With another day comes a different genre of blissful morning. Even though it's a Sunday, unlike my other friends, I prefer to wake up early. It's a habit that I've developed just to watch the glittering gems spanning throughout the light blue carpet of the sky every morning.

As for today, I don't have any articulate plans except for studying and lazing around. Maybe I will get to continue that game with Alyssa. But for now let me just brush my teeths and fill in some breakfast.

After I finished my eggs and bacon. I returned to my room and got deeply engrossed in my studies. Under the torched afternoon sun my father called me for a healthy lunch and after that I took my sweet afternoon nap.

Now it's time to go shopping for dinner with dad. Since dad took care of the lunch, I'm the one in charge of dinner.

"Ren, have you packed your stuff or not?"

"No dad, we still have so much time on our hands." I replied emphasizing the importance of so.

"But don't forget about it. By the way, what do we have to buy?"

"I'm thinking of making something light today."

"Oh well, whatever you make, I will eat it."

After buying the ingredients we returned home and since I still have some time in my hand before making dinner, I can chat with Alyssa.

As I already guessed, there's already a message from her.

'I probably won't get much time tomorrow so maybe I won't be able to chat tomorrow.'

'Here's my E, E- I love writing diaries, writing My feelings down in a diary instead of telling them, usually helps me a lot.'

Oh so she also likes to write diaries. This was unexpected.

'E- when I get home I usually lock myself in my room, just to replenish my energy.'

I got a quick response just after sending my reply.

'F- I love purple color, also sky, beach and curry.'

Well, That's a vague answer.

'F- I am good at sketching.'

And then the messages kept on coming and I kept on replying.

'G- I do everything at the last minute.'

Ping.

'G- I am an introvert.'

Ding.

'H- I love kittens and chocolate.'

Oh Kittens! Nice.

'H- I am a cat person too.'

Ping.

'I- I am allergic to dust.'

Really?

'I- I'm not good with spicy food.'

'J- I want to join an NGO for street animals.'

That is

'J- I wanted to become a professor when I was young.'

'Hehe i know that, you once told me. K- I love to binge watch series and anime. I'm a big fan of TVD too.'

'Oh TVD, I love that too. K- I love spending my day watching anime.'

'I guess we are alike in many ways, L- I love watching the sunset.'

'Maybe we are not, L- I love watching daybreak.'

'M- I have a silly dream of being a housewife.'

'Well that was unexpected, M- i want to travel the world but i don't think it's possible.'

'N- I love to travel.'

'N- i love playing games, especially on mobile.'

'O- I'm scared of bugs, especially spiders.'

'O- I hate bugs too, especially cockroaches.'

'Yeah it's scary when they suddenly start to fly, P- Unlike the past me, now I'm good at talking with people.'

'P- I love painting and I would love to paint for you.'

The next text I got isn't some alphabet but this..

'Okay, now I'm bored, why not be more open and tell each what we expect from our partners, you have to tell even if you don't have one.'

I don't see any problem with this, and it might be fun so I replied..

'Why not, I'm up for it.'

'Okay so here it is, Q- I want him to confess but if he isn't noticing me, I might end up being the one to confess.'

'I am just gonna follow your lead, Q- I'm not confident enough to confess so maybe she will have to wait a little.'

'R- if he cooks then that would be wonderful as I'm too lazy and I can only cook the chaos.'

She really has a typical high expectation!

'R- i want her to be good at Cooking. Enjoying a meal made by the girl you love is nearly every boy's dream you know.'

'Oh! I never knew that, S- i want him to listen to me babbling about the book I read or the series that I watched recently without any complaints.'

'I love reading books too, S- I want my book to get published.'

'I would love to read that Ren, T- I want him to be calm in nature.'

Let me up the game a bit. Baam!

'T- I want her to be a little wild.'

'U- still, I want him to try from time to time to make me smile.'

'U- I want her to be able to cheer up an introverted person like me.'

'V- I want to have a kitten but I will make him take care of that kitten.'

I would love some too!

'V- I want her to get along with my cats.'

'W- I don't know what I'm feeling most of the time and most probably I won't share that with him as well. So I want him to understand and just be there for me until I open up to him.'

'That would be hard, I already feel sorry for him. W- I don't have any siblings and that's why it would be awesome if I get along with her siblings.'

'X- I am jealous of my sister, I sometimes wish that I was her.'

'Why? X- I don't have any siblings that's why I think its wonderful that you have someone who you can call your sister.'

I realised that it's already time to prepare dinner. No, its more like I am already getting late. I have to start now!

'Sorry, I think we won't be able to complete this game today. I have to go cook dinner, bye.'

'Ok, bye'

I connected my phone to the charger and went to twist some corks, burn our LPG and throw in ingredients for dinner. I had some important talk with my father and after all this I was too tired to even lift a finger. So as soon as I laid on my bed I fell asleep just like a dead log.

Next day I didn't get any message from Alyssa in the morning. And my day is going the same, interesting conversations with friends and the same old boring lectures.

"Ren, do you have a minute? I want to talk to you about something."

I felt someone patting on my shoulder from behind. When I turned around it was Rose.

"Yeah, what is it, Rose?"

"This childhood friend of yours, Alyssa. Do you still like her?"

"Why..why are you asking me that?"

"Well..I want to know if boys really are idiots. Do you guys really take years to get over the girl that you love?"

Looks like Aster already confessed and the way Rose is acting, it seems like she hasn't even answered him yet. More like she is confused and can't decide. Just accept him already, or I might break.

"It depends on the boy. Some move on, some never forget and some just hide it, preserve it under the coating of lies and desires. It's just that, for some people it's hard to forget about the one they truly loved and hold dear."

"What are you then?"

Honestly, I'm just a liar, I sealed away my feelings for Alyssa after I thought I would never see her again. And once again I ignored my feelings for you because when I see you with Aster, I realise that I am not the one who you want. Guess I can't say this to her.

"I don't think that it's love that I'm feeling towards her. It's just that I want my friend back with me."

"Oh is that so? Well, I got my answers. I'm leaving now, bye."

As she took her bag and started to walk away, I don't know why but I called out to her but at this moment i don't want things to go wrong for her.

"Rose, listen, it may seem like that a guy is okay and accepting it all but in reality he only freezes those feelings just to numb the pain."

She stopped and turned back, she had an unsettling yet calm expression on her face almost saying, how do you know? Or why do you know? But without saying a word she decided to walk away.

Did she understand what I meant by that sentence? I hope she doesn't realise that I was not only talking about Aster's confession.

But I did my best, my friend, but now it's up to her. I packed my stuff to leave but I'm still baffled by the expression that Rose was wearing. Did I say something that I shouldn't have said? Well, let's see what happens next.

Buzz..buzz..

My phone again vibrated stating that it was a message.

"I'm in your college, lets see if you can find me.''

Reading this there's one thing I'm sure about that it's my best chance to find her because most of the students have already left for their home.

I immediately ran towards Rose and I was able to spot her leaving the hallway. I called out to her and explained the situation. It's better if the two of us look together for her, it's what I thought.

"But do you know how she looks?"

Rose asked, maybe she's thinking that I'm just an idiot rushing without any clues.

"I don't remember her face but I have a feeling that I can tell it's Alyssa if she ever comes in front of me. This much I am confident of. "

"Then what's the point of me being here, I don't know how she looks stupid."

"Just look for any girl who you think qualifies to be Alyssa."

"How would I know?"

"Okay, just follow me."

"Then let's start from the classrooms which are close to us Ren and then other rooms and the library."

We searched every corner of the college but we found no one who I can consider to be Alyssa. Maybe I really don't remember how she looks or maybe she is just making a fool out of me. I feel so frustrated because of all this but still..

After all this, I apologized to Rose for wasting her time and returned back home.

I don't know why i was desperate, maybe i was just excited to meet her finally. I don't know how I should react now. My life is slowly becoming a mess right now.

Buzz..buzz..

Just the thing I was waiting for.

'So you were not able to find me, even though I found you so easily. By the way you really came close to me when you were trying to find me, but whatever, it doesn't matter now.'

'Also we will continue our game tomorrow, bye for now.'

Gosh..this is so frustrating, I wish I could find her already.