"Are you okay?" Bebe asks me as I walk inside.

"Yes." I give her a small smile.

"Did Tillu do something?" She asks.

My eyes move over to Neil as he walks down the stairs and I remind the difference that's between us now.

He knows.

And I don't know why it isn't as big a deal as it should be.

"Yeah." I look at Bebe, reminding me why I am mad at him.

I expected him to say something but now I think he should have said it at least for the sake of our marriage.

"Tillu?" Bebe asks. "What did you do?"

"Uh-" Neil glances at me. "Just-"

"He can't say it," I say when he pauses. "But you should scold him for not using words in the right place."

Neil raises his eyebrows at me and I roll my eyes at him while Bebe frowns.

"Excuse me." I glare at Neil and I hold his gaze as I walk past him crashing my shoulder against his.

I don't know why that makes him grin but I smile as I make my way upstairs.

I can hear Bebe asking him something and their voice fade away as I walk up to our room. I stand in front of the room and push the door, when it doesn't open I stop and take a step back realizing it's locked.

I stare at it for a moment wondering what it means.

He is throwing me out of his house?

No, then I wouldn't be entering in the first place.

He doesn't want to share a room with me anymore?

Or he just doesn't like me now?

I turn to look at Neil as he walks up the stairs and I have to get my thoughts straight because he suddenly looks hot to me.

I know that if he doesn't need me now we still have to be in this marriage so we have to pretend and he can't just throw me out of his place or room.

I remind myself that he apologized and he also said it doesn't change anything for him- I want to believe it but I also don't want to be foolish and just accept whatever he says.

He has the power to hurt me and I have acknowledged it today so I need to be sensible.

So I look him in the eye as I cross my arms on my chest. "Do you mind telling me why the room is locked?"

He leans against the door and folds his arms with a sexy grin on his face that turns me on instantly.

I raise my eyebrows at him and he reaches into his pocket and pulls out the keys. I hold my hand up as he throws them at me and I give him a triumphant smile when I catch them.

"Open it." He says as he takes a step away from the door.

I look at him unsure. "What is in there? A snake to bite me?"

"Seriously?" He asks then he shakes his head. "Just- open it."

I look at him and I know there has to be something good in it because Neil is never giving me bad news this way.

I take a step forward and put the key in and twist it open. I glance at Neil who suddenly looks nervous before I push the door open.

Candles.

That's exactly what I notice first then I take my time to grasp what's around. There are floating candles all around the room and I love that there are pearls in them instead of roses.

I turn to glance at Neil before I take a step inside and the warmth wraps me immediately. It also warms my heart that he did it for me and then my eyes move to the table that has food covered.

The candles lighten the entire room and the warm feeling makes me smile then my eyes roam around the room again admiring all the pearls and candles as they burn. The bed looks clean and the white sheets look inviting to me. I am unknowingly very pleased he didn't include roses here.

I turn to look at Neil when he steps in and locks the door just making the room hotter.

"What are you trying to do?" I ask with a smile.

He gives me a half smile as he walks over to me. I grip my hand when I feel my heartbeat pick up as he stands in front of me looking into my eyes. I am suddenly reminded that he once told me he loves my eyes and the moment abruptly seems intimate.

I bite my lower lip as he keeps his hands on my shoulders and moves them down until he holds my hands in his awakening goosebumps all over my body.

I feel my heart shudder, literally.

I have to look away from him fearing to discern the zeal he carries in his eyes right now as he gazes at me and also fearing that he can interpret what I am feeling right now.

"Avni." I hear his deep voice.

No way I am looking into that deep eyes right now.

He keeps his hand under my chin and raises my head and I blink my eyes once as I look at him.

"I am sorry." He says slowly. "I swear nothing changes for me. Yes, it's shocking, it's a truth but that is it."

His words remind me of Ruby and I think about how they are similar in this way.

"I don't see you with what surname you have, it doesn't even matter to me. What matters to me is you."

Was the supposed to make me emotional? Because it does. I hold back my tears and emotions as I look at him.

"I understand your anger towards me. It also makes me happy that you are mad at me because for me it means that I mean something to you." He says.

"Look at me confessing so many things right now when I should have told them when you wanted me to. What can I say? I am an idiot." He chuckles then he pauses. "I am an asshole."

I look at him and the only thing I remember is I told him an asshole once and then I called him a bastard which hurt him back then.

"I may not appear like one but I love to cherish things that I value in private." He says. "And I value you."

I have to close my eyes to control my emotions because he unexpectedly said the purest and hardest thing to assimilate.

"I don't find it necessary to let the people know what I feel or think and because I know it matters to you I promise my actions will be louder than my words."

I just nod at him and he smiles at me before he leans in and presses his lips on my forehead raising my hair.

"And what I am trying to do right now is forget whatever happened." He says then he glances at the table. "A good meal with a beautiful environmental should sort it out and we should let this go."

I watch him as he grabs my hand and pulls me over to the couch. I stand there as he unwraps the food container and I run everything through my head quickly.

All he is trying to do is forget and make me forget what happened and it simply means nothing changes for him but it does to me. I feel touched by his efforts and words and him.

I feel strangely peaceful as I look around the room and I have to remind myself I was hurt and his simple gesture just melted my heart.

Neil turns to look at me when I don't sit down, I lock my arms behind me as I look at his handsome face that is illuminated by the candles.

Neil is a man of feelings and sitting down with him right now is inviting feelings my way. It makes him unique that he doesn't try to suppress his feelings or express himself.

I think most boys don't reveal their feelings directly, they either can't or they think maybe I shouldn't or it's why should I?

It's a fact a human has feelings and I love that Neil expresses them and knowing him I shouldn't be flabbergasted if he ever gets intense.

My problem is I don't want feelings because I make a fool out of myself. Feelings always lead to my wrong decisions and Rose is proof of it. I wouldn't talk about Jason because I don't think I shared some sort of connection with him it was all basic and romantic dates that I enjoyed at that moment.

Neil's only problem is he doesn't want commitment and maybe he is a little fearful of the aftermath of a marriage which is why he settled for a Contract Marriage but other than that he has everything.

Only if he realized he would be a much better husband if he tried but that's what he doesn't want to... he doesn't want to try he wants it to come naturally.

I am known to suppress my feelings but Neil isn't and because I don't want us to get entangled in feelings I decide it's not ideal to settle for a romantic dinner now.

"Do you not accept my apology?" He asks as he stands in front of me.

"I do." I smile then I place my hand on his chest. "We will let go of whatever happened today but-"

"But?" He asks impatiently.

"I don't want a meal with a beautiful environment for it," I say. "I just want you."

"You could entertain me," I say in a low voice. "By taking my breath away."

I feel turned on thinking about it and I grip his jacket. "Isn't that what you said?"

"I did." He says then he looks at me curiously. "Are you sure? I thought you were tired."

I am. It was an outdoor photoshoot and I am tired but it's better to fuck than get serious.

I feel a little bad about it but I know I can't lead the way he is going and I don't want to hurt him so I am going to try what I can.

I look at him and I know he's not going to believe me if I say I am not tired so I get on my tiptoes and kiss him. I reach out and pull his jacket off.

His eyes bore into mine and he pushes me against the wall turning on every cell in my body as he keeps his body pressed against mine. There's a heavy silence between us as we stare at each other with our rigid breathing.

I keep my focus off of everything that is going on in the moment and I focus on the desire that I feel for him. I can feel my body burning with desire and I can feel the heat from his body too.

He keeps his hand against the wall before he crashes his lips against mine unleashing his desire. I get fierce right there and I reach out and unbutton his shirt and throw it off before our lips come down together again.

There's just heat all around us and the heat that I get from his breathing drives me fucking crazy.

He grips my waist as I deepen the kiss, and he leans down to kiss my neck when we pull away. I keep my hands on his bare back as I pull my head back and let out a moan when sucks onto my skin.

I feel like I am on edge already but when Neil pulls back to look at me I can tell that we aren't getting there just yet.

"Do you have a number?" He asks in his sexy voice.

The curl falling on his forehead with his messy hair just makes him hotter than he already is.

"I give you all expect ten." He proclaims, proving me right.

I press my legs together feeling the ache grow between my legs.

"Seven," I whisper.

He looks at me for a moment and I wait for him to do something and when he does he blows my mind.

"Oh, Neil." I grip his shoulder as I jump a little and let out a moan when I feel him touch me.

His fingers do magic and I try to suppress my moan knowing his family is here but I am not able to. Some just slip out of my mouth as he drives me higher each time.

All I know then is the heaven he shows me right there.

He looks into my eyes and presses a kiss on my cheek I see all the feelings still present in them.

"Know that I value you." He whispers as he rests his forehead against mine. "And nothing can change it."

So much for not wanting feelings involved.