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Uee's Pov

It's been a week since my miscarriage, Yoongi said to take two weeks off to rest. I think two weeks seems pretty long, "You've been stressed, and need rest after the hospital." That's what he said. I just stayed home with my babies, but they're taking a nap right now. I still feel upset about losing my baby, either it was a girl or a boy, I lost my baby. Before the baby was going to be born we chose a name, we couldn't  decide a name if it was going to be a girl or a boy, so we chose a unisex name for our baby.

Our baby's name was going to be Yoongmin. I held the ultrasound picture of Yoongmin, brushing my fingers over it. I felt my eyes tear up again, a tear rolled down and I quickly wiped it away. The front door opened, I quickly wiped my tears to make it look I wasn't crying. I sniffed, "You came home early," I smiled and stood up, walking over to Yoongi.

I could feel his gaze on me, I stuff the ultrasound picture in my back pocket of my jeans. I didn't look at him in the eye, I just took his briefcase and set it down then unbuttoning his blazer. Yoongi took my hand while I was fumbling with the button on his blazer. Yoongi didn't say anything, he pulled me in a tight hug hugging my head closer to his body. He didn't have to say, "Don't cry." His hug already told me that.

I sobbed into his chest, gripping the hems of his blazer. I sat on my bed with blankets over me, Yoongi came back with a mug in his hands. He wore black sweats with a white t-shirt. He walked over sitting at the other end of the bed handing me my tea, and got under the bed sheets with me. Naturally he puts his arm around me and I scoot closer to his chest. I sipped on my peach tea, the taste of peach and honey. We sat in bed silently, just enjoying each other's presence. "You never answered my question." I said looking at the white door. "What did you ask?" I sipped on my peach tea before answering him, "Why did you come home early?" I asked again.

"The employees were getting on my nerves," I chuckled, "What?" Yoongi look down at me, "Nothing, you're still the Yoongi from high school, always getting annoyed by people you don't want to deal with," I sipped on my peach tea, lifting the mug to him, "Want some? It'll make you peachy." I smiled, Yoongi averted his eyes from the mug and me. "Stop making fun of me," we both laugh together, Yoongi pulls me closer after laughing. The room was quiet again, "I lied to you." I played with the handle of the mug, I sensed Yoongi was looking at me, "About what?" Yoongi's voice was almost in a whisper. "About not wanting Yoongmin, I lied." I bit the inside of my mouth, feeling Yoongi grip my shoulder.

"Its true I didn't want the baby. I wasn't ready for another one yet. But I accepted the baby and waited for our Yoongmin to grow with her siblings. Now I feel horrible wishing I didn't want Yoongmin." I covered my face with one hand. Yoongi took my hand away from my face, "Hey, stop it okay. It was my fault, not yours." "That's right it's your fault," I mumbled softly. Yoongi sighed, and hugged me tightly. "Now it's time to move on. Forget Yoongmin and move on we'll make more." "I can't! Not when Yoongmin was still in here, you didn't lose him! I did! It's both our fault! I didn't want this to happen!" I shouted as I was sitting across from Yoongi, "I never wanted this," I broke a whisper.

"And you don't think I feel bad too? I didn't want this to happen too, I didn't know! You didn't just loose Yoongmin, Uee, I lost him too! Don't say you lost him because I lost him too. Think about how I feel, I'm a father too, Uee." Yoongi pointed to himself through gritted teeth. "Learn to think towards others, not yourself." Yoongi stood up from the bed and walked out of the room slamming the door shut. I flinched and closed my eyes once the door slammed. How stupid of me, I hate feeling this way, to cry and think about losing Yoongmin, now I'm considered a woman who has abortion her baby.

I sat in bed crying, for the night Yoongi and I slept in different rooms. I couldn't sleep so I went to bed with Gwihan. I pulled her close to me and hugged her to sleep. The next morning Yoongi was gone again. I sat in the kitchen drinking coffee, until Gwihan came in rubbing her tired eyes. "Mommy," she came over to me and lay her head on my lap. I chuckled at her silliness, "What is it?" I caressed her head.

"Did you and daddy fight again?" My smile faded at her words, I look down at her with a smile, "We didn't fight honey bun, we just- we couldn't agree on something and daddy went a bit crazy." I lift her up and set her on my lap, she rest her head on my chest and I hugged her close. Holding her again, is like holding her when she was just a newborn. I rocked the both of us side to side, her tiny hands came up to my face and caressed it. Her touch was so soft I wanted to cry just feeling her small hands touch my face.

"Do you think- mommy is bad?" I asked with a small whisper, Gwihan looked up with confusion. "Mommy isn't bad, mommy is the best mommy I could ever have! She loves me and Jongjong this much!" She expressed herself, by expanding her arms widely. "And I love mommy this much too!" I felt the tears sting my eyes, "Mommy loves you too," I hugged her and she wrapped her tiny arms around my waist. "Are you hungry?" Gwihan nodded, "Okay, go brush your teeth while I make breakfast." I pulled Gwihan off me, and she ran to the bathroom.

Later in the day, I called Choohee and Jooyoung over. They came together and once they saw me, they attacked me with hugs. "Uee!" Choohee the one that is always the most excited hugged me tightly. "I hope you're okay," she pulled away, "Because you look horribly sad." I touched my face, "Do I really?" Jooyoung and Choohee nodded at the same time. "Lets go sit." They dragged me to the living room, when this is my house. "Aunty Youngie! Aunty Choohee!!!" Gwihan threw her toys on the floor and ran over to her aunties. She attacked each one with a hug. "My little cutie! How you've been!" Jooyoung pinched her nose, making her laugh a little, "Good!"

Jooyoung patted her head, "Go play with your toys," Gwihan nodded and ran over to her toys. I was already sitting on the couch with Choohee as Jooyoung came over. "So why did you call?" Jooyoung asked crossing her legs. I shrugged, "Its just lonely in the house, I need someone to talk to." I sighed sharply. "So anything new happening?" I smiled quickly avoiding any possible conversation of anything that could bring my mood down. "I finally found a boyfriend." Jooyoung blurted out. Choohee and I stared at Jooyoung. "No way! Is he cute!?" Choohee sat up straight.

We saw her blushing, "I'd say more than cute. He's sexy hot!" Choohee squealed and I just chuckled from the side. "Show me a picture!" Choohee jumped. Jooyoung went on her phone and pulled a picture our from her phone. "Oh my goodness, he is sexy hot. Look at that body!" Choohee slapped Jooyoung on the shoulder, "Where did you find him?" Jooyoung chuckled, "We met at a café, weird I thought I'll find my guy at a bar but this one was at a café." She chuckled. "Is he you know..." Choohee looked over at Gwihan, "Is he... any good?" She whispered.

Jooyoung slapped her arm, "Yah, we didn't go that far yet!" Her face started turning red. Choohee chuckled, "Tell me if he's any good." Jooyoung gasped, "Yah, you byuntae." We laughed. Jooyoung looked at me, "Why are you so quiet? You would be screaming with Choohee too." I shrugged, "I'm happy, I just- I don't know how to express it. Congrats!" I gave a little airy chuckle. "Okay okay I have amazing news! Don't start screaming." Choohee placed her hand gently over her stomach, we thought she was rubbing it because she was hungry.

"Namjoon and I are... expecting." She had a big smile over her face. Jooyoung and I squealed happily hugging her, "Congratulations! You have to invite us to your baby shower then." I said trying to look happy, I want to be happy but thinking about my Yoongmin just brought my mood down. I sat down really quiet while Jooyoung and Choohee talked about her baby. "I need to- use the bathroom." I said quietly and stood up rushing to the bathroom. I closed the door to the bathroom and fumbled with lock. My breathing became faster, my body shook and my vision blurred from the tears.

Once I successfully locked the door I backed up, leaning against the wall. I covered my face, muffling my sobs pulling my legs close to my chest. "Mommy," Gwihan knocked of the door. "Mommy why are you crying?" I sniffed, "Mommy isn't crying honey bun." Knocks were heard, "Uee," it was Jooyoung. "Uee, are you sure you're okay? Open up and talk to us." I leaned my head on my knees, and cired. "Uee, open up!"

I gathered my senses, I stood up and wiped my face clean and opened the door. Jooyoung and Choohee stood by the door looking concerned. "Are you okay?" Choohee asked, I started tearing up, "No." Choohee quickly gave me a hug, while Jooyoung rubbed my back in circles. "I lost my baby," I sobbed onto Choohee's shoulder. "I'm so sorry, Uee." Choohee whispered hugging me tighter. "I'm fine now, I just.... I just needed some time to forget him." I pulled away from Choohee, "Don't feel sad about it, I don't you worrying about me. Not with your first." I wiped my tears.

"Are you sure?" Jooyoung rubbed my back, I nodded, "Yoongi and I got into an argument last night, I just... I wanted company. Sorry for dragging you two along." I apologized, "Don't, Uee you're having a hard time. We'll be here by your side, that's what friends are for." Jooyoung gripped my shoulder. "Thanks," I smiled at her. We went back to the living room, as Jonghan was sitting on my lap. "Should I have Namjoon, talk to Yoongi? I can text him right now." Choohee pulled out her phone. "No, it's okay- just leave it we both need to cool off. I understand I was coming off emotional, I forgot about his feelings." I caressed Jonghan's hair.

"Ah too late, I already sent Namjoon the text." Choohee looked half sorry. I just sat back with a sigh. "You want anything to eat?" I asked, "Oh I want something sweet!" Choohee smiled. I stared at her, "You usually don't eat sweets." Choohee look down at her stomach, "Its the cravings, this little one is a sweet lover." Choohee growled. "Your baby is going to be a big baby if you keep eating sweets." I commented as the girls followed me into the kitchen.

Choohee sighed sharply, "I know, but I can't help it. If I don't eat sweets and eat other food, I'll just puke it back out." I opened the fridge, "Namjoon spoils me with sweets because of this one." She pointed at her stomach, "I'm going to have cavities before I'm due and I'm gaining weight." She pouted. "You can always work off the fat Choohee," Jooyoung chuckled. "That's so much work!" Choohee groaned. I came back with yogurt and cut up strawberries in it. "Its more healthier," I placed the yogurt in front of Choohee.

She thanked and ate it. Hours went by and we sat and talked about many things to release the things in my head. The front doors opened hearing the keys jingle. I bit my lip wondering how this is going to turn out. Yoongi and Namjoon walked in. Choohee stood up and walked over to Namjoon as they hugged and have each other a kiss. They're going to be a cute family. I couldn't help but to smile at them.

"How did it go?" Choohee whispered in Namjoon's ear, I saw Namjoon shrug his shoulders. I averted my gaze at Yoongi, he smiled at Gwihan and brushed her hair. I smiled at them, "I guess I should get going then." Jooyoung stood up biding me goodbye. "I think we should go too," Namjoon and Choohee walked out leaving me alone with my family. I look back at Yoongi, as he stood up. I look down at my slippers biting my lips. "I'm sorry," I whispered.

My chin was lifted up as I stared into eyes that I love the most. His monoeyelids, his dark hazel brown eyes and his long lashes. Yoongi didn't say anything and just hugged me. I responded wrapping my arms around his waist.

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