YOONA/YANNA

Its been two weeks since I stayed here in this weird town called SMTown. And its been half a week since Mark cooled off our relationship.

He left me stunned inside my own room. It took a long time for me to digest what he just told me. That very night, I barely winked and stayed up throughout the long late hours until the sun came about. As soon as I heard birds chirping right outside my window, I cried.

I cried for three whole hours.

I never expected those kind of words to come out from his mouth. He's never been the type to end something selfishly. Heck, I've never even heard him complaining about us ever since we got together!

He was the first guy who wanted this relationship, he's also the first one to initiate a break-up.

Just what the heck?!

That day and the day after that, I starved myself and refused to leave my room. I could hear voices from behind the door telling me to come out or the food was now waiting but the only response they got from me was silence.

I wanted to be alone.

Even when confusing visions start to play inside my head and always giving me a headache, I stayed still on my bed and tried to look for reasons why Mark broke up with me.

I thought of everything I did the past few days that probably made him upset. I thought harder and harder until one name just rang inside my head.

I tried avoiding that kind of reason but my stupid brain does the opposite. As my brain started giving out evidences and whatnot that proved that certain reason, I still try not to think about it.

I refuse to think that Luhan was the reason of our break-up.

After those two days, I left the room, much to these 'caring' people's relief. These people namely Taeyeon, Jessica, Suho and Kris. They were the ones who noticed my state and all that they have observed but I couldn't care less. At least I feel a bit grateful that they were, like what they told me, worried about my state.

I take my own walks around this academy alone quietly since Suho told me that the classes here were already starting their second semester. I occasionally meet new people around and somehow, they were friendly. Other than the Bangtan Boys, I met Hyoyeon, Yuri, Sooyoung, and Chanyeol. They accompanied me in their spare hours and though I hate to admit it, I liked their company. It made me feel less lonely.

Throughout those days, I haven't seen Mark anywhere in this academy. Its like he just suddenly disappeared on me. I want to talk to him about our relationship thoroughly and with seriousness, but look, where the heck is he right now?

And also, throughout those days, because of my stupid brain in assuming a lot of things, I avoided Luhan. I don't want to meet him or see his face or else I'll be more complicated than I am. I mean, I'll lose my mind, literally, and I'm not in the mood to even think about him and everything related to him.

Up until right now, I just ran back behind a huge wall when I noticed him walking towards the place I was about to go. Though it made me feel like a huge coward, I just can't help but to keep on avoiding.

I sighed as soon as his figure was slowly out of my sight. That made my heart pound inside me, really. Every now and then, my own heart beats irregularly whenever I do this. My nervousness probably made me feel like this and probably made me sweat so hard.

The heck, why am I even overreacting?

I calmed myself as I walk towards the opposite way, back to my room. Its almost evening anyway and I probably memorized the whole academy already. To the gate up until the rooftop, I think.

And dinner is probably coming so I have to hurry up. I can't let Seohyun or Lay, who recently sends me the food, wait for me.

"Yoona, wait up!" My whole body froze upon hearing that familiar voice. Oh no, luck is not by my side today. Curse you fate, destiny, magical magician, wizard, sorcerer, witch, whatever for putting me in this messed up situation!

Without a second thought, I lift one leg up, prepared my energy in my whole body, and dashed towards the dorm, leaving smoke behind me (Overreacting again, I know). I'm not facing that ahjussi just yet!

~~~~~

"I'm so very sorry noona! But this has to happen!" Was what I heard Taehyung told me before running away in a hurry together with Jimin and Jungkook while wearing their weird smiles. Seriously, I want to strangle those three kids! They're like little naughty children when they're already over than 15 years old!

"So mind explaining why you are always avoiding me?" I shut my eyes tight and pursed my lips. Damn, calm yourself Yanna! You're overreacting too much.

"Avoiding? I'm not avoiding." I replied back, not looking directly at his eyes. I'm still glaring at those three kids though they're slowly disappearing from my sight. I just realized that they can run very fast. Do they have those special powers too?

"Then why won't you look at me in the eye?" And in a swift moment, my eyes met his and he literally took my breath away.

His face showed a perfect structure, his nose was curved beautifully, his eyes sparkled right before me and I could see a glint of longing in it. His hair was neatly arranged and I see no wrinkles nor flaws in him. His lips were a bit pinkish, just right to fit for his wonderful face. I kept on staring his entire face until I realized that he was also doing the same. We didn't talk for a long time, only us observing each other's presence.

Then it came. The wave of realization and embarrassment. What did I just do?!

"Hey!" I pushed him away from me out of shock. My eyes are wide as plates and I feel my whole face flushing tomato red in embarrassment. Not only that, I think I pushed him too hard. He's on the ground with a shocked expression. Okay, a lot of incidents happening in just an early morning.

"Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry!" I immediately apologized as I walked towards him and helped him get up. "Just why did you do that? You could've just called my attention, not forcing me to face you." I complained, trying to at least sound mad. Its his fault why I'm confused of myself!

"I didn't do anything though. Why are you getting embarrassed? You're face is very red-"

"Not your business to pry on!" I cut him off. Yanna, I hope for your safety. Let little brainy do the work. Your soul will just sleep. You're not being yourself.

I shook my head at my own thoughts. I'm crazy. 

"So you asked those three to drag me here? In this freaking early sunshine morning?" I immediately interrogated him with questions, to divert the topic. And yes, it's already morning and I just woke up when Taehyung, Jimin, and Jungkook came knocking on my door and dragged me towards the field. And this is how I was forced to meet up with this guy in front of me.

Just classic.

"Technically, yes. But I didn't mean this early. I meant, sometime today. And I didn't tell them to drag you here just to see me. They probably just think it's, like,  urgent." He explained, while rubbing his neck a bit. Well, at least that's a bit clear for me.

"I'm not really avoiding you." I answered with a flat tone. "It's just that I don't feel comfortable around you recently and that probably made you assume that I am." I sighed after saying that. At least I'm half telling the truth.

"You're not telling the whole truth." I shut my eyes tight with what he said. I just shrugged my shoulders at him. "Don't underestimate my skills, Yoona. You know that I can also read your mind."

"Okay, okay, you got me. Tch." I responded while raising both of my hands in the air. I really must get use to the people around me with their special skills. "Its very personal so just, don't pry on it." Was what I just said. He nodded right after.

"So, you might want to walk around?" He asked after a few seconds of silence. 

"You don't have classes?" I asked back, since I'm sure he's still a student here, senior year, probably. He just gave me a smile.

"It's still early in the morning. And I only have my afternoon classes." And after he said that, he gestured me to follow him and since I don't really have much planned out for today, I followed him.

"Where are we going?" I asked while placing both my hands on my pockets. I then noticed he suddenly stopped in front of me. I glanced at what was infront of him and saw that it was the small gate of the garden.

"Just here." Luhan said as he opened the gate and gestured me to come in. Though I find it weird why we're here, I went in anyway. Plus, he just acted so gentleman-like to me. That was awesome.

I slowly made my way to the small table and sat on one of its chairs. Luhan followed suit. I took my time gazing at the plants and flowers around and I'm lying if they aren't beautiful because, they're absolutely amazing!

"Oh, your majesty, you're here." A deep voice greets from behind us. I looked around and saw a middle-aged man walking towards us with a bow. "It's nice of you to visit the garden after some time."

"It's my pleasure to, Sir Chris." Luhan replied with a smile. The man, Chris, then looked at me and he seemed surprised. Does he also know me?

"Ommo, isn't this Yasmin Roberts?" I raised an eyebrow at the name he called me. Yasmin? I remember that name in my visions. 

"Yeah, it is Sir Chris. But it's Yoona now. Sir Sam probably have told you right?" I'm like an idiot standing right at the side while these two were talking. I don't understand a single thing. But one fact is there for sure.

I'm also probably called Yasmin by some people here.

Great, I'm probably the first person in this whole world to have multiple names at once. How did that even happen without myself knowing?

"It's been a long time, Yasmin. You probably have forgotten me, do you?" I was surprised when the man was already in front of me. He gave me a small hug, which I returned with an awkward pat on his back. He doesn't look familiar, argh. I just answered him a small hum, which made him laugh a bit. 

"I'll go out to the market for a small while. Have your time here." Chris told us with a bow and with a kind smile on his face, he left. 

I then looked at Luhan with wide eyes, silently telling him to explain. He just shook his head at me with a teasing smile. Come on, this is serious business for me! I gave him a glare as he snickered at my reaction.

"Okay, okay, you got me." He said, obviously using my words. I rolled my eyes at that. After a few seconds, he became composed and is now looking at me with serious eyes. "You're known as Yasmin here before. No one really knows your real name except for Sir Sam, your foster uncle, Kyungsoo, your older brother figure, Shawn, your childhood friend, " He released a small sigh before continuing. "And you, yourself."

"...Why did I have a name of Yasmin in the first place?" I asked, curiously. I mean, it's not like I'm just believing at whatever he was saying. I just want to confirm about something I really need answers to.

"You wouldn't believe me if I told you to." He said with a small shook of his head. I scooted my own chair closer to his and placed my right arm on the table. I slowly leaned towards his direction.

"Just tell me." I said aloud. The both of us didn't care of how we're so close with each other right now. I just needed answers because I have a hunch about everything.

I have a hunch about who I really am.

"Alright, I'll tell you. But don't blame me if this causes you a ridiculous mind-blown experience." He finally agreed. I properly sat in front of him as I eagerly wait for his explanation.

"There was a young child who caused an uproar in the planet of Fushigiboshi, specifically Moon Kingdom. That young child burned a whole town while celebrating the kingdom's Moon Festival. A lot of people died, and a lot of people witnessed the cruel incident. All of them blamed the young child, who had no idea that she actually caused such unfortunate happening."

Ringing started to slowly disturb inside my head, and I tried my best to ignore it and continue listening to Luhan, though I don't really understand where this goes. 

"As all fingers were pointed at her, shouting such harsh words and cries, the child's own mother screamed at the guards 'protecting' her from the child and preventing her from getting any closer to her. She kept on crying as the court ordered a death penalty to her own child. What the child did was cruel, but killing a clueless child was worse. No one listened to her when guards slowly walk up to the child, sword up in the air and ready to cut the kid in two."

The ringing was getting worse. I had to massage my head a bit and acted like I'm fine in front of him. Come on, don't get in my way right now.

"The sword was suddenly down on the floor with a loud thud. The young child suddenly ransacked the small prison she was in. Until the guards already found her outside the prison,  suddenly appearing from place to place. Fire came out from her hands, indoor rainstorms surrounded the area, the ground shaking hard beneath her, and strong hurricanes came around the small court area. The people inside screamed and tried to escape away. Everyone called her a monster, and somehow that's what the young child understood in that moment."

"Everything stopped though as soon as the queen of Moon Kingdom came. With her magic, she made the place back to normal and was able to calm down the crying child. Since the queen had mercy in her heart and knew that in any way, the young child was still innocent, she let the child be banned from her kingdom, instead of giving her the death penalty. Everyone had no choice but to follow her orders, while the mother was giving her thanks and joy to the queen. Though there was still a punishment, she's more than glad her daughter was still able to be alive."

Voices came inside my head instead of the usual ringing. Voices of different people and of different tones. I had a hard time concentrating to what Luhan's talking about but surprisingly, it's as if the voice of Luhan was narrating inside my head and is in flow with the others.

"They were placed in a rather small town, far from the kingdom and from the planet. Nonetheless, the people there still gave her hate since she also caused a lot of accidents. She burned a few trees, nearly flooded the area, and almost created a huge hurricane. And since her mother didn't want anyone to know about their real identities, she changed her daughter's name."

A faint voice of a woman then sounded inside my head. This time, Luhan noticed me holding my head tightly, in pain. My sight blurred and everything is like echoing inside me. All of a sudden, a huge wave of visions came right at me, in the same time. But this time, everything became clear.

From when the girl inside was young, together with her mother. 

A fire, people screaming around, the girl only standing in the middle of it all.

Other people pointing their fingers at the girl with anger, the girl starts to tantrum.

The girl with her mother in a new place, with new people, still looking at her with hate.

The girl meeting a young boy, along with an old man. A cake in the center and the girl blowing her candles.

As the smoke comes out, the girl is already a young lady, her mother lying down in front of her. Her tears dropped on the floor.

As the sound of her tears hit the floor continuously, thousands of images started to run. 

The lady started working in a garden, the lady became less talkative, the lady meeting new people, her powers slowly getting out of control, the lady encountering another group of people, the lady starts being friendly, her powers slowly getting out of control, the lady meeting another set of young boys, the lady looks at someone with admiration, her powers slowly getting out of control, the lady shakes hands with a mysterious boy, the lady is surrounded by people trying to help her.... her powers slowly getting out of control.

The lady stops moving. She meets me, eye to eye. She then smiles at me. I feel tears coming out of my eyes. She then walks towards me, ever so slowly. She reaches out her hand, gently touching at my chest. 

With that faint touch, everything came back towards me. All of the images went towards my direction, pushing me back with all force, making me feel a huge tidal wave. 

Then it clicked. I understand now.

"Yoona! Yoona, what's happening with you?!" I rearranged my vision and see Luhan's holding me closer to him, worry etched on his face. "You've mumbling stuff to yourself, what's--"

"I understand now." I slowly said, which made him stop talking. I noticed his face surprised but I was too engrossed of my realization. 

Its as if I was hit by a huge stone on my head and it created a huge blow on me, I came back to my senses. 

"What I wasn't seeing were visions." My mouth continued spitting out realizations of its own. "They weren't even visions in the first place. They were memories."

"Y-Yoona, do you remember now?" Luhan asked me, his tone full of expectation.

"More than you can imagine, Luhan." I answered him back, my expression still blank in awe. "I found out the bitter truth of who I really am."

Luhan stayed still beside me, patiently waiting for my words.

"I used to be a monster, an actual monster." I feel my voice wavering in fear, slowly eating out the small bravery inside me.

"I used to be-- No, I'm a monster, though I didn't mean to."

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A/N

So yeah, the first important part has finally come. I intentionally made it this long since school comes by this Monday. And forgive me if there are any mistakes in the grammar and spelling since I did this in a rush. 

Its bec. my nephews were already complaining since I used up the internet. (I'm not in my own house since we got no wifi. T^T)

So that's all! The "slow updates" season is slowly approaching so I hope you have your seatbelts on and just enjoy the ride! (WTF Am I saying??)