Hello Lovelies!!!!

I'm really sorry..Extremely sorry..For disappearing unannounced...Cause My life changed unexpectedly and surprisingly...I mentioned the reason at the end of this chapter why i wasn't here..

Pretty please accept my apologies..

Thank you all for loving Mr Personal Trainer This much...We won third place in WWC 2017 Award and Best story description award in WWC 2017 Award..All credit goes to you guys for loving it to the core..

I wants to dedicate this chapter to @geethu_sweetie28

This is your birthday gift..sorry soon i will one special story for you..for now plaese accept this small gift...

Now enough of my blabbering....Happy Reading...

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That one kiss between us was the testimony of the dangerous territory our relationship had entered into. We were only lucky that no one had noticed us kissing. If that's what we could do to each other in an open gym, the possibilities of what lay ahead for us were infinite.

I learnt that our feelings for each other were mutual. So were our desires. Later in the day, after our kiss at the gym, we had met at a coffee shop on the ground floor of the mall. We were desperate to connect and it was hugely important for us to share and talk about each other's lives and feelings. Else the unsaid, the untold would have consumed both of us.

Sam came to my rescue when she heard it from me first. I couldn't have reached out to anyone else. On the very day I kissed him in the gym, Sam advised both of us to talk. In the evening I drove down the mall for the second time that day.

When I faced him in that coffee shop, I wasn't even a bit embarrassed for my behavior a couple of hours back.

He wore red colored T-shirt and blue faded pair of jeans looking devilishly handsome as always.

" you don't have to feel bad about anything. " He said.

Our eyes locked...LIKE THEY ARE TALKING WITH THEIR OWN LANGUAGE.

" Even though I hadn't initiated the kiss, it was the best kiss of my life Radhika. I was going to remember it for my life time. " he said..there was different emotions on his face...My heart cracked seeing that thin layer of water in his eyes. I wanted to soothed him; take him in my arms where we could get rid of this unbearable pain.

He held my hand which was kept on table. He placed my hand in his palm like he was holding the most precious and delicate thing in the world.

" you know Radhika, I wanted to kiss you couple of times. Like when you had been angry with me for looking at the fashion channel and staring at the half nude models. You know you looked damn cute that time and I just wanted pull you to me and kiss you....but I couldn't do it......"

With those words my heart started to do summer salts with lightening speed..I never thought he have such strong feeling for me. He was looking at me unflinching, unblinking

" I wanted to kiss you every time we were close doing upper body exercises and also when you looked exhausted and yet tried to finish the sets...." He confessed

I blushed but I also wished that we could have kissed when he had wanted to. Nobody had ever said this to me!!..how it feels to be love of someone's heart. Specially From Arjun, because he always best at hiding his feelings...

I looked at him. Through his eyes I was looking deep into his heart, which he had begun to bare to me.

I asked him the question which my heart wanted to know " if you would want to kiss me again........"

Arjun stopped for a moment. But he continued to look at me, his eyes seeing what was lying in my heart...

He looked at my lips and I knew the answer...then he said " I wish I could!! But then I want to kiss that Radhika who belongs to me....only me......."

Someone in the coffee shop dropped something and made a noise.

Reality made a strong comeback.

The happiness that had twinkled in our eyes seconds ago begins to settle down as we became aware of our surroundings.

" You know what else I had imagined ? " he asked me.

There was something magical in the atmosphere; in it for it was going to be about us. It was going to be about how he felt for me...

" Tell me ....." I said softly. And just then tears rolled down my cheeks.....

He looked at me, unmoved. He knew the difficult phase we were in. So he let me sob and hold my hand tightly while rubbing his thumb over back of my hand.

He chose to keep talking " I had imagined going on vacations with you....on Island....Holding your hand and walking on the seashore as the sun went down, with the waves kissing our feet. The two of us watching the sun dipping into the sea and disappearing into the horizon, as the thin line of golden light that separates the sea from sky appeared. And when darkness would take over, I would hold you tightly in my arms. And now that I have seen you on that red dress, in my updated imagination I see you wearing it. I would bury my face in your neck, inhaling your scent..i would imagine that you are mine...I so wanted to believe......"

He could not finish. His eyes told the rest of the story. Arjun didn't even bother to wipe off his tears. I shared his imagination by imagining him wearing the three piece suit I wanted to see him in.

We were hopelessly in love. We could not help ourselves, or each other.

Arjun's love for me wasn't physical. I could see that. And that made him even more desirable.

The next moment, I saw him smiling. He was thinking about something. He recalled the few things from the past. He told me how awestruck he was to see me by chance in the sports bra that day in the store. I laughed at that.. I was laughing and crying at the same time.

" I secretly desired to see you again like that..." he said

I too shared him how though it had happened by accident that I too didn't mind him seeing me like that. We recalled many such moments and eventually rolled back in time to my first mistake- when I rammed my car into his.

" you didn't run into anybody else's car did you ?" he chuckled

It only made the situation more pathetic for it brought back memories.

I felt I wouldn't be able to speak. So I shook my head and smiled.

" so I was the only one ?"

I nodded not able to hold back the tears any more. You are the only one.

Our love story wasn't one sided. In the initial months Sam had told me many times about Arjun's feelings. Yet, back then, I thought he didn't want me as badly as I did. But I was wrong. It was an emotionally torturous week. Arjun had opened up to me and we talked about everything that we ever wanted to.

There came a moment when Arjun could not resist saying

" why can't I have you in my life , Radhika?" he hit the table with knuckles and hurt himself. I immediately held his hand and rubbed it in between my palms.

We were caught in a chaos of emotions with pain dominating every feeling.

How had we landed here?

Arjun stepped closer and hugged me. It felt good to be in his arms. I held him tight.

" Radhika!! " he said

I looked up into his eyes. Then I couldn't help myself and reached out to kiss him. It was as if he had been waiting for a sign from me. He pulled me in and kissed me energetically. Arjun crossed the line that he had marked for himself .and yet it appeared just the right thing to do. I ran my fingers through his hair and caressed his neck and back; I wanted to get lost in his arms or take him in mine.

When we slowly separated, we were full of realization that it was our last kiss. A love story that witnesses its first and last kiss in the same week . ours was special in every aspect.

Again, we stood apart. Nothing to say, but so much between us! Words fell short to express what we were going through. And therefore, for a while, there was only silence. A silence that kept reminding us that it would be over soon...

" I........I will leave now...."

I knew that was coming. I was there to hear those words. I was prepared. Arjun asked me to tell my parents about what I was feeling but I couldn't able to collect my guts to hurt my parents..I never went against them..So the reason Arjun decided to go out of my life.

When I heard him saying that he was leaving, I felt those words stabbed my chest. I felt this sudden heaviness in my heart. I felt weak and helpless. At times the short distance between understanding reality and accepting it turns out to be the most difficult to walk.

I opened my mouth to say something. But not a word came out of it.

" Goodbye..." he said

I could barely nod my head " good....... Go-goodbye..." I said

He smiled a lost smile and turned to leave. And as he walked in the direction of his car, away from me...I wished I could freeze time. I wished I could run and hold him. I couldn't do either. I just stood there and watched him go away from me.

How could I imagine living without him now?

How could I go back to being the same Radhika when he had touched me the way no one had? It didn't feel wrong to be in his arms, to kiss him....it felt just right.

The way I felt for Arjun, I had never felt for anyone. I was engaged to Saral but I loved Arjun.

That was the first time I understood how if it is love, it always feels right.

As he walked away from me I felt he was taking away a part of me, something that belonged to me, forever. And I could do nothing about it. And then it all became blurry. Sometimes I feel tears have a mind of their own. They intervene and try to disconnect your vision from the element of pain.

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So how's the chapter guys??? I know it was painful as we heard goodbye from them..But what will happen next? will Radz able to collect her guts to stand against her family to conquer her love??

Will see in next one...

And i wanted to share this special news of my life with you guys....

Guys My marriage got fixed and on this 25 th jun i'm going to be engaged....OMG..I'm experiencing jitters and butterflies in my stomach....

My lovely queensland besties helped me alot accepting this change in my life...

Thank you soooo much GUys!!!

Preparations made me like anything..So after 25th it would be possible for me to update next..Please wait till then...

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Love you to the moon and back!!!

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