have been here for about a week and luckily they'll execute me tonight, anyhow that's not what comes to my mind, what I dream about, it's you Harry, your eyes, your smile, your laugh, your voice, how I thought we were meant to be, I guess we could've been but I had to ruin it.You always asked me to tell you my story, and I know it's too late, but here it goes: 

I was born in Doncaster, on Christmas Eve 1991, I had always been pretty spoiled until my sister Lottie was born, after that, I was the forgotten kid, every Christmas Eve my sisters would get tones of presents, but I didn't, I remember that my mother used to say that it was because they were younger and that I had had my 'golden years' when I was an only child, as if it was my fault she decided to have more children... 

But now I guess you want to know why I did it, there wasn't really a reason, to be honest, there was with the first few, I needed to let my emotions out somehow, I guess I didn't like not having anyone's attention, yes, I had Zayn and Niall, but I guess I needed someone to love me and, to be honest, when I first saw you talking to Gemma outside Dan's party, I wanted to kill you, you knew who I was, that's why I took you to the alley where I had killed Liam a couple of weeks before, but when I saw you crying, my heart broke for the first time in many years, I just couldn't do it, I tried again when I took you to my place, but all I could do was knock you out 

They are coming to get me soon, I hope we can be together and that you forgive me, but i know you won't because I will never forgive myself 

 I miss you Harry, I didn't mean to meet you that night, I didn't mean to let you live either, I didn't mean to like you or fall in love with you, I didn't mean to lie to you but would we have lived what we did if you had known I'm the one who killed your best friend? I also didn't mean to kill you... But I guess you won't believe anything I say 

 Let me just tell you one thing, I'm in love with you Harry Edward Styles, even if they don't kill me, you're the love of my life, you're my everything 

I haven't gotten you out of my mind after writing this, I don't know what to do, I've killed around 60 people in my whole life and I don't regret any of those deaths, except for the last one, yours

I'd be lying if I said you were my world, because you still are, you'll always be my world, and I guess that people is right when they say that you don't know what you've got until it's gone, and that in the end you wish you hadn't done something

I wish I had never taken that weapon, I wish I had never pulled that trigger and most of all, I wish I had never taken away the most beautiful life to exist in this world, because without you, everything is black

I look back at our memories and I can't help but smile, but it fades away everytime I realize what I've done, that you're not here with me, and that you never will, because of me, because of my stupid decision

Sometimes I wish I had never gone to that party, I lost Niall that say, but I found you, and it may sound rude but losing Niall was worth meeting you

I'll say it, I hope for the last time in my life, I love you Harry 

Always In My Heart Harry Styles. Yours sincerely, Louis