31: Feelings & guilt

This proximity reminded her of the wild dream she had earlier. Without giving it a second thought she leaned in turning it into reality and this time for sure reality.

The kiss began slowly as she nibbled his lower lip seemingly lost but feeling his lack of response she was about to back off but then suddenly he held her face to keep in position and started devouring her upper lip. The kiss turned passionate and gradually it became wild just like their heartbeats. Their mouths opened and their tongues mated to get dominance. They tasted each other's mouth one by one, still not getting satisfied.

Randhir felt like just taking her to their bed asap and then loving her without any barrier but he knew that even he was not ready for it now leave alone her. He needed to get a grip on himself before drowning into the temptation.

Sanyukta just lived the moment, at that particular time she forgot everything all she remembered was that she was being kissed by her husband. At that moment she felt so loved and so special. Even after the evident roughness she could feel his hidden softness for her, these thoughts made her smile between the kiss and she pulled him closer by wrapping her arms around his waist.

They parted after a long time breathing heavily, their stance still same. Randhir bent down and joined their foreheads still panting and their eyes closed. After a minute they were finally able to stable their breathes and took another minute to open their eyes.

As soon as they opened their eyes, the whole situation got in their systems. Randhir knew that Sanyukta did what she did in the heat of the moment but he didn't want her to regret her decision so he leaned back a little to see her reaction.

At the feeling of being watched Sanyukta looked up and saw him looking at her with a concerned expression. As if understanding his unsaid worry she gave him as small shy smile and looked down.

Relief washed over him as he saw her smile. He happily kissed her forehead causing the heat on her cheeks to rise just like his respect in her heart. He gave her his best smile when she peeped up a little and adored him.

He lightly caressed her cheeks with his knuckles and said softly "hume ab sona chahiye." He tugged at her hand.

She just nodded quietly and followed him, on the way he slowly interlocked their fingers to which she just tightened her hold on his hand. They went to their room and after changing  they slept the most beautiful sleep of their life in each other's embrace.
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Randhir slept very little at night and woke up very early. As he opened his eyes, he turned to his side to take in the most soothing view of the world, his wife sleeping just inches apart from her and her hands wrapped around his torso like hugging a teddy bear.

Being so close to her, he studied her features closely. His gaze traveled from her crease-free forehead to her long lashes, he planted a light kiss on her forehead. Then from her cute little nose his eyes shifted to her supple cheeks, he kissed there. Finally he looked at her lips, pink and perfectly shaped, he looked at the little mole at the extreme corner of them, it was almost hidden and impossible to see from far, he had the urge to kiss it so without thinking much he smoothed a feathery kiss on the corner of her lips.

He thought that god must have definitely taken an extra minute to create her and somehow his chauvinistic mind became proud that she was his, all his. Suddenly a possessive feeling took birth in his heart, he wanted to limit her to himself and never let her be away even for a millisecond and not let anyone else near her, no one.

He sighed as he knew that it was practically impossible and got confused as to why was he having these weird feelings for her lately? Why he felt like that even if he stays away from her for a minute, he would die? What is this feeling? What is it called?

There was another question in the corner of his heart which he was hesitating to acknowledge - did she feel the same way? Because he knew he would be heart broken if she didn't.

He gave her a last glance before getting up and starting an early day, unaware of the storm waiting for him outside, a storm that might take his peace away.
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As he headed downstairs he found the house empty, of course it will be it was early morning after all. He saw the door to the study open, as he proceeded towards it he found his father sitting there reading some file with undivided attention.

As he stepped him, feeling someone's presence harsh looked up and looked at him pleasantly surprised. He kept away the file and turned to him.

"Arree aaj sahabzade itni jaldi kaise uth gye?" He mocked playfully.

"Kyuki sahabzade ko neend nhi aa rhi thi." Randhir answered proudly. "Lekin aap yaha itni subah kya kar rhe hai?" He added a question.

"Arree woh party ka kuch kaam tha toh jaldi uthna pada." Harsh answered smilingly.

"Kyu karte hai aap itna kaam? Thak jaate honge naa?" Randhir's voice dripped concern.

"Arree yeh thakan bhi koi thakan hai bhala. Waise bhi ab toh bas 3 mahino ki baat hai. Uske baad hum soyenge aaram se aur aap kaam kariyega." Harsh said resting his head back.

"Kyu 3 mahino mei aisa kya hoga?" Randhir furrowed his brows in confusion.

"Arree aap bhool kaise sakte hain. Yaad kariye, jab aap Sanyukta se shadi karne ko tayaar nhi the toh humari deal hui thi ki aap 6 mahino tak usse shadi nibhaiyenge toh hum aapko apni kursi denge aur aap party ke naye adhyaksh (president of party) banjayenge." He reminded.

Randhir stood there frozen. Gosh!!! He had completely forgotten about the deal. That was the whole idea of this marriage. He was supposed to live with her for 6 months ONLY.

"Randhir kaha khogye aap?" Harsh asked.

"Ka...kahi nhi pitaji. Hu...hum chalte hai." He started leaving from there hurriedly.

They both were unaware of the fact that there was someone on the door, who had heard everything and smirked as got the master stroke. As hearing randhir leave, the person immediately stormed in the kitchen.

While leaving he bumped into Kanika going inside the kitchen with tea tray. He looked at her for a moment and asked confused "kanu aap yaha pe kya kar rhi hai itni subah?"

"Woh... Woh randhir hum jaldi uth gye toh apne aur harsh uncle ke liye chai banayi thi." He answered looking at the cups.

"Phir di kyu nhi?" He again pitched a query.

"Woh... Hum dene hi aa rhe the phir dekha ki tum bhi waha ho toh humne socha ki aapke liye bhi chai bana de toh wapas aa rhe the ussi ke liye." She continued to look down, lost in her thoughts.

"Hume abhi kuch nhi chahiye, aap pitaji ko dedo." He dismissed her and walked off.

As soon as he entered the room and his eyes fell on her as a reflex and a weird feeling filled in his again heart but this time it was bad weird. He didn't know what to call this one too, guilt, fear, frustration?

All he knew that he won't be able to think straight if he stays here and quickly takes his jeep keys to leave but he again looked at her, this time his eyes teared up thinking of her reaction after 3 months, at the time of divorce.

He was very guilty thinking how could he just forget about the deal and get close to her, he kissed her, even after knowing everything he touched her. Won't she be broken after knowing that he just used her for his benefit?

No he couldn't see her like that, he couldn't loose her. But then what about the dream he has seen day night from ever since he remembered. Wasn't his ambition important?

He had a lot of thinking to do and for that he needed to go to some peaceful place. He hastly made a small note about his departure for some fake reason and kept it securely on her bedside table. He covered her with the quilt properly and left from there not before kissing her forehead.
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So the realization finally dawns upon him!!! Any thoughts???

If you think form his pov, what do you think will be his next step?

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