Song^ Lost In The Moment by NF

One Year Later

I ran my hand through my hair and took slow deep breaths as my nerves were trying to get the best of me at the moment. I knew this day was coming, I mean, I've known for months now, but now that it has arrived, everything seems too real and I can't take the pressure.

I looked at myself in the mirror and thought about everything. I couldn't bring myself to do it, but I knew that I had to and that there was nothing else I could do.

It was time.

I heard footsteps up the stairs and I turned to see Genevieve walking in. She looked at me, "There you are. Everyone was wondering where you were," she walked towards me and I knew that she could see my nerves. "It's going to be ok," she reassured as she stared at me.

I didn't want to cry. I cried too much for the last few months, and I didn't need to do that anymore. I hated crying, and it seemed like that's all I ever do now and I don't know why.

Oh, because everything was ending.

It wasn't a bad ending, but it was the kind that kept you wanting more but you knew that no matter what happened, it had to come to an end anyway.

All good things do.

Genevieve pulled me into a hug and I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her back. I sighed as my head rested on her shoulder and I felt myself calm down for a moment.

We pulled back and I could see her eyes glistering. I groaned, "Genevieve, please don't cry," I begged.

She chuckled and wiped her eyes, "I'm not crying, I have something in my eyes," I rolled my eyes as I watched her look around the room. "Moving all this shit makes dust fly everywhere," she looked at me and I chuckled. She smiled, "We better get downstairs or everyone is going to be wondering where you are,"

I nodded, "Yeah, I guess it's time to face reality," she smiled and wrapped her arm around my shoulder as we walked downstairs where everyone was sitting in the living room.

The empty living room with nothing but a couch, but soon that will be gone too. Like everything else.

We walked in the living room and everyone looked towards us, "Where were you?" Richard asked as he looked at me.

I shrugged, "Trying to collect as many memories as I can," I could see something in his eyes but I waved it away.

"It seems unreal," Billy spoke as he looked at me. "Everything that happened and now it's ending,"

Richard looked at him, "Don't call this the ending because it's not," he looked at me and slightly smiled. "Call is a new beginning to a better life,"

I shook my head, "It's not better if none of y'all are going to be there," I looked around at everyone as they looked at me.

Richard, Billy, Stephanie, Genevieve, Elysia, Diane, Rose, Elaine, and Phyllis were probably the only things I have left in this world and leaving them seems to tear me apart inside.

Phyllis spoke, "Sis, everyone has to go through changes and it's going to get better, I promise you this. We're all right here when you need us," everyone nodded and I felt a little better knowing that I still had them even when I'm gone.

I smiled, "Thank you," I looked at everyone. "Thank you all. I don't know what I would do without you because you're the best thing that's happened to me,"

I heard Diane, "Aw! Group hug!" she got up as everyone else did and we all hugged for a moment.

After we pulled back, I heard the front door open and I turned to see some more movers walk in. They smiled at us as they walked upstairs and I felt a pang of sadness inside of me.

As I was standing there watching everyone talk, I thought of something and I quickly ran upstairs. I ran into the bedroom to see the movers grabbing some boxes, and I quickly looked around in the boxes for that one specific thing that only I wanted to carry out.

I saw it laying on top of everything in a box that one of the movers had and I smiled, "I can take this one,"

He looked at me, "You sure?"

I nodded, "Yeah, this is personal and I want it with me," he nodded and went to grab another box as I walked downstairs.

I heard everyone talking in the living room as I walked outside to my car and placed the box in the passenger seat. I looked down and saw it staring at me and I felt my heart beat quicken as I slowly grabbed it.

Carol's journal.

I pushed back the tears as I sat it back down in the box without opening it. Whatever was inside, was still none of my business and I will not invade her privacy.

I walked back inside trying to push this sadness aside for a while so I can at least enjoy my last few moments with the people I love.

I walked in the living room and saw everyone talking as I sat down next to Richard. He smiled at me and wrapped his arm around my shoulder, "Are you ok?" I nodded and sighed. He kept looking at me, "I know it's hard, but you'll make it," he rubbed my arm and continued to look at me. "You know it's time, Terry,"

I stared at him as I felt my heart drop when the next words left his mouth, "Time to move on,"

I shook my head as I felt tears threatening to spill, "I can't," I sighed. "Not without you, or anyone," I looked around at everyone and felt so much sadness building up inside of me.

He got up and motioned for me to follow. I followed him outside and we stopped in front of my car and I watched as he leaned on the hood. He looked at me, "It's hard, Terry. I know it's hard. This is different for you, but I know you'll make it. You're strong, and you can fight through whatever you face. You're hard headed, so no doubt that your new life won't be hard," he chuckled as I smiled. "You're going to make it, Terry. You're going to kick realities ass and you're going to be ok,"

I stared at him for a moment, realising that what he's saying is true. I will be ok, and I am strong enough to face this.

I nodded, "Thanks Richard. I needed that," I hugged him as he hugged me back and I couldn't ask for a better best friend.

"Now, let's go be with everyone before our time is up," we started walking to the front door until I heard a car pull up.

I turned around and watched as the taxi came to a stop. I waited until they got out of the back seat and my heart sped up as they leaned in to grab something.

I watched as they shut the door and started walking up the driveway with a smile on their face that would always put everyone is a great mood no matter what.

She stopped in front of me and I felt like my breath was caught in my throat. She smiled, "I saw the new house," she searched my eyes. "It's beautiful, Terry. We're going to love it," she held onto our baby as she smiled at me.

I smiled, "I already know that I am," I chuckled as she smiled. I looked at our baby boy and smiled. "Come here, Louis," I said as I grabbed him and held him in my arms.

I smiled at him as he looked at me and I couldn't have been more in love if I tried. He was seven months old and he was already a mess.

I looked back at Carol as she was smiling at me, "He's beginning to act like you,"

I gave her a confused look, "How?" I asked.

She chuckled, "I went to sit him down on the floor in the new house and he started crawling away before I even turned around,"

I smiled as I looked at him and he looked back at me. "Are you going to be like me? Run away from your problems?" he smiled at me and I chuckled. I looked at Carol, "I guess so," I smiled as I stared at her. "I missed you,"

She smiled, "I was only gone for a few days,"

I shrugged, "I still missed you. You were gone too long," she smiled at me.

Carol left to go see our new house up state, and I have been missing her like crazy. I had to get everything out of the house before she got back, and it was a hassle until I realised that I could call my friends to come and do it for me.

If you thought something happened by the way I was acting, then I apologize. I can't help but feel depressed when she's not near.

Richard spoke after a moment, "Everyone is waiting inside, let's go," I rolled my eyes at how impatient he was.

Carol and I walked inside after him and I held onto Louis as we walked into the living room. Out of everyone, only one person freaked out when they saw Louis.

"Baby!" Elysia got up and ran to me. I chuckled as I handed her Louis and I watched her as she held him and smiled.

I heard Genevieve, "Cam, no,"

Elysia looked at her and pouted, "Shut up. I can have baby fever if I want," she looked back at Louis and smiled.

I chuckled as I looked at Genevieve, "Hey, Genevieve. Don't you think it's time anyways? I mean, you're about to be married, so what's the point of waiting?"

When I first found out that Genevieve and Elysia were together for eight years without any signs of marriage or engagements anytime soon, it shocked me. That was until I found out that Genevieve had an engagement ring for the past five years, but never gave it to her.

When I asked why, she asked if I remembered when we first met and she said that her relationship was complicated, and of course, I did. Well, she said that she didn't know if she was ready or not, and she was waiting for the right time.

All in all, it was the cutest shit ever and I got to be a part of it when she did propose to her.

I laid my head on Carol's shoulder and I felt her wrap her arm around my shoulder. I smiled as I looked at everyone and thought about how different everything was about change.

*

It was a few hours later, and the movers were ready to leave. Carol and I were outside with everyone and I knew that this part was going to be the hardest part of this. I didn't know if I would be able to hold it together.

Carol held Louis as I walked over to the first person that I wanted to say goodbye to.

Phyllis.

I pulled her into a hug and she rubbed my back, "I'll miss you baby sister," she pulled back and looked at me. "Take care of yourself up there, ok?" I nodded as I felt tears in my eyes. She wiped my eyes and smiled at me, "It's going to be ok. I'll be only a phone call away,"

I sighed, "I know," I felt my voice crack. "It's hard because mom is down here too," I stared at her as she nodded.

"You can come visit her whenever you want," she tucked my hair behind my ear then kissed my forehead. "I love you, and I know that this is a new journey for the both of us, but just know that I'm always here for you and I'm so proud of the woman that you've become," she smiled at me.

I felt a tear fall as I brought her into a hug. I wanted to cry, but damn it, I had to stay strong. If I broke down, everyone would break down.

We pulled back and I stepped to the next person.

Richard.

I smiled at him as he smiled back, "Well, we made it this far. Who knew?" he shrugged and I chuckled.

"I'll miss your stupid self," I smiled at him. "You're my best friend and the greatest. I hope you know that," he smiled as I continued. "I never knew that I would need someone when my life was the way it was back then, but I'm glad that I met you because I couldn't live without you," I pulled him into a hug.

He rubbed my back, "Be safe up there, and call me every now and then," we pulled back and I nodded.

I hugged Stephanie next. "I'll miss you, Terry,"

I smiled as we pulled back, "I'll miss you too," I looked at Richard then her, "Take care of him, ok?" she chuckled but nodded. I rubbed her stomach as I smiled. "And I want to be here when the baby is born," I smiled at her as she nodded.

"You're the first person on the call list," she smiled.

Next in line was Billy. I smiled at him, "I'm going to miss you the least," he made a face and I chuckled. "I'm kidding. I'm glad I got to know you the last year of high school,"

He nodded, "Yeah. It would have been more fun if we met sooner, but whatever," he smiled then pulled me into a hug. "Good luck, Terry,"

I smiled as we pulled back then stepped over to be in front of a green eyed girl. I smiled, "Genevieve,"

She smiled, "I told myself that I would not cry," she wiped her eyes and I chuckled. She looked at me, "It was nice knowing you,"

I rolled my eyes, "We'll see each other again,"

She nodded, "I hope so. I'm glad I met you because you're seriously the best person ever," she chuckled. "Besides Ely,"

I chuckled and pulled her into a hug. "I'll miss you, Genevieve,"

She rubbed my back, "I'll miss you too," we pulled back and she smiled. "Go and kick ass up there,"

I chuckled and stepped in front of Elysia. She pulled back into a hug without warning. "I'm glad I got to meet you," I smiled as I hugged her back. She pulled back and smiled, "Take care,"

I nodded and smiled. Genevieve's friends were next, and even though I didn't know them for long, it was still great to meet them. We hugged and talked for a moment until I knew that it was time to leave.

I turned to Carol as she was watching me. I smiled at her as I walked to her and turned to look at everyone. I smiled at them as I felt tears in my eyes and I knew that this was the ending, but it was also a new beginning.

We said our last goodbyes as we were walking to the car. I looked over at Carol and handed her the keys, "You can drive,"

She smiled and handed over Louis as she grabbed the keys. I walked to the car and strapped him in the back seat and made sure that it was tight and secured.

Carol got in and I slid into the passenger seat. I took one last look at the house and everyone in front of it as they were waving and I felt my heart drop at the sight that I was about to leave forever.

We pulled out of the driveway and soon enough, the house became a memory in the distant and was gone.

As the ride went on, I was lost in my thoughts as I watched the world go by outside. I felt sadness in my heart, but also love for everyone that I was leaving behind. But I knew that they weren't memories that would soon fade, because I knew that when I needed them, they would be there.

I felt my hand being squeezed and I looked over at Carol as she was smiling at me. "It's ok,"

I nodded and squeezed her hand back, "I know it is. But I'm going to miss everything and everyone,"

This was the place I grew up in. This was a place where so many memories were held and always would be in the back of my mind. I knew that I would never forget this place, and even though I'm going to be living in another state, it doesn't mean my heart doesn't still belong to this one.

I heard Carol, "This is our new beginning," she smiled at me.

I smiled back, "That's what Richard said," I looked down at our hands and thought. "This new beginning is what we need," I looked up as she was nodding. "We need this to start our family, and no matter what, the people we left behind will not be forgotten,"

She shook her head, "Of course not. They're always going to be there, and we can go visit whenever," she smiled at me. She kissed my hand and sighed, "I love you, Therese," she looked at me and smiled. "With all my heart,"

I smiled back, "I love you, Carol Aird,"

I looked out the window at the background fading into the distance and I thought about my life here and everything I went through, and everything that happened and how far I've come to this day.

I come to realise that my mom has always been with me throughout my journey, even though at times I didn't know she was. I knew she was watching over me, and I want to thank her for always being there for me. I didn't know my life was going to get better, but it did and I was grateful for it.

As the life I'm leaving behind fades into the distant, I know that one day I will come back to it and remember how far I have come.

So, this is goodbye.

The End

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I hope you enjoyed the sequel as much as the first book, thank you for reading it! Don't forget that the story isn't mine and that all credits go to the talented callmeCRAZY8 and i would recommend reading her stories, they're very good!

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Author's note (@callmeCRAZY8 ): I've come this far and I couldn't thank everyone enough for the support! I love each and everyone of you!