"This is my first time doing this, so please bear with me."

"W-what—Ugghhh..."

I leaned down and kissed his manhood before holding it for him. Instantaneously, it grew, which blew my mind because of how fast it happened. How will it even fit inside my mouth?

I gave it a shot by putting it in my mouth.

"Ah shit," I heard him curse. His hips jerked in response.

I attempted to consume it in its entirety by moving my head, but I ended up choking on it. I turned my head to look at him after he laughed. The way he was biting on his lower lip while maintaining that smirk gave the impression that he was pleased with me in some way.

"Go on, it feels good," he said to me in an attempt to cheer me up. Napailing ako sa isip ko. Hindi ako marunong pero natutuwa akong nagugustuhan niya ang ginagawa ko.

I made a rubbing motion with my hand while simultaneously playing with it with both my tongue and my hand.

"Oh fuck."

I keep doing that without giving any consideration to whether or not I'm doing it correctly, but he must be enjoying it because of the way he groans about it.

I even hastened to devour him whole. He is assisting me while also holding my hair. Nararamdaman ko ring bumabayo siya.

"Ahhhh, Sheen May, I'm about to explode."

"Explode it in here," I said, which surprised him.

"Ah, shit. Why are you so beautiful?"

He exploded into my mouth. I gave him a look before swallowing it down completely. It took me by surprise when he gave me a kiss and then hoisted me back up onto his lap. I can feel his bulk pressing against me again.

His hands wandered across my body once more. I was shocked when he inserted his finger inside me.

"Ahh! John Rey!" I tried to scream, but he continued to kiss me nonstop in an attempt to divert my attention from what he was doing. But it feels like his finger is playing inside of me, and I can't seem to control the moaning that comes out of it. "Oh my god, Jhon Rey!" I exclaimed.

He's gently tracing me inside with his finger in soothing circles.

"You're wet again," he proclaimed emphatically.

Itinalikod niya ako sa kaniya. He's now embracing me on my back. I can feel his breath striking me on my neck.

It startled me when he stroked both of my breasts with both of his hands.

"Ahhhh..."

"These are getting bigger," he commented, which made me flush. He played with my nipples and pinched them.

Now he moved his hand to the region of my body that seemed to be waiting for him. His palm fits on it.

"Look at it," he murmured, pointing out my wet private. Napatingin ako sa baba. He is moving his finger freely inside of me right now. And I observe as my fluids make their way to his hand.

"So this is how you respond to me," he said. "Don't you ever forget it."

I nodded as I attempted to straighten up my back, but I'm now getting weaker. I was surprised when he used both hands on me. One is for the upper part, and the other is for the lower part of my flower, massaging at its best.

"Jhon Rey, can you enter me now?" I begged. "I'm about to explode," I plead.

He gave me a smirk before planting kisses on me. Once more, he positioned me on the bed. He supported my feet by placing them on his shoulder.

"Is this position alright for you?" tanong niya sa pagitan ng paghinga niya.

"Y-yeah, it's fine." Napalunok ako. Hindi na siya nagsabi agad at ipinasok niya na ang kaniya sa loob ko. Hindi agad ako nakapag-react sa bilis ng pagpasok at paggalaw niya. Napatingala ako at halos malagutan ng hininga. Kakaiba ang pakiramdam na ito kaysa kanina. Para akong mauubusan ng buhay.

"Ahhhh, John Rey... Ahhhh..." "Ahhh..."

"Sheen May... I just can't seem to stop," ungol niya rin. He keeps pressing into me, and I can feel the tension progressively rising within me.

"Shit. Faster. Make it faster. More. Jhon Rey, more," pakiusap ko.

I must be insane to ask him that, yet he always does what I tell him. He stimulates every urge I have within me so that I can experience the pleasure of what he is doing to an even greater degree.

"I'm getting closer!" sigaw ko.

"Hold on."

"Jhon Rey! Ahhhhh... Hmmmm... Ahhhh... I'm cumming!"

I felt him erupt inside me. However, he did not pull out his own and instead strolled around for some time until ultimately emerging from within me.

Habol ko ang hininga ko habang nakatingin sa kaniya. He kissed me again, but this time with a lot of intensity and full of passion.

"I'll clean you so you can sleep now," sambit niya bago halikan ang gilid ng ulo ko pati na rin ang pisngi. Napapikit ako. Tila ba naubos ang lakas ko sa ginawa namin. I still want more, but my body doesn't cooperate. I'm too weak.

Naramdaman ko ang pagpunas niya sa akin pati na rin sa katawan ko bago niya ako kumutan. Tuluyan na siyang tumabi sa higaan.

"Do you want to cuddle?" tanong niya. Lumingon ako sa kaniya at niyakap siya. His smell is somewhat pleasurable too.

"I love your scent," komento ko.

"Scent lang?" biro niya. Gusto kong lumuha. Hindi ko alam kung saan ilalagay ang ligayang nararamdaman ko ngayong may nangyaring muli sa amin ng taong mahal ko. Hindi ko mapigilang umasa na may ibig sabihin ito.

Niyakap ko siya nang mahigpit. Pakiramdam ko makakatulog ako nang mahaba at maayos ngayong araw dahil tila ba inabutan na kami ng umaga.

"I love your body too," sagot ko.

"I know. I love yours too. I want to hold you like this from now on."

He kissed my forehead. I sniffed and tried to sink into the words he said toward me. What does he mean by that?

Suddenly, I remembered what I saw earlier in the dean's office. I want to talk to him about it. Kahit na inaantok na ako, gusto kong kahit papaano'y mapanatag sa nalaman ko.

"Jhon Rey," I called him.

"Hmm?"

"I don't know if this will make you angry, but I accidentally discovered something about you."

"What is it?" He sounds like he's sleepy now but is still trying his best to talk to me.

"Your dream. You once dreamed of becoming a professional basketball player."

"Ahh yeah. It was a long time ago," he admitted.

"Ayaw mo na ba sa pangarap mong 'yon? Why did you quit the training for UAAP?"

"Hmmm. Do you want an honest answer?"

He put some distance between us and then looked at me. "When you told me that Jhunel had lost both you and his dream, it caused me a great deal of anxiety. I thought kung makukuha niya ang pangarap niya, hindi ka na niya kukuhanin pa."

Napasinghap ako. Hindi ko na alam kung bakit nakakaya ko pang tingnan siya sa kaniyang mga mata nang hindi lumuluha. Totoo ba ang mga naririnig ko?

Natawa siya. "But that didn't make him happy."

"I'm s-sure, he'll understand someday," nauutal kong sambit. Napakagat ako sa labi. It would be weird kung iiyak ako sa harap niya.

"I hope so." Muli niya akong niyakap. Napapikit ako. Sana ganito na lang siya parati. 

"Jhon Rey..." Muli kong tawag sa kaniya.

"Hmmm?"

"Sorry kanina," nahihiya kong pag-amin.

"What did you do?"

"I almost followed him and left you. I shouldn't have done that." Hindi ko dapat binitiwan ang kamay niya gayong kinakapitan niya na ako ngayon.

"It's fine. I'll just hold you tighter next time, para hindi mo na ako maiwan." His voice now feels so comforting to me. Somehow, it made me hope that he was serious about what was between us now.

"By chance, did you feel jealous?" I shouldn't have said that, but I can no longer take it back.

"Sort of. I'm territorial. I don't want anyone else to mess with what's already mine."

I nodded. "I'm sorry. I'll be careful next time."

I took a breath in, and very immediately after that, nakatulog ako sa mga bisig niya.

Unti-unti kong iminulat ang mga mata ko. Base sa liwanag ng kapaligiran, umaga na. Babangon na sana ako nang mapansin kong may nakayakap sa akin sa likod. At doon ko naalala ang nangyari kagabi. Right, Jhon Rey and I did it again.

And here I am nasa pagitan ng mga bisig niya. Wala pa ring saplot at nararamdaman ang buong katawan niya. I tried my best to turn around nang hindi siya nagigising. Gusto kong makita ang mukha niya.

I almost lost my breath when I saw him sleeping so soundly. Sa kabilang banda, nakaramdam ako ng kapanatagan na nakakatulog siya nang ganito kahimbing kahit ako ang katabi niya. Gusto kong umasang palagay na ang loob niya sa akin, pero ayokong masaktan. Alam kong iba pa rin ang laman ng puso niya. Mahirap kalimutan ang unang pag-ibig.

Nakita kong iminulat niya ang kaniyang mga mata. Umaasa akong magugulat siyang makita ako pero ngumiti siya. Isang ngiting nakalulusaw ng kapighatian sa puso.

"Morning." Isang salita pero agad na nagwala ang buong sistema ko.

"G-good morning," sambit ko naman tsaka umiwas ng tingin sa kaniya. Hindi pa rin ako sanay na ganito kami kalapit. Hindi ako makapaniwalang nangyayari ang mga ito.

"Nakatulog ka ba nang maayos?" tanong niya.

"Ha? O-oo. Ikaw?"

Tumango siya. Biglang kumalam ang sikmura ko na narinig niya dahilan kung bakit natawa siya nang mahina.

"I think we should prepare now for check-out so we can eat outside," he chuckles.

Tumango ako. Bumangon na ako mula sa bisig niya. Hinanap ko ang damit ko kagabi bago pumunta sa bathroom para magbihis at nagsipilyo. Nagulat ako nang pumasok siya, at sabayan rin ako sa pagsisipilyo. He was also wearing what was supposed to be his sleepwear last night, but we ended up taking it all off.

Natawa ako. Napansin naman niya iyon, kaya kumunot ang noo niya, pero natawa rin. Pareho kaming nakatingin sa kani-kaniya naming reflection sa harap ng salamin. So this would be our mornings every day when we get married?

After an hour, nakapag-check out na kami sa hotel. Naglakad kami papunta sa Teenvensé to have our simple breakfast na almost lunch na rin dahil 10 am na kami nagising and 11 am kami nakapag-check out.

There are moments when I am unable to look at him appropriately because I cannot pretend that the events of the previous evening, or, should I say, morning, are nothing to me. Kahit simpleng pagsubo niya ng pagkain ay nagiging sanhi ng pamumula ko.

I sighed. I should stop thinking about those things. It's normal for us to do that since we're getting married, and we'll practically do it every now and then when our wedding finally takes place. I mean, tsk. I should stop thinking ahead of myself!

"Are you okay?" tanong niya. Mukhang napansin niya ang kawirduhan ko.

"Y-yeah, don't mind me." I saw him smirk. "What's with you?" tanong ko naman.

"Nothing. I find you cute."

Napanganga ako. How can he say that when he's aware that I like him? Hindi ko mapipigilan ang sarili kong umasa!

Ilang saglit lang ay natapos na kaming kumain. He paid for the bill, and we made our way to his car. The silence was filled in because I was unable to talk, either due to fear of what else could have spilled out of my mouth. Can I please try to act normal today? I'm such an open book!

Hindi ko namalayang malapit na pala kami sa bahay. I guess kailangan na naming magpaalam sa isa't isa. Tinanggal ko na ang seatbelt ko bago lumingon sa kaniya.

"Thank you for riding me home," sambit ko.

"Hindi ako tumatanggap ng thank you lang."

Natawa ako nang maalala ang linya niyang iyon. Yeah, he required more than that. I leaned closer to him and gave him a kiss, which shocked him.

"See you."

Bumaba na ako sa sasakyan niya. Nagulat naman ako nang sumunod siya sa pagbaba para bawian ako ng halik.

"I can't wait to see you," he said while holding the back of my head and my waist.

Tumango na lang ako, bago muling nagpaalam sa kaniya. Hawak-hawak ko ang puso ko habang nasa likod ng gate. Narinig ko na ang pag-alis ng sasakyan niya mula sa harap ng bahay namin, pero ang kaba sa dibdib ko'y narito pa rin.

Hindi na ako makapaghintay na ikasal kami at makasama siya sa isang bahay.