SHEHNAAZ ...

After the massive argument I rushed to my room just to find my cousins sitting there playing board games.... Although tired but I needed them to stay there just to keep mu mind occupied rather than running thousands of miles per minute...

Well truth to be told although the Roka ceremony came to an end that didn't mean that my extended family left ..... They are still there in the house but wasn't present during the conversation......... Entering my room I sat down on my bed resting my back on the headboard........

A part of me wants to obey my father but there some where I know that I'll be deceiving myself , destroying myself if I get married now ....... Why did I work so hard? ..... Why did I stay away from my family working day and night wasting my time if all I need to be is a homemaker for the rest of my life ....?

I was never against the fact of getting hitched into an arranged marriage but why does my family want to start the beginning of a relationship with nothing but lies ......

As I was just thinking about the possibilities about why my life has brought me to the end of the cliff when my both cousin sister Chandni and Sweety came and sat beside me .......

Chandni : Di ..... why won't you want to have a mehendi function?

Sana : Sweetheart..... it's not my decision but my Parents ......

Sweety : In that case you aren't against having mehendi designs on your hand ?

Sana : No but I don't think that's really necessary......

Chandni: It is di .... You need to have mehendi. ......

Sana : You know what I can't win against you two ......

Sweety : Then let us apply the heena on your hand now itself ......

Although I was reluctant to do so but seeing their puppy eyes I couldn't control myself from giving into their demands......

Sana : Do as you guys wish ....

Sweety : We'll do such a simple design that no body will notice it .....

Sana : Well I hope so .....

And at the end it was them making designs on my palms with the heena cone while I continued to overthink once again
........

I really don't know when did I actually fell asleep because the very next moment I know that there was a knock on the door and I could hear Shehbaaz calling my name from the otherside ......

SIDHARTH...

By the time we got ourselves settled down in your individual rooms it was almost evening ...... Opening the blinds of the window I could see the busy roads of Amritsar ......... I could see the golden temple at a distance while taking puffs from the half burnt cigarette.......

Being tired more than I could have imagined I ordered for room service before taking the long waiting warm shower to relax the stiff muscles........

Taking the much needed power nap I was once again on my toe the very next morning after completing my daily workout session before joining the rest of the team ........ Well although there weren't too many shoots to be done here but it was quite a lot ..... Giving back to back shots wasn't a tough job for me but the retakes were the most frustrating part ..... Well no offense to the new comers but it sometimes becomes really frustrating when they are are not giving their 100% attention ......

After the hell of a tiring day shooting in various locations around the city we were back in the hotel late at night ..... Feeding ourselves small amount of dinner we went to our respective rooms .......

Although the schedule for the very next day wasn't really difficult but it was needed to be shot really early in the morning and that was really the really depressing part of being an Actor .......

Although the career is really enjoyable but there are certain things that sometimes make us feel what if we were just mere nine to five workers .......

Well jokes apart I didn't even feel when I drifted off to sleep because the very next moment I could hear my phone blowing off with numerous notifications.......

Sid : Oh God ....... can't they atleast let me have a good sleep ......

Dragging myself out of the soft mattress I prepared myself to get through the tough morning call time for a really early bird like me ...... Well that was a really bad sarcasm to be honest......... If my mother was here she would have said I atleast need to be reborn once again in order to be taht sk called early bird to get the worms fast ......

SHEHNAAZ...

The moment I realized that it was already morning I thought to atleast reply to this really caring brother of mine ......

Sana : I'm up ...... Just give me sometime to get dressed .......

Shehbaaz : Okay then ...... I'll be in my room .....

Sana : Sure .....

Looking at the cute little babies sleeping beside me I thought about the hardwood they did just to make heena design on my palm ....... Well ......only if they knew that their sister isn't really getting married .......

Looking at the simple yet gorgeous design on my palms ...... I kissed on theor foreheads before getting up from my place .......

It's simple yet so beautiful..... I'm so proud of my little sisters ...... Taking a quick shower I got myself ready for the day ......

As soon as I placed my luggages in the back of the car Shehbaaz came down with his own small bagpack. ..... By the time we left the outskirts of the city it was already 8 in the morning ......

Well although I had the most supporting person beside me but how can you actually stop a person who overthinks each and every aspects of her life ...... Although I was sire that forvthe very first time I was really glad that I stoodup for myself but at the back of my mind there is always an uncomfortable nagging going on that what if the decision is wrong
..........

Stopping myself for the nth time and reassuring my mind that I'll handle the future even of it is hard I once again started to look at the scenic beauty infront of my eyes that the nature has provided ......

About 2 hours into our journey and few stops here and there we entered the main city of Amritsar ...... Though it wasn't really the first time I'm here but it is always exciting to see how these big cities have soo many different things which can actually awestruck every individual.........

Getting ourselves settled down in our hotel room for the day we went out to have some food before I actually needed to go for the recording .......

As we entered the cute yet sophisticated Punjabi restaurant I was feeling at ease .......

Going through the whole menu card for the third time though I ordered the usual Chole Bhature I was satisfied with my work.......

Looking at the busy place I once again though about my family ..... what were they doing ....... Were they worried about us ?..... Did they even try to find us ?........ Though the answer was probably negative but I couldn't shut the overthinking brain of mine .......

Well I could actually rant at myself and scold my brain once again telling that it's just spitting nonsense but how can I stop this stupid heart of mine ...... Well you all probably know by now that I actually listen to it more than the logical brain of mine but still could I actually believe that something spectacular yet different is going to happen .......

May be it really isn't what I'm actually thinking but there can be a slight possibility .... Right ?

Finishing my our food as if we were starving for months we got ourselves out of the place before roaming around the city just like that for the remaining time ......

SIDHARTH ...

Working in the film industry is really fun but when you are asked to compromise and try your best to accomodate your perfectionist mind just to help the new comer because she has connections or you can actually stay that the person is what we usually call a nepo baby.......

Frustrating and Depressing and not the only word you want to use but what can I do ....... Being in some kind of controversy has its consequenceand here is actually mine......

Giving the same shot for the 25th time in the last 2 hours is really taking a toll on my mind and body at this point .......

Well working for the long consecutive hours was really tiring yet I was happy to finish these nonsensical shots .......

But being happy was not really in my forte when your really good friend or otherwise the producer requests you to accompany him to the recording studio.....

Sid : Are you sure you want me there Ranjeet ?

Ranjeet Sharma ( producer ) : Bro .... I'm actually cent percent sure that you need to actually here the songs ......

Sid : Even though I heard about there concepts but I don't think I'll be of any help there........

Ranjeet : What you actually need to do is just air idle like me and hear the songs while it's being recorded.......

Sid : Okay if you actually say so ......

Saying that we gut ourselves inside the car before making ourselves present in the required place ......

Sitting on the other side of the glass room where the female vocalist was actually doing an wonderful job I was of no use other than just trying to recollect if I have seen her before ...... Well it was actually a tough job because all I could actually see was her back........

Loosing myself in the melodious voice of hers which perfectly complemented the lyrics all I could do was just sit there and think how much time did the god take to make such a talented person .......

As the recording was near it's end I was eagerly waiting for her to turn around and come out of the room so that I could have a word or two may be just may be to complement her when my phone started to ring .......

Taking out the cell phone from the font pocket of my denims I looked at the caller I'd just find it was my mom ...... Excusing myself I reluctantly cane out of the room and received the call ......

Sid : Hello.....

Rita Ma : Beta ..... I was actually trying to call you since the last half an hour but the line is always engaged....... Are you actually okay ?

Sid : Yes..... mom ..... I'm completely fine and may be it was just because of some network issues ......

Rita Ma : Ha ..... yeah .... it can be ...... Well I was actually calling you to tell that I think that I have actually found a potential match for you .......

Sid : You ..... you ..... found someone......?

Rita Ma : Yes .... I did and I think that You'll like her too .....

Sid : Hmm.....

As soon as she ended the call these was an uneasy feeling inside my chest as if telling me that wasn't really the correct choice but what should I do ..... I have actually left in the hands of my destiny rather than trying to find something myself .......

By the time I once again entered the studio it was quite empty unlike when the recording was going on ...... I could hear Ranjeet's voice when I came inside the lounge area ...... Although I tried to scan around the whole room trying to find the woman who had actually mesmerized me with her voice but these wasn't any female population present there ....... Releasing a deep breath out of my lungs I included myself in the conversation for a while before excusing myself for the night .......

Taking a cab from the place I reached the most famous Golden Temple ...... Although I never thought about coming here but at that particular moment I felt as if that was only solution to the chain of conflicts taking place in my mind ......

Covering my head and removing my shoes I stood there observing so many people still present there so late at night ....... Washing my hands and feet I walked towards the Gurudwara but not before taking a picture of this magnificent building infront of my eyes which looked out of this world .......

As soon as I entered the building I could feel the positivity in the environment...... I could feel the soothing air around me ..... it felt as if my mind has got it's ultimate medicine to stop the range of different thoughts ..........

Although I knew that this place will always remain as number one in my heart where I can actually find internal peace I actually think of telling Waheguru about my thoughts ......

Closing my eyes and taking a deep breathe I started to utter the words that actually came to my mind first and foremost.......

Sid : I don't know what you have decided fir my future but I really don't want to against your wish ......

I have learnt from my previous mistakes and promise to not do the same once again but please show me atleast a little hope so that I can actually believe that I'm on the right track of life .......

Sitting there for an hour or two I once again returned to the Hotel at midnight .....

The next morning the call time was early but not like the previous day ...... Though it was a little hectic because of not getting a single ounce of sleep but it was comparatively manageable after having two cups of the strong coffee made by Kaushal......

As soon as we reached the golden temple we got into our costumes and made inside the Gurudwara....... We were instructed to be fast and accurate because we weren't given permission for too long to conduct our shoot there in the premises......

I got into my cloths and finished the makeup before taking my place ..... as soon as we were about to start our work our so called heroine madam got her important call ......

Waiting for a while we saw a blush pink silhouette entering and the director started the shoot ......

She came there and stood beside me while her face was covered with a black mask ..... I don't know if she is trying to improvise but it's actually working ......

As we stood there for a while we could see that there were another couple who were getting married there ..... The Lavans were being recited for the Anand Karaj ...... I held her hand and started to take the phere as it was on the script ..... After walking around for number of times and listening to the hymns I could actually feel that she was not in her sense..... I guess she must be thinking something but at the end of the day we have to finish our work as soon as possible .... As said I tied the Mangal sutra around her neck and then filled her hair line with the little amount of sindoor before the was a huge commotion broke out ......

Kamya ( Heroine) : What the heck is going on there if I am here ?....... she shouted......

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