I heaved a sigh as I got in the cab. Kinakabahan ako sa gagawin ko. It's like I lost my mind about what happened earlier, and here I am making the most of the opportunity to go to the party because there is a part of my heart that really wants to see Jhon Rey.

It was seven o'clock in the evening when I arrived at Jhon Rey's unit. My heart is racing like crazy. I looked at myself and saw the gift I had prepared in my hand. Ang dami kong pinagdaanan para lang makarating dito.

I smiled when I rang the doorbell.

It was only a few moments before the door opened. I was greeted by the noise inside as well as the colorful lights dancing in the void. I looked at the man who opened the door for me.

"Yes? What can I do for you?"

Kumunot ang noo ko sa lalaking bumungad sa akin. Matangkad at maputi. Maganda ang pagkakaayos ng buhok. Medyo chinito.

"Ahh...Nand'yan ba si Jhon Rey?" nag-aalangan kong tanong dahil hindi naman ako sanay sa maiingay na lugar.

"Oh, you were invited. Halika, pasok ka."

I followed him. I was surprised at how the whole unit changed because of this event. It looks like a bar. A lot of girls and guys are dancing wildly to the beat. Some are drinking and laughing together. Mukhang nag-eenjoy talaga sila.

"Drink?" He took a glass of wine and gave it to me.

"T-thank you," sagot ko bago ko iyon inabot. Hindi ko nga alam bakit ko kinuha. Sa hiya siguro.

"Cheers?"

"Huh? Y-yes."

I accompanied him to drink. Gumuhit sa lalamunan ko ang tapang ng alak. This is my first time drinking an alcoholic beverage, and it tastes awful. Para akong masusuka na mauubo. My head immediately hurts too, and I feel a little dizzy right after I drink that wine.

"You're looking for the birthday boy, right? He's upstairs or maybe in his room."

Tumango ako at dagling ngumiti kahit pa hindi ko siya masyadong maintindihan.

"What is your name?" tanong niya.

"Sheen," I simply answered. "Sheen May Velasco."

"Velasco?" Nakita ko ang pagkunot ng kaniyang mga kilay na para bang duda siya sa pagkatao ko. "I'm Paolo, by the way. Paolo Rod."

Ngumiti na lamang ako tsaka ko iniabot sa kaniya ang kamay ko para makipag-shake hands. Tinuro niya sa akin ang kwarto ni Jhon Rey na siyang alam ko naman dahil nakapunta na ako rito. Muntik pa nga akong tumira kung hindi lang na-cancel 'yong sociology project namin.

Napatigil ako sa paglalakad nang mapansing umiikot ang paningin ko. It's like my world is turning upside down. Nahihilo talaga ako. Maging ang init sa katawan ko'y lalong tumataas. Ultimo pawis ko'y nagsisilabasan. Ito na yata ang tama ng alak na nainom ko.

Napasinghap ako nang makita ko si Jhon Rey malapit sa pintuan. Hindi ko inaasahan ang makikita ko. He was wearing long black sleeves tucked into his black trousers. The two upper buttons of his clothes were open. He is wearing a rolex watch. Her hair is a bit messy, which makes him look so fine and hot.

Nakatitig lang ako sa kaniya nang matagal nang mapagtanto kong narito nga pala ako para ibigay sa kaniya ang regalo at batiin siya. I was about to say hi when someone approached him, and she immediately grabbed her nape and kissed her.

Nanglalaki ang mga mata ko habang nakaawang ang bibig. My heart beats extremely fast, louder than the bass here inside his unit. I gasped. Is that really the man I know?

My heart almost jumped out of my chest when I saw him making out with that girl. I can't believe I am seeing him like this. Naumid ang dila ko at muling naalala ang gabing pinagsaluhan namin ang mga labi ng isa't isa. Natutuyuan ako ng lalamunan.

I snapped myself back to reality. I don't know if it's the right time to show myself to him. My cheeks are turning red. It feels like I am watching explicit things right in front of me. My body felt hot at the moment. Hindi ako makakakilos kahit gustuhin ko nang umalis. Pinagmamasdan ko lang silang dalawang inuubos ang hangin ng isa't isa. Nakikita ko pa kung paano gumagapang ang mga kamay nila.

I feel jealous of what he is doing to that woman. I suddenly felt I wanted to be in that position. I want him to be there, kissing him. I want him to touch me. I want us to embrace each other.

Napapikit na lamang ako habang pinakakalma ang sariling pag-iisip. Maybe it was because of the alcohol, that is why I keep thinking things. I'm becoming delusional. I sighed. Maybe the idea of coming here was not good.

I opened my eyes, and I was surprised when I saw Jhon Rey's gaze deviate to me. I didn't expect the intensity of his stares, as if I were the one for whom he had been waiting for a long time. He was looking at me while kissing that girl. It was hurting me deep inside.

Akmang aalis na ako nang masurpresa sa pagtulak niya sa babaeng iyon at mabilis niyang paglapit sa akin. I was even more surprised when he kissed me passionately. I was stunned for a moment, and my hands were gripping his clothes. It feels like I was brought into another universe where he and I are free to be with each other.

Nakakalasing ang mga halik niya. Nalalasahan ko ang pait ng alak na ininom niya na naghahalo sa lawa ko. Hindi ako makakilos.

"Jhon rey..." I mumbled when I felt his hands touch my waist and his other hand on my neck.

I clenched my fists. I couldn't stop him anymore. I was just dreaming about this earlier, and now this is truly happening.

I can hear my heartbeat between the gaps of our catching breaths. Wala na akong pakialam sa mga taong nakapaligid sa amin. I am just focused on what we are doing. Nakakalunod at kahit ako'y hindi ko na mapigilang tumugon sa mga halik niya.

"Hmmm..."

I just realized that we had entered his room. This is where I used to sleep. My desire for him increased even more. I want to sleep with him and make love all night long.

He leaned me against the wall and held me in his arms as he continued to kiss me down to my neck.

"Sheen..." he whispered, making me feel drunk and aroused.

Mas tumitindi ang init na nararamdaman ko sa bawat pag-usal niya sa pangalan ko na para bang alam niya kung sino ako at desidido siya sa ginagaw anamin. Ngayon, hindi ko na talaga kayang pigilan pa ang sarili ko.

Patuloy niya lang akong hinahalikan hanggang sa mawalan kami ng hininga. We stopped just to look into each other's eyes, connecting our souls. It seems like he's asking me if I want to continue. Hindi ko na rin gustong maudlot pa ito. My body wants him.

"Jhon rey..." Binuhat niya ako bago inihiga sa malambot na kama. Pumaibabaw siya sa akin at sinimulang tanggalin ang mga damit ko. He kissed my neck. He absorbed it tirelessly. He did the same to my breasts. Hindi ko inaasahang magagawa niya iyon nang mabilis.

I shut my eyes in pleasure. I stifled my own moan, but I could feel the height of my longing for him. I like what he does to me.

"Open your eyes. It'll be your first time seeing this."

I felt my cheeks turn red. I couldn't even look at him when he told me that. I feel shy. Lalo na nang isa-isa niyang binuksan ang mga butones ng black long sleeves niya.

Does he know that he looks so hot when he does that?

I gulped when his attractive body was exposed to me. I was right when I said that he must be working out because I can clearly see on his body the hard work he has done. He looks so fine. It takes my breath away; I want to touch him—his muscles, abs, biceps, and... I pursed my lips.

Nag-uumapaw ang kaligayahan ko at alam kong nababakas 'yon ni Jhon Rey sa mukha ko. Ang totoong kalayaan at pagmamahal na hindi ko nakukuha mula sa pamilya ko ay siyang ipaparamdam niya sa akin ngayon.

Muli niya akong hinalikan at kasunod no'n ay ang paghubad niya ng kaniyang pantalon. I was insanely nervous biting my lip as his kisses came down—to my chest, down to my stomach.

Until...

He pulled down my underwear. I arched my back when he touched it.

I'm out of breath.

Is this really happening?

"May I have this dance?" I heard him ask.

He was staring at me, waiting for my answer. That's when I noticed that he had taken off his pants and the thing between his legs was waiting for me like him.

"S-sure."

I saw him smile before he positioned himself between my legs. Hinawakan niya pa ang pagkababae ko kaya mas lalo akong nabasa. He doesn't let go of my eyes as I slowly feel him entering me.

"Ahhh..." I gasped. He held my hips as he continued to insert himself into me.

It's my first time. And it really hurts. I burst into tears and hugged him.

"J-jhon rey, it hurts..."

"Shhh... It's alright. Everything will be alright. Just trust me," he whispered.

I gasped when he moved inside me. Slowly. Napahawak ako sa unan. Nararamdaman ko ang hapdi sa gitna ko na para bang may kung anong napupunit.

"Jhon Rey..."

"Hold on, it'll be fine," he mouthed. "I'll be slow until you want it faster."

He continued to come in and out of me. Slow down until the speed gradually increases. Hindi ko na napigilan pa ang sarili kong umungol. Nanginginig ang buong kalooban ko. Ganoon lang pala talaga sa una, bandang-dulo'y magiging sarap na.

"Hmm... Ahhh... Jhon Rey, please... make it fast." I can't stop groaning and screaming his name.

This dance feels strange. It was so good that I don't want to be separated from him anymore. I want to be just this close.

I felt him accelerate inside me. His thighs were bumping into mine. Naririnig ko ang bawat tunog na nililikha naming dalawa dito sa loob ng kwarto niya. Screaming each other's names out of pleasure.

"Ughhh... I can do this all night," he growled. I glanced at him, and there I saw his sparkling eyes. That's when I realized how handsome he is, especially in this position. This close. Even though he's sweating and looks like he's struggling to do it. I never thought I would witness him do this.

Hinawakan niya ang dibdib ko at patuloy itong pinaglaruan. Maging ang leeg ko'y hinalikan niya. He's sucking and biting it.

"Fuck..." I heard his every breath. "I'm cumming..."

He continued to move inside me as I accompanied him. Quickly. Faster. Breathtaking.

I hugged him as I felt that there was a tension building up inside me that, at any moment, would explode. I felt his hand caressing my hair.

"J-jhon rey... Ahhhh... More... I'm begging you."

He did what I said and continued pumping into me. I was surprised when I felt the hot liquid explode inside my warm flesh.

"Hmmm... Ahhhh..."

I was just looking at the ceiling while catching my breath as Jhon Rey completely gave up on top of me. That was amazing. Naririnig ko pa ang malakas niyang paghinga sa tainga ko.

Napakagat ako sa labi habang naaalala ang nangyari sa aming dalawa. Nakatitig ako sa kisamae. Totoo bang hindi ako nananaginip?

I looked at him when he landed next to me. I was mesmerized by his face, which looked tired but peaceful when he was just closing his eyes.

Hindi ako makapgsalita. It seems that I am running out of energy, and sleepiness is taking over. Hindi ko malilimutan ang gabing ito.

I finally closed my eyes and fell asleep, but before that, I mumbled, "Happy birthday, Jhon Rey," which I hope he heard.