I look into his eyes as I hold on to him and I can't help the sadness that washes over me. Nora somehow messed up with my mind and I can't help but think about her words again and again.

It's you who left.

I hate that she was able to do it but I keep thinking about how things would be if I didn't choose to let them all go before they do that to me.

How long can someone put up an act?

Certainly, not forever.

Limit. There's a limit to everything and even if I can't hold it anymore I'll still be crying on my own, all alone. I can't expect anyone to come to hold me when I pushed them away.

I think about all the times the family might have enjoyed without me, it didn't make any difference to them.

They all went on vacation and I wasn't invited because it was Nora's birthday. I know it because I saw the pictures on Lee and Alice's Instagram. I felt bad but I shrugged it off.

It's different this time, seeing Alice be so open to Nora who has been with her just for a year makes me... sad.

"Will you?" I ask in a small voice feeling the knot tighten in my throat.

I know it's wrong but I want to forget all of it. I hope the kiss helps. I don't want to end up crying in front of him, it would be embarrassing.

He gives me a subtle nod before he leans down closer, I move my hands up his arms and put them around his neck as he presses his lips against mine.

My eyes close in anticipation as he kisses me softly and he maintains his palms on the seat. I feel a tear drop down from my eye as we kiss. So much for not crying.

"Ah." I moan in pain from the cramp in my leg when I move.

He pulls back to look at me and I bite my lower lip not wanting to shed another tear. His eyes roam all over my face and I watch as he opens his mouth to say or ask something but he shuts it.

Maybe he probably wanted to ask, Are you okay?

Right now though I wish he would and I would say that I am not because I am really not okay. I feel like shit, what the hell am I doing with my life?

"You are sad." He whispers slowly and he runs his thumb underneath my eye.

"I am," I admit as I straighten up and wipe the tears off my cheeks.

He pulls back and looks at me for a moment. "Let's get you strapped." He says and he puts the seat belt around me.

"Take rest. It's long a flight." He says softly. "Do you want something to drink?"

I shake my head. "A kiss should work." I give him a half smile.

He chuckles as he presses his lips on my forehead and then on my cheek before he walks away to talk with the pilot.

Okay, I meant a kiss on the lips. Anyway, I can go with it.

I take a deep breath and rest my head on the window as I close my eyes wanting to fall asleep. I feel exhausted.

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I wrap my arms around myself as I enjoy the cold breeze. The beach view is one of the best things, my eyes move over to the swimming pool where couples are going horny. I look up at the setting sun and think about how impressive it is... all alone.

Sun was probably born in a group of stars, but later escaped or simply fell out of the group. Sun may have been pushed away due to an encounter with another star or a much larger object, such as a molecular cloud but whatever it always rises in the morning and sets in the evening, that's what matters.

No, I am not comparing my life with Sun it's just a sort of inspiration. I fell out of my family that doesn't mean my life is over. I have so much to do. I need to rise every day but can set every day too. Everyone is allowed to have good and bad times in a day.

I look at the sunset's warm color and the warm power of it makes me smile a little. I feel a little captivated by the awe-inspiring colors of the sky and I feel a little lost.

I can be a really calm person when I am alone or when I want to be or if I like the opposite person. I love these moments with myself. I sigh as I reach for my phone knowing this moment is counted.

I rest my back on the glass railing and hold up my phone to take a selfie. The smile just comes, genuinely, and I snap the picture with the sunset and beach in the background.

I set my phone down on the table and face the ocean again wondering where Neil has gone.

Considering the 12-hour time difference from New York to Bali when we landed here it was around 10:30 in the morning.

We are staying at Double-Six Luxury Hotel Seminyak. The check-in began with refreshing welcome drinks and the manager's warm greeting. The room is very luxurious and I loved all the romantic settings done.

As soon as we stepped into the room we both rushed to the bed but I know Neil took shower in the middle because when I woke up to the sounds of his snorting his hair was damp. It's a good thing I was too exhausted to care about my hormones but I am glad he endured after saying to me I didn't want to push it. Huh, was he even serious?

We slept throughout the day and got up in between when our phones rang and we yelled at each other to turn them off. I woke up around 4 p.m. but he wasn't there so I took a shower, changed into a floral dress made some coffee, and went through Instagram.

Lee shared a picture of us with him on his story and congratulated us. A few of his fans have tagged me on their stories and congratulated us.

I just want Jason and Rose to see it and show them I am doing good. I don't care I am going to look like a fool when we are divorced because then I'll have something with me.

I take a few photos that Lee's friends have been forwarding and post them on my Instagram. Jason, Rose, and I didn't unfollow each other because... okay, well, I don't know.

"So, you finally woke up."

I look over my shoulder and I roll my eyes at him as he steps into the balcony.

"I thought I might have to kiss you to wake you up." He grins at me.

I ignore his remark though I wouldn't mind if he would have done that maybe I would have loved it.

He looks good-looking as usual in his white t-shirt and jeans.

"I hate your snorting!" I tell him as he stands beside me recalling how annoying it was.

"I didn't ask you to love it." He rolls his eyes at me and then faces the ocean view.

The only thing I love about him is he ignores what happened the other day and starts a new day as a fresh one. I would be in a very bad mood now if he asked me why I was crying or why I was sad.

"Where did you go?" I ask curiously.

He turns to look at me and he pauses for a moment. "Running some errands."

I nod suppressing myself from asking questions further. We are not supposed to ask unnecessary questions to the other one and I need to follow the rule. It's mine after all.

I thought the first thing after sleep would be going to a drugstore.

"You won the bet," I say. "Can I know what you want in return now?"

"Right." He nods as he steps closer to me. I look at him as he reaches out to hold my hand in his.

"This may be a very stupid thing anyone would ask after winning a bet." He says slowly. "But fuck, who cares?"

"I don't." I smile at him and he grins. "And whoever cares doesn't matter. It's between us, Neil and Avni."

"Right." He says and he sighs. "I don't want you to get the wrong idea about this but I just want us to enjoy this honeymoon to the fullest. No arguments, no phones, no past, no future. Just the present, the only gift we get every day."

"I don't believe this is what you had on your mind when you wanted to win this bet," I say. "But fuck, who cares?"

He chuckles softly and I smile at him. "I don't mind enjoying my honeymoon with my husband to the fullest," I add with a wink.

It's not only about me wanting to get over this sexual tension, I need distractions from my life. I don't care what his reasons are all I care about is this makes me happy. All I care about is this makes me forget about my bad decisions, enjoy this moment, and when I go back to the headquarters as Mrs. Khanna I do my best.

"I went to the drugstore if you still haven't figured out." He says as he wraps his arms around me.

I raise my eyebrows. "Good."

He chuckles as he looks at me. "You look like a rose in this red floral dress." He says quietly as he pins me against the railing.

I know he meant well but that doesn't make me feel happy as it should. I keep my hand on his chest as I maintain eye contact with him.

"Got my thorns, too," I declare. "Might make people bleed."

His eyes bore mine and I suddenly feel my heart beating hard against my chest but I am not about to look away from him.

"Rose has soft petals, too." He says to me almost whispering even though we are alone.

"I know. People don't care about the softness, all they care about is the hurt." I say bitterly. "No matter how stunning the rose smells, how delicate its petals feel people toss it down as soon as a throne pricks their finger."

He reaches out to hold my hand and he laces his fingers through mine. I can feel myself getting nervous with his gaze, I look down at our hands as he rubs his thumb over my knuckles.

"Forget it." He says and I look up at him. "You are not taking it the way I meant it."

I watch as he leans down to kiss me, I take in a sharp breath as he keeps his lips pressed against mine for a moment. I let his hand go and wrap my arms around his neck.

"Your cramp is okay?" He asks against my lips.

"All good," I mumble as I close my eyes and lock our lips.

His lips feel soft against mine and then we begin to kiss impatiently after a moment. He grips my waist and his lips move hard against mine as I move my hand to the back of his neck. I can hear our breathings get heavy and our kisses sound.

His hands roam all over my body making each part of my body feel the heat. We pull back when we run out of breath and he leans down to kiss my neck. I pull my head back feeling myself getting wild.

He wraps his both arms around me holding me safe as I lean my back against the railing and throw my head back. I run my hands through my hair as I feel the cool breeze and I can hear the shores crashing. I open my eyes and realize it's getting dark and there are lights lightened all around.

I let out a moan as he sucks on my skin, I reach out to keep my arm on his shoulder and my grip on him tightens as I feel him go lower.

I am breathless in a few minutes and straighten up to kiss him. He holds my face in his hands as we deepen the kiss, the eye contact we maintain makes the moment intimate.

"Oh." I gasp as he turns me around and I grip the railing as his hand goes down to my thighs.

His touch is electrifying and it drives me crazy turning me on with each of his strokes.

"Do you mind it here?" He asks in my ear.

I feel my body getting hotter with each second he pushes his against mine.

"I don't," I say breathlessly.

My heart beats hard against my chest as I hear him unwrap the packet and unbuckle his belt. The surroundings look a lot more beautiful than did a while ago because of the beautiful lighting all around.

He wraps his arm around my waist and I wait in anticipation to feel him and when I do I hear the moment we both gasp. He waits for a moment before he plunges his hips against mine from the back.

I curl my toes as I move my hand to the back of his neck and he leans down to kiss me. I pull away not able to keep up with him, he puts my hair to the side and kisses my neck.

"You are beautiful." He mumbles as he presses a kiss on my shoulder.

"Oh my God." I moan in disbelief as I feel the pleasure all over my body. My eyes roll back as he drives us to climax.

"Fuck." I hear him grunt as we finish up, I feel the shocks of pleasure run down my body and we stand still for a moment trying to catch our breath.

I sigh and I turn around slowly. He pecks my lips as he keeps his arms around me. He looks messy yet handsome.

"I have something to tell you."