Pain.

A numb and sickening feeling rocked my core.
How could I let this happen to her again? I promised I would keep her safe; now she's in the evil clutches of...him.

Smoke filled my office as I Inhaled roll after roll, each one only dulling the misery I felt.
The drugs couldn't take away my guilt nor could it release my anger and stress like it normally did.

My eyes were glued to the note that was sitting in the middle of my wooden desk.

He was taunting me, this was what he wanted.

For me to slip slowly into indefinite madness.

-Knock knock- The sound pounded in my head

A slow whisper left my lips, but it was full of conviction and power. "Leave me". For I wanted to be alone, the only light in my life was somewhere unseen, getting god knows what done to her.

"Lucien, you can't just sit in here. She's out there. She needs you..."John stated ignoring my demand. I could recognize the guilt in his face as well. They became close, very close, closer than I sometimes wanted to admit.

They had a relationship that surprised me, but know I could see that he missed her.

Standing up and pulling my gun, aiming the killing machine for the middle of his forehead.

My vision was blurred and my hands shook. "Don't fucking tell me what to do, "I said quivering, the black metal in my hand making his go stiff. "You're my best friend, my right hand -my brother. But I'm still your boss. I demand respect!" my voice was crisp as he just stood there, blankly. Taking my threats.

Looking at me not moving to leave it up to fate and me whether he would get shot. John knew me better than any of my other men, he has been with me since childhood. When I had no one he was there.

My breath was shaky as I dropped the gun, my hand falling to my side."Where the fuck is she John?"

He just gave me a look of regret, like he wanted to answer but could find no words. I said plainly to his lack of silence "I can't lose her John."

"I know, none of us want to lose her. She's as much of a sister to me as you are my brother. He would have killed her already if he was going to. So she's most likely okay..."

"You don't know that!"I scream at him, my pain for the first time was on my sleeves for all to see. He just bowed his head not looking me in the eyes. I disregarded his statement completely, it was like I could barely think. The only thing in my mind is that she wasn't here.

I couldn't sleep either all I could see in our room was her empty side of the bed; where she usually messed up the covers and through all the pillows on the floor.

"I can't lose her. Because if I do...
I will lose my friend
My soulmate
My smile
My love.
If I lose her then I'm nothing."

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Kiara POV

"You sick, pervert, piece of absolute dog shit"
I barked as the man threw me into a cell. Not before pulling the fabric off my head, one made of black non-see-through fabric.

The brisk strong set man chuckled fixing his suit, this man was undoubtedly Lucien's father. They shared uncanny looks from their black misty hair his now a peppercorn, steady jawline and perfect white straight teeth.

The suit fit him well despite his age, and watches and rings lined his fingers and wrists.
The only thing setting them apart was their eye color. Lucien's was an unforgettable, indescribable mesmerizing steel.

while his fathers were an eerie and power lustrous hell filled green. "Don't flatter me too much sweetheart. The fun hasn't even started" he chuckled again like this was just one big joke to him. His figure fading away as he retreats to leave me in the plain dark cell.
"What fun?" I say blankly, starring at him my eyes wide open.

On my self, the only thing I was wearing was one of Lucien's white dress shirts. It reeked with his addictive scent, the cologne that he wore didn't completely come out.

"Now, Why would I tell you that?"A smile crossing his iced out hands across his chest. Biting my lip I stood up straighter "please tell me"

He smiled, taking my please as a sort of beg. But I won't ever beg, not for anything of his.
He prayed on my looks, like a predator he eyed me up and down like I was his next meal. We stayed silent for a moment before he interrupted the peace. "You can do a lot better than Lucien, quite frankly as soon as I found out about your disgraceful marriage I was disgusted."

way to rip off the bandage you cuntfuck

Shaking my head and looking at the place where my wedding ring should be, I took it off and placed it on the sink back home before..."I can't do better than Lucien, he's the best there is. So how bout you fuck off and shut up about your irrelevant opinions on my marriage and let me go?"

Sighing he took a step closer to my cell. "Your only saying you want him because his knuckles go deep." he snapped at me and I clenched my teeth. "But I could please you, in ways you don't even know. All you would have to do is...beg"

He said solidly, his eyes covered in silly lust.
A shiver of disgust chained my body. As if I'd ever let this sack of cat piss fuck me."I'm not into creepy old men so piss off. I would never beg of you. ever." The last word like knives I threw at him, taking him off his high horse for just a moment.

He just sucks air through his teeth and moves his head shaking it. Like I made a big mistake, like a plan he had was much more rooted then I knew. He quickly spun on his heels heading for the door that would seal me in the dark space.

"Why are you doing this?" I ask hastily and he stops, his malicious glare focusing on me. "I will make this simple for you since you don't seem very smart." his dad insults and I give him the finger, a laugh gripping his lips.

He sucked in a breath before saying "my son has never loved anything before like he loves you. without his mother influence, I knew I could make him just like me. After all like father like son"

"He's nothing like you" I scowled, walking up to the cells of the bar. "That's where your wrong!"Lucien's twisted father screamed at me, the vein popping out of his forehead.

this man then said "He's everything like me! The things he's done it's only an amount of time until he's under my foot. Once your out of the picture, Kiara Blackwell,"he smiled as he used my maiden name and he saw me crumble my nose and eyebrows. "he will be just like his mother before she died. Broken and influential."

I once believed that someone couldn't be completely evil, that only in books and fairytales that such a twisted son of a bitch could exist. But his dad is living fucking proof that I was wrong. "I won't let that happen"I smile, thinking of every promise I made to Lucien. Every promise I made to come back to him. "It seems that it just isn't that simple, it's not up to you whether I kill or keep you."
Keep me?

"You won't get away with this. You know he is going to kill you." my words spat at him.

Lucien dad just laughed, a monstrosity of an act of joy. "I know that he most likely will once he finds out what I've done to you"

"....but at least I will have had the last fucking laugh." he smiled before gripping my shirt and punching my face through the bars, my visions blurring as a sharp pain hit me.

Stumbling back and onto the floor, I spit out blood. "Hitting girls? I knew you were a coward!"I screamed at him as his dark figure walked care-freely away.

stopping his foxing endeavor, he looks back at me. Keeping the last bit of his record plan a secret. "Say hi to the rats for me!" he laughed as the slam of a steel door trapped me in crushing darkness once again.

How could I let this happen again?

Pulling my shaky hand to my lip, I felt blood and I cursed many words before laying on the floor. The scurry of rodents the least of my worries.

My eyes closing as I repeated Lucien's name in my head trying to picture his beautiful face before I fell unconscious. A slave to the darkness