"Do you need me to do this so you can tell me what the problem is?"

Napahawak ako sa balikat niya sabay iling. "Please, don't do this. Ahhh..."

Ipinasok niya ang daliri niya sa loob ko.

"Then tell me what's wrong."

Umiling ako. His rough fingers are fooling around with my clit. I had no idea that he would act in such a way toward me. My vitality is sapped by him. Hindi ako makalaban.

"Stop this, I'm begging you..."

Pero hindi niya ako pinakinggan at ipinagpatuloy ang pagpasok ng iba pa niyang daliri sa loob ko dahilan upang lalo akong manghina. Nangangatog ang mga hita ko habang nakaupo sa ibabaw ng lamesa.

"I won't unless you tell me." he mumbled as he continued pleasuring me inside.

Napakagat ako sa labi ko. Gusto kong umiyak dahil sa kahihiyan.
Wala talaga akong laban sa kaniya. Alam niya kung anong kahinaan ko. Alam niyang nanghihina ang buo kong pagkatao sa ginagawa niya.

Napatingin ako sa kaniya. He was looking at me too, pero wala na ang galit sa mga mata niya. All I can see are those eyes pleading with me to explain what's going on with me.

He kissed me. Kumawala ang luha mula sa mga mata ko. How can he kiss me like this? Like he loved me?

Hindi ko napigilang bumawi ng halik. Naramdaman ko ang pag-alalay ng kamay niya sa likod ng ulo ko na para bang mas lalo niya akong idinidiin sa mga labi niya. Tila ba nawawala sa puso ko ang sakit na naramdaman ko kagabi. Kung paano niya ako halikan ngayon, nakakapanglambot.

Tinanggal niya ang damit ko. I flinched when he immediately devour my breasts.

"Ahhhh... J-Jhon Rey," I pleaded. I'm ashamed of myself. My muscles are tense and aching, almost as if they desire more. Napapaliyad ako. Hindi ko akalaing gagawin namin ito ngayong kagigising palang namin at dito pa sa ibabaw ng lamesa. We're supposed to be eating now, pero mukhang iba ang nagustuhan niyang almusalin.

My thighs were spread apart by him. I'm shaking in nervousness. Mukhang alam ko na kung anong susunod na mangyayari. Mararamdaman ko na naman siya sa loob ko.

Ibinaba niya ang jogging pants niya at doon walang pasabi niyang ipinasok sa akin ang buo niyang pagkalalaki.

Napaungol ako sa pagkabigla. "Ahhhh... J-Jhon Rey..." I couldn't help but scratch his back out of pain and pleasure when I finally felt him moving around inside me.

My hands were pinned on the table as he rode inside me. I have no choice but to admit that I am completely obsessed with what he is doing.

In the middle of the fun, he pulled it out as if he was trying to tease me. I looked at him in shock. My face clearly displayed the effects of being abandoned in the midst of enjoyment. It feels devastating.

"Now tell me, what's bothering you," he stated, starting a war.

He's torturing me. He is putting me through hell. I can see his manhood in front of me, and yet I can't get hold of it. He positioned himself close to me but never insert it that's why I feel frustrated.

"Don't do this to me, Jhon Rey. At least finish what you started," I commanded.

He authoritatively said, "No, unless you tell me everything," as his response to my plea.

Napapikit siya sandali at napaiwas ng tingin. Kita kong nahihirapan din siya at gusto niya na ring ituloy ang naudlot naming kaligayahan.

"Come on, I'm waiting," he demanded in a display of being impatient.

"Be honest with me. Just like how your body shows its honesty when it feels me,"

I sighed. "I told you, it was nothing."

"It wasn't nothing, Sheen May. You just don't want to tell me," he insisted.

"Yeah, I don't want to tell you," I whined. That shut him up. "I don't want to tell you that I'm jealous because you called her name last night," I admitted.

I feel an itch inside my nose. I'm on the verge of crying once more, as if the tears I shed last night weren't enough. Hindi ko akalaing makakaya kong sabihin sa kaniya iyon. Maging ang pag-iyak sa harap niya ay hindi ko inaasahang magagawa ko.

"Was it worth knowing, Jhon Rey?" I inquired while attempting to keep my composure. My tears were brushed away by him.

"Hindi ko maalalang tinawag ko ang pangalan niya," sambit niya sa akin.

"Because you're too drunk. You call her as your wife. Maybe you were dreaming about her that's why," saad ko.

"I don't know. Hindi ko matandaan kung may panaginip ba ako kagabi o kung nananaginip ba talaga ako. And if you heard me calling her name, I'm sorry." He brushed my shoulders, tracing soothing circles with his thumb.

"Tsk. You have nothing to be sorry about. You merely pointed out my place in your life, so it wasn't your fault. It was I who had held out such great expectations," I acknowledged.

"Then it must have hurt you as well when you heard that we're planning to marry each other after ours," he whispered.

So he knows. 

He remembers what happened last night.

I bit my lip.

When I think about what he said about the plan he had for her, my heart breaks into a million pieces all over again.

"Yeah, it pains me a lot that even if I wanted it to stop, it never did. I fell for you really hard this time, Jhon Rey. Those times that we were together, I thought you finally saw me, but I was just a blur—a hindrance to your vision, a circle of confusion that shadowed your light. This is me and my feelings, which you will never reciprocate." Inalis ko ang kamay niya sa akin at pinilit na ayusin ang sarili ko. Maging ang pagpahid sa mga luha ko ay siya ko ring ginawa. "I was processing my thoughts, so could you please not ask any more questions? I don't want to say anything anymore that will cause you to distance yourself from me."

I cast my eyes downward. I am really embarrassed by my actions right now. How did I get to be in this state where I am so miserable?

I was in such a good mood yesterday, but now it seems as though the world has handed me another tragedy to make up for the bliss I was feeling before.

Am I not worthy of happiness?

Naramdaman ko ang daliri niya sa baba ko. He lifts my face to meet his gaze. He stared at me for a few seconds, na para bang sinusuri niya ang buo kong mukha kung nagsasabi ba ako ng totoo. I am. I am telling the truth.

"Thank you for being honest, Sheen May." He kissed my eyes. "I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. I thought telling you those things would benefit you. I purposely said that so you could unlove me, at least enough for you to look for yourself instead. That was a lie. I told you before that Quency and I had broken up, and we no longer have communication with each other. I was just taken aback by how much love you have for me, and I just can't seem to bring myself to believe it, but after seeing you like this, neglecting me, I can't seem to stand it. Sheen May, the things that bother you bother me even more. I am now your spouse, and I have always assured you that you can rely on me now."

He kissed the bridge of my nose.

"You are not a blur to me, Sheen May. My eyes are on you now."

He offered me a passionate kiss that instantly transported me to another world. My heart is fully free of its previous state of melancholy.

I feel him move inside me which made me groan between our kisses. Akala ko'y hindi na namin ito maitutuloy pa dahil sa pagtatalo naming dalawa. Mali ako. Mas lalo kong naramdaman na kailangan ko siya.

Once more, the combination of pain and pleasure that he is giving me has led my body to arch. My hands were pinned on the table while he worked on me.

I have no grounds to complain. Naalala ko ang napag-usapan namin ni Anne last time. It feels good when you're being upfront of your feelings towards your partner. Kailangan lang talaga ng lakas ng loob, pero it was all worth it. Now I can truly be at ease. Kasinungalingan lang naman pala ang sinabi niyang magpapakasal sila ni Quency. Hindi ko maiwasang ngumiti.

"Sheen May," he moaned to my ears. "Hmmm... It feels good when I'm inside you." That tickles my ear but added to the sensation of pleasure I am feeling. He never stops pressing himself on me. The sound of our hips slapping against one another is hypnotizing to my ears.

"Ahhhh Sheen May..." Because he has been repeatedly screaming out my name, I am now even more aroused. My gut tells me that he is doing it on purpose to make amends for bringing up his ex-girlfriend's name, which he claims he doesn't even remember doing.

"Sheen May, I'm cumming," he groaned.

Napahawak ako sa balikat niya. "Ahhh me too, Jhon Rey."

He increased the pace of his riding, and within a few seconds, he blew up inside of me. He pulled it out, assuming that we were finished, but then he picked me up once more.

"Let's continue this discussion in our room."

Hindi na ako nakaapela nang tuluyan niya na akong buhatin papunta kwarto. Inihiga niya ako sa kama, bago siya naghubad sa harap ko. Inalis niya rin ang mga natitira kong saplot.

"It's about time you got used to sharing this bed with me, Sheen May. We'll be sleeping together from now on."

I can't help but show a glimpse of happiness. It was as if I had forgotten we were arguing about this earlier.

He climbed on top of me and immediately began kissing me. My libido has reached an all-time high because of him, and it makes me feel as though we are still in the honeymoon phase.

Wala sa plano ang pagbisita namin sa ibang lugar para mag-honeymoon dahil nag-aaral pa kami at malapit na ang finals kaya mukhang dito namin sa bahay gagawin ang lahat.

His kiss traveled all the way down to my neck. Along the back of the shoulders, the chest, and the abdomen, I don't know if he meant to skip to kiss the part I was waiting for, but he licked my thigh instead.

Napakagat ako sa labi. I could feel my fluids coming out of my center again.

"Your flower is breathtakingly gorgeous, Sheen May," he complimented, making my heart flutter. Napapikit ako sa kilig nang banggitin niya muli ang pangalan ko. He kissed my wet mounds.

"Shit."