Hey guys. So before we start, I just wanna thank FaithLovesStitch for the request and if anyone else has any requests, please let me know. Also, this is going to be an angsty one shot with some fluff nearer the end so if you don't like angst, you have been warned. I'm going to start putting an angst warning at the beginning of any angsty one shots for those of you who don't like angst just to let you know. Also, some background information. This one shot kinda takes place before Accepting Anxiety but Virgil has already told Patton his name cause he trusts him since they have been dating for a while. Basically, Patton has just found out that Anxiety has ducked out but the others haven't visited his room just yet. Disclaimer: I do not own this song. It belongs to NF featuring Britt Nicole. Hope you enjoy 💖

Patton sat alone on his bed, head in his hands and tears dripping down his face and onto his hands. Why did Virgil have to leave? Why did the love of his life have to dissapear? And why didn't he tell him? Although Patton liked the other two sides, Virgil was the only one who truly understood Patton. Virgil barely ever mocked him or ridiculed him. Sometimes the others would but never Virgil. Virgil actually cared about him. Virgil actually loved him. But now that he was gone, Patton felt extremely lonely and as if there was no one there for him anymore. Tears clouding his vision, Patton lifted his head and looked over to his table to see a picture if him and Virgil together, happy and smiling. Sniffing, he slowly stood up and head over to the table. As he lifted up the picture, drops of tears fell onto it.

"Virgil, why did you have to leave?" Patton asked quietly, admiring the picture. "It feels like a tear in my heart, like a part of me missing and I just can't feel it. I've tried and I've tried. And I've tried" Sadness still filling every inch of his body, Patton flopped back onto his bed, holding the picture close to his chest, and just cried and cried and cried.

Meanwhile

Virgil lay on his bed feeling lonlier and worse than ever. He thought that ducking out and isolating himself from the others would make him happier but it just increased his sadness. However, he had no idea why. No one liked him anyway. They all sighed and complained whenever he appeared. No one ever wanted to be near him. So why was he feeling this way? That's when he realised, there was someone who cared about him: Patton. Patton actually cared about him and was actually pleased when he appeared. Unlike the others, he actually trusted Patton and even loved him enough to tell him his name. But now he had removed himself from everyone else, he could never see him again. It was too late for him to go back now though. He had made up his mind and there was no going back. Besides, even if he wanted to, he couldn't unless everyone wanted him to and they clearly didn't. However, that didn't mean that he didn't regret his decision.

The more he thought about how lonely he felt and how much he missed his boyfriend Patton, tears began to run down his cheeks, smudging his makeup. He desperately tried to wipe them away as tears were a sign of weakness in his mind but for every tear that he wiped away, five more fell so he just had to give up. "Tears on my face. I can't take it. If lonely's a taste then it's all that I'm tasting. Do you hear me cry? I cry" he quietly mumbled to himself.

Both sides wanted so desperately for the other one to come to them. They desperately wanted to be held one more time by the other. "Can you hold me?" They both asked as if the other could hear them. "Can you hold me?" They asked again. "Can you hold me in your arms?" They asked one last time.

Virgil slowly closed his eyes, imaging Patton's warm embrace, his arms wrapped around him. "Just wrap me in your arms, in your arms. I don't wanna be no where else. Take me from the dark. Take me from the dark. I ain't gonna make it myself. Put your arms around me. Put your arms around me. Let your love surround me. I am lost. I am lost" Virgil told the imaginary Patton, crying into his chest.

"Shhh it's ok kiddo" The imaginary Patton reassured him, rubbing his back soothingly. "But you have to open your eyes now"

Reluctantly, Virgil's eyes reopened and he was all alone again, his face still soaked with tears.

"If I ain't got you, yeah, if I ain't got you I ain't got nothing at all" Both sides cried, tears now streaming down their faces at a faster rate. "Can you hold me? Can you hold me? Can you hold me in your arms? In your arms?"

Meanwhile

Patton couldn't take it any longer. He had to see Virgil again, feel his warm arms wrapped around him. Closing his eyes, he began to feel himself sinking down out of his room and into Virgil's. He knew what affect Virgil's room had on him but he didn't care. He would do anything just to see Virgil again. His eyes reopened as he saw Virgil lying down on his tear soaked bed.

"Virgil?" Patton called out. Virgil's eyes immediately shot open.

"Patton?" Virgil called out as he ran towards him, wrapping his arms around him. "Oh I've missed you so much Patton. I'm so sorry. I should have never left"

"Shhh. It's ok kiddo" Patton rubbed his back soothingly as he softly kissed his cheek.

"I just felt so lonely and as if I wasn't wanted but then I remembered how much you love me and care for me but it was too late" Virgil told Patton as he cried into his chest.

"It's ok. I understand" Patton told him, continuing to rub his back.

"But it's not ok. I felt even worse without you" Virgil told him. "I feel like it's just me, like it's just me. What it gonna take, what it gonna be?"

"It's not just you"

"But I'm lonely. Feel like I don't even know me. I don't even know me"

"I feel it to"

"Gotta have you. Gotta see you"

"You're the only thing I ever think about. The only one that I can't live without. I need you, need you to hold me now" Patton whispered into Virgil's ear, his voice cracking from tears, both full of sadness and joy, with every word.

"Can you hold me? Can you hold me? Can you hold me in your arms?" They asked eachother, the hug they were in tightening. Their eyes still clouded with tears, they both leant in for a kiss and as their lips touched, they both felt reassured that they would always be there for eachother.

"Can you hold me? Can you hold me? Can you hold me in your arms?" They repeated the question to eachother. Patton carefully moved Virgil's hair out of the way and rubbed his cheek with his thumb. But although he felt calmer and slightly more reassured, Virgil's head was still clouded with thoughts that he had to let out.

"I feel like it's just me, like it's just me. What it gonna take? What it gonna be? I don't even know. I don't even know. But I'm lonely, lonely. Feel like I don't even know me. Feels like I don't even know me. I don't even know me" Every word he spoke caused more tears to spill down his face.

"Shhh" Patton hushed him and kissed his cheek, bring warmth to his stone cold face. "Can you hold me?"

Nodding, Virgil lifted Patton up and the two lovers hugged eachother until they began to feel at ease in eachothers arms.