I really didn't want to meet anyone today, even I was too reluctant to see myself in the mirror. I didn't know, who should be responsible with my condition now.. I really didn't know

After the dawn prayer, I fell down my body on the bed again, and covered my whole body with blanket. I was so weak, perhaps I lack sleep because a third of my night I spent with crying.

I took my laptop from the desk next to my bed, laptop is the one of the most precious treasure that I have now dan also my friend when I was bored. Maybe watched korean drama for a while time could help me to forget about my problem.

Suddenly, I heard someone knock the door, whoever it is, I really don't want to meet him. I closed my eyes, and pretended to sleep, deemed that no one there. But the rap is getting louder.

"Assalamualaikum" the man's voice through the door made me shocked.

"Nugi? What does he want to come here?" I walked weakly to the flat's door, correctly guess, Nugi had been standing in front of the door with neatly dressed, wore dark shirt with brown blazer along the thigh, smart student's style. Since the beginning, I've been able to guess that he can adapt easily with fashion in this country.

"how odd, what do you want to come to my flat?" I asked. it's the second time he came to my flat. The first time he came here when he picked me up from airport. After that we never met directly anymore. But sometimes I sent a message or called him if I wanted to ask something about this country.

He didn't reply my question instead he just notice my face. "Did you just cry?"

I shook my head, lied. I forgot about my puffy eyes, the rest of my weep last night. "Let's come in!"

"what do you want?" I repeated my question. "I've said that if you want to meet me, we can meet at caffee. Because this room is too small for both of us" I said, I tidied up the books which scattered on the floor and put it into drawer . "don't you go to campus today ?"

"yes, I do. But at the afternoon. I just want to know about your condition" he replied. Then he grabbed my laptop on the bed. "Do you watch this drama again? How many time that you have watched it?" he giggled.

I grabbed my laptop from his hand, "I'm bored, all of the drama that I have, I have watched it all. Maybe I have to look for free wifi to download again"

"I bring some book, it will help you to face University entrance exam" he gave me the paper bag that he brought. "And also a few snacks"

"Thanks for the books. It will be better if you bring me some staple foods for me survive three or four days to go" I smiled weakly and took the paper bag. "do you want to drink?" I opened the small refrigerator in the corner of the room.

"Actually, your mother called me last night" he said. "She asked me about your condition"I sighted his face curiously, "so, what did you say?"

"you still don't want to call her" he sighed, "Nasya, please!! Don't be stubborn!!"

"I can't do it"

"But she worry about your condition"

"I'm embarrassed. Because until now I haven't gotten a job" I replied slowly. I bit my lip, tried to hold back my tears. "It has been the sixth time my application is rejected. I'm tired!"

"Come on Sya! Don't give up!" he exclaimed. "you've been just two months in Sydney. You still have many opportunities"

"If I were a talented person, it would be so easy for me look for a job" I breathed.

"Don't say that!. I also have no talent, but I could get a job. Trust me, you will get a job soon" he smiled at me.

"You have no talent, but at least you have that" I pointed his forehead. Nugi was a intelligent student and friendly, so no wonder if he could get a job at hotel easily. And next year he also will get fellowship but now he confused which one he have to choose because the fellowship that he got didn't allow to take a part time job. He prefer to college while working now, because he said that he wanted to feel the life challenges and also got much experience.

If I were as fortunate as him, I would spend my time to study hard than have to work hard.

"I heard that you like creat a story, and also won several competitions. Why don't you became an author ? and make a novel, and you also could get money?"

"I've thought about that, but make a novel is not a easy thing and also need much time. It will be difficult for me, because I have to prepare myself to face University entrance exam. And couldn't get the money directly" I stared out the window. "And I don't have to come here if just want to be an author"

He nodded at my explanation.

"I don't know, what is my fault. I feel the plight is always around me" I sighed

"Plight?" he giggled at my statement. "Maybe you have a fault at the past so that now your life has a lot of trouble"

"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.

"For example, you've ever made a mistake to someone, and Allah is responding all of your fault now" he explained.

"Such a curse ?"

"I don't know it can be called a curse or not. But I believe what we did at past is very influential with our life now" he explained,

"I think I never make a big mistake to someone, because I always talk to someone politely. But why my life so pain now ?" I asked him seriously, need his answer. "Even a thief who always make a mistake to everyone doesn't have a destiny as bad as me"

He didn't reply my question, instead he hitted my head with book in his hand, "That's pain!" I screamed.

"Where do you know that someone's live is better than yours?"

"I just guess it" I shrugged.

"don't think that someone else is more blessed than you are because actually you are blessed in different ways"

I nodded, "I'm sorry, I hope what you said is true"

"Are you sure that you've never made a big mistake to someone?"

I shook my head quickly, "I never think about that"

"Don't you remember when you pretended to cry because I didn't allow you to truant from our meeting at club. So that everyone blamed me and called me an evil leader. And until now you've not apologized to me"

I laughed remember that moment, "You still remember it? Yes, I know my acting was very nice"

"By the way, have you decided what major you want to take?"

I shrugged. Suddenly my mood changed when I remember that I'm going to college next year.

"why don't you take acting major? You said that your acting is nice. And become an actres" he laughed out loud.

"Are you kidding me?"

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