aright so this might be a little too  much for some ppl? idk i tried not to trigger anyone, but yeah be aware.

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Around 6am, victor sat on the bed with a groan when his alarm went off, his head was heavy from all the drinking from last night, he glanced at the sleeping figure next to him, wondering how he can sleep with the sound of the alarm, last thing he wanted was talking to Zayn though, so he got out of the bed and did a quick fresh up and made his way to the kitchen, he took his phone out to check his email so the good news and yeah it was there, from the styles co, he was accepted.

"aren't you just the best victor?" he prized himself, taking a sip from his coffee, he had to be there at 8 so he thought about leaving at 7, he wanted to avoid being late at the first day of his work.

Before he leaves though, he walked in their bedroom to inform Zayn that he was leaving, but like always even after victor screamed his name, Zayn just rolled on his stomach and continued sleeping. he wasn't in the mood for drama today so he just let him stay in his coma and left for work.

Like he planned he was at the company 15 minutes earlier, he went to the top floor, to the CEO's office.

"hi Mr. cox! You are early!" the assistant called, she didn't expect anyone to be here before her boss, who was late for the second day.

"hi, yeah I thought I come early to get my schedule and stuff" he said eyeing her body, she was a sexy woman, mind you.

"I'm sorry but Mr. styles isn't here yet, I'll have to ask you to wait till he arrives"

"it's absolutely fine darling" and as expected, she blushed and sat down occupying herself.

After about half an hour she decided it the best if she calls Liam and ask if he know what's the plan for today.

"I'll just call Mr. Payne, he can give you your schedule instead" she informed and began calling Liam's office.

"hello Mr. Payne sorry to bother you, Mr. cox is here and he needs his schedule...... no sir, he hasn't arrived yet.... Thank you sir, I'll let them know"

"Mr. Payne will be here soon sir" she informed victor, "thanks love"

Liam tried calling harry, he knew it was because of last night event that harry didn't show up today, and he felt so fucking guilty for it. He made his way to Harry's office and what he saw was totally disgusting, the assistant was a blushing mess as victor was saying something obviously flirty.

As Liam got closer to them he cleared his throat, man its awkward.

He greeted both of them and asked victor to follow him, "so you'll have an office on second floor and I already emailed your schedule of the week, I'll give you the address and pass and you are set" Liam explained as they walked in the elevator.

After showing victor his office, he walked out of the building in search for his friend, first he got to his penthouse, he wasn't there, he thought he should call relatives or friends, then he remembered, harry didn't have anyone, so now it was time to panic, one of his cars wasn't in the garage so he was out, but he didn't answer his phone, now he couldn't search the fucking city! He got in his car, calling louis just in case harry got crazy last night and he went to Tomlinson mansion, but no, not there either.

At first he searched around the neighborhood for Harry's car, the city was so crowded that he thought calling cops was a better option, he was really consecrating that when his phone went off, he glanced at the screen seeing Harry's name on it.

"WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU!" he was angry ok? He thought harry is kidnapped or something.

"jeez Liam, I'm home"

"try again fucker, I just checked your house"

Well damn, harry didn't think he was that worried "oh, um ok, I'm on my way home though"

"yo- ok I'll meet you there" and then he hanged up.

When harry arrived he didn't expect to meet I'm this close to kill you face on Liam, but yeah he thought it better to run.

"Liam look I'm real-"

"no! you have no right to do this harry! You can't just disappear like that! I was this close to call the cops!" Liam whisper-yelled with angry tears pooling in his eyes.

Harry didn't hesitate to give Liam one of those bear hugs, "I'm so sorry! I just fell asleep in the car; I swear I didn't plan for this"

Liam pushed out of the hug gently, giving him a pointed look, "in the car? Why?"

Harry thought lying wouldn't do any good for him so "I had a flashback Liam, it felt so real" he said as he fell back on the sofa, tugging on his hair, trying to stop the memories from coming back.

The state of his friend broke his heart, Liam sat next to harry, rubbing his back gently, "I'm in" he mumbled after some time.

"huh?" harry mumbled as he turned to look at Liam.

"whatever plan you have, I'm in" Liam smirked as he saw Harry's mood instantly lift up.

"this calls for a celebration" harry got up and went to the mess of the kitchen and groaned, he didn't remember that he had to clean it.

"no alcohol!" Liam yelled, he didn't want another hangover harry to deal with tomorrow.

"alright, pizza it is then, daddy lima" harry always had fun teasing Liam's overprotectiveness.

"louis calls me that" he smirked, ha, take it hazza.

"ew, no, I don't want that mental image, no!" and he went to call for their pizza.

It was around 7 when Zayn woke up, yeah he slept that much, he always dose, there is nothing better to do so...

He wished he haven't though, he was sweating, his ass was on fire, he couldn't feel his legs, and well in short he felt like shit.

He limped out of bed, glancing at the clock, he didn't know when victor would arrive, so he had to make it quick.

Looking around the cabinets in the kitchen for five minutes, he finally found the bottle of sleeping pills that he saved for a special occasion.

He took a glass of water and sat in front of the small tv in the living room. He counted, 50 pills, they should be enough right?

It was around 8 when he finally found the courage to do it, at first one by one, after 10th, he thought it's easier to take 5 at every go so he did it, until it was only five left, he twisted them in his palm, 'this is it' he thought.

He was lying on the sofa waiting for it to finally happen when he heard jingles of keys from the front door, at least he won't feel anything, he smiled.

Opening the door, victor was met with yet again sleepy Zayn, no surprise there, but he was smiling, that's something to worry about though.

"whatcha smiling about fucker?" victor asked as he tossed his bag next to the door.

And Zayn just closed his eyes still smiling.

Victor was about to comment again when he saw the bottle, well still no surprises, if there is a Zayn there is a bottle of pills around him too, but when he got closer he saw the thing was empty.

"what the fuck did you do?!" he can't go to jail just cuz Zayn didn't want to live anymore! If he died, then everyone would see all the things happened to his body, nope, not gonna happen.

So he just pulled the slightly unconscious boy to the bathroom and made him sit in front of toilet and forced his fingers down his throat, and successfully made him throw up.

He did it 3 times, making Zayn to drink water and then throw up again, painful for Zayn and disgusting for victor, but it had to be done.

After he was sure there was nothing life threatening in Zayn's body he dragged him to the bedroom and tossed him on the matters.

"remember this Zayn if you do it again, and you successfully kill your useless self, you know what will happen? Next would be your sister, what will happen if people know about her? Huh? So I suggest you to try to keep that heart beating" he spat and left the bedroom, decided to watch tv or something or he would kill the boy himself.

And Zayn? He decided that he could take it, not for him, at least for just one person who thought would care about him.

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longer but i feel like it was shitty? let me know how it was? thanks for reading :)