Hey guys. So I really wanted to thank emo_virgil_sanders for kinda giving me the idea to do something Be More Chill related. However, I couldn't really think of anything moxiety inside the Be More Chill universe because I see Patton as Christene and Virgil as Michael and I don't really see them in a relationship so I decided to do something a little different. It's very loosely based on Be More Chill but I had no other ideas so.... BTW, the picture above doesn't match what I put the characters as in the story but it's the only Be More Chill and Sanders Sides picture I could find so just go along with it. I know it's really bad but oh well. At least I tried. Anyway, I hope you enjoy it, even if it is really bad.

Patton's POV

We were all sat in Thomas's living room on the sofa, waiting excitedly for the big reveal. Roman had the amazing idea for us to all put on a performance of one of our favourite musicals: Be More Chill. We had all auditioned and now, Roman was going to read out the cast list. Even Deceit was there. I had managed to convince him to participate so that we didn't leave him out although he seemed a bit reluctant at first but I know that he was lying about not wanting to do it.

The longer we waited, the more nervous I became, but not for the reason you'd expect. I wasn't nervous about not getting a good part because to be honest, there weren't many part in the musical and most of the parts had a descent amount of lines. What I was nervous about was what part I got, well more specifically what part Virgil and I got.

I had a big crush on Virgil that no one else but me knew about. That was mainly because I didn't want things to get awkward between Virgil and I. We were best friends and I didn't want my feelings for him to get in the way of that. That's why I hoped that one of us would get the role of Jeremy and the other would get the role of Christene. Since it was just us sides and a couple of Thomas's friends, none of his female friends though for some bizzare reason, all the female roles had to be played by the males. Anyway, if we played Christene and Jeremy, we could play two people who end up loving eachother at the end of the play. That way, I could show my love for him without making anyone feel awkward. I know that nothing really happens between them but it would be better than having to conceal my true feelings for him.

Finally, Roman arrived, walking dramatically down the stairs and holding a scroll in his hands. Clearing his throat, he said "May I have everyone's attention?" All of the talking stopped almost immediately and everyone eagerly sat up, waiting for him to announce the roles.

"So after hours and hours of decision making, I have finally been able to put together what I think is the perfect cast for our production of "Be More Chill". Now, without further adue, I shall announce the roles in no particular order. Logan!" Logan adjusted his glasses when his name was called, a nervous tick he often has. "You shall be playing the roles of Mr Heere, Mr Reyes and the sketchy squip dealer" Roman announced and Logan didn't look at all pleased.

"I do not believe that those roles fit me very well. Besides, I do not wish to spend the majority of the musical without any pants" Logan complained but in his serious monotone voice.

"Logan, stop complaining. I can kick you out of the performance and have someone else take over your role if you want and you just won't get to participate. Do you want that?" Roman asked

"Well obviously I don't but-"

"Well that settles it then. You're playing those roles and no other roles" Roman interrupted him. Normally, I would have had a stern talking to with Roman about his behaviour but I was too nervous to do that. "Next up, Deceit! You shall be playing the Squip" Roman told Deceit and I swear I saw a small smile from the slimey boi but he tried to hide his joy with lies, though it wasn't working.

"I totally don't want to do this and I totally don't want to play that role" He lied and Roman just rolled his eyes.

"Yeah yeah whatever. Alright, next up: Patton" my palms began to get sweaty and I swear my heart skipped a beat as butterflies fluttered around in my stomach. "Please be either Christene or Jeremy" I said mentally and my face lit up when my role was called.

"You shall play the role of Christene" A big smile grew across my face as I literally jumped for joy before noticing the weird looks everyone was giving me. I quickly sat back down in my seat, my smile refusing to leave my face.

"Sorry. I just get a bit over excited sometimes. And I really wanted this role" I explained as Virgil chuckled slightly. I absolutely loved it when he smiled or laughed, especially if it was due to me.

"That's perfectly ok Patton. I always react the same way when Thomas gets the role he wants in performances" Roman told me. "Next, Virgil"

Now I had the role of Christene, all I needed was Virgil to get the role of-

"Michael" Roman announced and I felt my heart, as well as my face, sink. I couldn't help but see Virgil's small smirk out of the corner of the room. It seemed as if he really wanted this role. I know I should have been happy for him getting what he wanted but it meant that I now had no shot with him.

Virgil must have seen my saddened expression from across the room because I saw him mouth "what's wrong?" To me.

Now he was concerned about me and I really didn't want him worrying about me so I put on a fake smile and mouthed back "Nothing. I'm fine" it was one of the biggest lies I'd ever told but I didn't want him to accidently confess my feeling for him. However, I saw Deceit whisper something into Virgil's ear. Frowning, Virgil stood up and made his way towards me.

"Um, what do you think you're doing Virgil? I haven't finished yet" I very annoyed Roman asked him but Virgil just ignored him and sat down next to me.

"What's wrong Pat?" Virgil asked, lowering his voice so that we didn't disturb the others.

"N-nothing. I-I'm fine Virge, honestly" I lied again, the pitch of my voice raising. Virgil just raised his eyebrow.

"Patton, I know you're lying. Deceit told me you were and he is kinda the representation of lies so he can tell when someone lies. Please just talk to me" He held my hand in his, gazing into my eyes. I felt my heart melt as I stared into his big, beautiful, brown eyes but I had to quickly look away from him guiltily.

"You wouldn't understand..." I mumbled and he just frowned.

"That's what I always say but you have a way of making me open up to you and I realise that you do understand. I want to do the same for you but I can't unless you let me. Please Pat" he pleaded and I just sighed. I had to open up to him eventually and I could tell that me keeping secrets from him was upsetting him. I really didn't want to upset my crush

"Fine. I guess I should tell you. It was gonna come out eventually. But can we go somewhere private please" I requested and nodding, Virgil closed his eyes and sunk down, me mimicking his actions. We reappeared in his room where he sat down on his bed, patting a space next to him, gesturing for me to sit next to him. Reluctantly, I slumped down next to him and he placed his arm around me reassuringly.

"Now tell me Pat, what's been bothering you?" Virgil asked and I took in a deep breath, realising that I had to tell him.

"...Iloveyou..." I blurted out, immediately avoiding eye contact with him. For a few moments, there was an awkward silence. I've messed up haven't I? I probably scared him. Things are going to be awkward between us now aren't they? However, to my surprise, he pulled me into a tight hug and I burried my head in his shoulder.

"I love you too" he whispered into my ear. "But I was too...anxious to tell you"

"I-I didn't want to tell you because I-I didn't want to make things awkward between us" I explained. "I-in case y-you didn't love me b-back. A-and I thought th-that maybe i-if we played Jeremy a-and Christene in Roman's play th-then I-I c-could show my feelings for you w-without it being awkward b-but when y-you weren't cast as Jeremy I-I-" a few tears ran down my cheek as Virgil wiped them away with his thumb.

"Shhh. It's ok. I understand. I was actually kinda the same only I didn't want to show it in case you realised my feelings for you" I looked him in the eyes.

"Y-you were?" I asked and he nodded.

"Yeah"

"Well do you wanna...maybe...be a thing? Like go out with me?" I asked nervously and his face lit up.

"Of course" He smiled, planting a kiss on my forehead. "I love you Pat"

"I love you too Virge"